Feeling utterly hopeless at the moment 😔 I’ll have hours in a day where I’m able to resist compulsions and live a ‘normal’ life. Then one little thing will cause me to have a complete meltdown and be unable to function. I feel like I’m never going to get better
I've felt like that many times in the past. I can distinctly remember saying those exact words. Usually the before that the words what if where in there too. What if I never get better. No guarantees, but with work you can improve and get better. If you go a whole morning without doing a compulsion see that as a success even if you do one later one. Don't try to be perfect. You are gonna have set backs. I "beat" ocd and had almost 12 years of no symptoms and then had a set back. I went 18 months of good recovery before having a minor blip that I am working through. Ups and downs. You can do it just do erp, do the work, embrace the shit so to speak, and don't best yourself up when you have a setback. If you don't have one, get a good therapist. That's where I have been lucky in all my episodes.
It will happen. They’re momentary lapses. The fact that we’ve worked through them and continue to work through them is what matters. We are and life is so much more than our OCD. I know how hopeless it can feel in the moment and how helpless it makes you feel. Just know you aren’t alone.
I have said those words many times before. I can tell you from personal experience it gets better. I would wake up every morning and throw up as soon as I got up, my stomach would churn and my ocd thoughts and compulsions would take over and it would repeat. It physically made me sick. But it does get better. you may not think so now, and that’s okay. Take it day by day. Having hours a day is better than not having any resistance. It’s hard to not give in, but you are doing it. You have done it. You are doing great! You are human. I am proud of you. :)
You’re so strong, this is not easy. The way this disorder can put a hold on what we love and who we want to be is so scary. But just remember your compulsions are a symptom of OCD, they do not define you!!! Compulsions do not keep us safe they keep us scared, stuck and uncertain. Give yourself grace, you deserve it
I’m having a meltdown! Help! I have been reducing my reassurance lately. I went from 250 to now like 20 times. Huge jump in last month. But I feel absolutely awful still because it’s ERP and it gets worse before you get better. I’m so on edge so the slightest things trigger me. I’ve been having a horrible meltdown for an hour screaming at top of my lungs. I just want ERP TO Work!!! I’m putting in so much effort. I believe I’m getting closer but these meltdowns are horrible. Hopefully it’s a good sign that erp is working because the ocd is mad. Anyone else experience this in ERP? It’s such a huge change and I want my life back so bad! During this meltdown, my ocd has told me that I’m never going to get better and I’m scared.
I just don’t know how much more of this I can take. I’m so fed up of the way my OCD makes me feel, plagued with thoughts that I hate my son, I don’t love my partner, I want to die, my life is pointless. I’m trying so hard, I’m doin ERP, I’m trying to carry on my life as normal but I just feel SO depressed. I am convinced that I am stuck like this forever now, clearly nothing is working and I’m just ready to give up 😢
I am generally optimistic about my OCD recovery but today I am feeling very hopeless. It feels like I may never recover from it and that it’s a life long punishment.
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