Lyme66

Date posted: 1y

This OCD is just annoying at this point.

It’s been about a month now since my OCD dramatically calmed down. The thoughts, urges and images still come at the same stampede-rate but the anxiety is gone, well for the most part it is. I get the occasional worry that it’s not OCD because there no anxiety to back up the things in my mind but even that little slice of the backdoor spike doesn’t stick around that long. I hope all of you can experience this semi-peace too if you’re not already. Love y’all!

kodyisland

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

i thought i was experiencing a backdoor spike. but now my thoughts are trying to convince me they’re real and that i enjoy them. like i get this weird feeling like i want to laugh or smile or that im smiling in my head. have you ever had experience with this?

Lyme66

Date posted: 1y

@kodyisland Well, yes and no. I usually laugh because when I’m in a calm state I will reflect back on the thoughts that might have been messing with me earlier in the day and I laugh because it just sounds ridiculous. Sounds like OCD is just presenting itself as urges. At least that’s how it sounds to me, I get synthetic urges too though.

kodyisland

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@Liam45 have you ever like had the thought that you like the thoughts ?

Lyme66

Date posted: 1y

@kodyisland All the time. Also because the groinal responses don’t help much

kodyisland

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@Liam45 even with harm ones?

Lyme66

Date posted: 1y

@kodyisland Well all the episodes I had when I was kid and 21 were HARM OCD but now I only have POCD and occasionally Real Event OCD. No I’ve never thought I liked my harm thoughts though.

kodyisland

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@Liam45 oh. welp this has backfired on me. ig that’s why we shouldn’t be seeking reassurance

Lyme66

Date posted: 1y

@kodyisland Yeah buddy. Stop that please. You’re gonna scare yourself more than you already are. Everyone’s OCD is different.

kodyisland

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@Liam45 i know. i was doing good and then ever since last night i’ve been really struggling

Lyme66

Date posted: 1y

@kodyisland Tell me about it. I’ll listen.

Iloverowdy12

Date posted: 1y

Are you taking any medication for it

Lyme66

Date posted: 1y

@Iloverowdy12 No. From how my therapist put it, everyone’s OCD can come out of no where and disappear out of no where. Not saying one day you just no longer have it but the symptoms just go away and can come back whenever you’re not expecting at any random time. And for me this is true, my whole life it has come and gone, sometimes it would go away for years and return with no warning. I think mine was triggered by self isolated and a long period of being jobless which I was from March 2023 to late Nov of 2023, now that I’m working I have something new to occupy my brain but still it comes with me.

Iloverowdy12

Date posted: 1y

@Liam45 I get that I had a bad episode in 2016 and now having another in 2023 but in 2016 I struggled 6 months then just went away

Lyme66

Date posted: 1y

@Iloverowdy12 Mine never lasted that long. Well, when I was a kid it was on and off constantly. Day by day it was different. Then when I was 13 it returned for maybe 2 months then went away again. Now the one episode from last year, I still consider myself in it because the thoughts are still coming and coming despite there being no anxiety coming with them, they haven’t stopped, so by that logic this episode is on Month #5 and counting.

benjita1

Date posted: 1y

I totally get the anxiety thing. I’m on 50mg Sertraline and it has basically taken away the anxiety that I used to get really badly. It has made me several times question if I have something other than OCD, but at the end of the day that’s just OCD doing its thing!

Michele32

Date posted: 17w

Past and OCD

I hope everyone is doing well today, and for those of you who are struggling my thoughts and prayers are with you. Just know your moment of peace is coming soon. I think it’s important that we post / come on here every now and again even when we are not in a moment of pure panic and fear. Remember that we are not our thoughts as hard as it is to understand. Remember that OCD makes it feel “real” and that OCD will always make us think the most inappropriate things and the most inappropriate times. Remember that all humans, have thoughts that come and go and as hard as it can be to understand you are not alone in your thoughts that feel so unique. For me I get a lot of anxiety from thoughts I used to have , which of course makes them return in full throttle. The more I push them away the more they come back. And those thought makes new connections to those things in my life I value. OCD is a pain but it’s important that as much as you hate it you learn to be compassionate and understanding that it’s there to “help” you no matter how bad it does it job sometimes. Stay strong everyone

Holl1

Date posted: 15w

OCD

So I’ve noticed that my OCD has calmed down, I’m getting less intrusive thoughts but I feel more uncertain than ever. Is this normal for recovery?

Holl1

Date posted: 12w

OCD recovery

I think I’m in the recovery stage as my thoughts have settled so much & I only get intrusive thoughts on occasion and get worse only when I’m anxious, but the quietness in my brain feels so weird & I feel awful saying that because all I wanted was the thoughts to stop. This is the most quiet it’s been it’s over 7 months, so to go from non stop thoughts for a long time to quietness I don’t know how to take it. Has anyone else felt like this in recovery

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