It feels like I’ve become immoral over the last year due to all of the POCD thoughts and feelings and it feels like that’s who I am now. I used to have a strong sense of morality and now since i genuinely feel like I’ve turned into THAT, it feels like it’s gone. I of course don’t want to do those things, but if it’s in my head 24/7 what else am I supposed to believe??
Sorry, I know this is a lot of info, I took a lot of Anatomy & Physiology classes and Biology Classes in College, this stuff is interesting to me.
Please get your Methylation checked, you probably have MTHFR (Methyl-Tetra-Hydra-Folate-Reductase)...you can get an MTHFR test done by your doctor atleast some hospitals do it. You Methylate Folate and Methyl B-12, B-6 and TMG, Tri-Methyl Glycine)...there is many other things to take as well. A big problem too is your B-12 is too low or on the fringe of being low. There are other things to take such as Turmeric, Fish Oil, and a good Methylated Multi-multi-vitamin. Please hang in there.
How does that help you?
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You need Methyl-Folate I meant. As well as some type of B-12, Hydroxy, Adeno- B-12 and maybe even an active form of B-6, then P5P.
@Anonymous I don’t doubt that those things help but can help me understand how it’ll helps mentally?
@Jay222 OCD has A LOT to do with the Neurotransmitters in the brain being off. Serotonin, GABA, Glutamate and maybe Dopamine are all off. Serotonin and GABA are inhibitory Neurotransmitters which helps to Calm and Relax you, OCD sufferers are too LOW in these. Glutamate and MAYBE Dopamine are Excitatory Neurotransmitter are too HIGH in OCD Sufferers, (Not totally sure of Dopamine, some can be low in Dopamine too) these Neurotransmitters are off because of faulty communication between the Nerves/Neurons. You have a Neuron followed by an Axon that is made Myelin Sheath (it is made of Cholesterol, B-12 and some other stuff.) , and then there is a "Synaptic Gap" where Neurotransmitters have to travel through the Axon/Myelin Sheath and then have to cross, (jump) the Synaptic Gap and then communicate and make it to the other side to the next Neuron/Nerve. So it goes Neuron, Axon(made of Myelin Sheath), Synaptic Gap (also called Synaptic Cleft) where the Neurotransmitters cross to the next Neuron/Nerve, this is basically your Central Nervous System. There are other things like Oligodendrocytes and other Glial Cells I believe too, but that is Digressing. If Any Part of this system is damaged such as damaged Neurons or more likely damaged Myelin Sheath/Axon you have Neurotransmitters that can't cross the "Synaptic Gap" to get to the next Neuron. You have to have active communication between all the Neurons and the Neurotransmitters to work harmoniously for this all to work, There are a TON of these cells and axons in between the cells. I can't even remember how many Neurons there are but atleast a Billion if not Billions. The BIG Problem in OCD Sufferers is the Myelin Sheath is damaged from Lack of B12 and a certain healthy amount of Cholesterol (Cholesterol isn't amazingly bad like some say, just not too much). You need a good amount of B12 to build up the Myelin Sheath. Your brain is made up of 60-70% Fat, so Cholesterol and Omega 3's are pretty good for the brain. "Spirulina" is an algae made of Cyanobacteria/Cyanocobalmin I believe and taking a Spirulina Supplement is actually great for the Myelin Sheath, I take between 3-10 grams a day of Spirulina which is quite a bit.
Sorry, I almost accidently deleted that whole so I posted it. Those Neurotransmitters aren't even all the Neuro-Transmitters, There are many others like Acetyl-Choline, Taurine, as a secondary Neurotransmitter, Inositol too is in there as a secondary Neurotransmitter and others that I can't remember off the top of my head. Taking Taurine (it is hard to find a good Taurine), Inositol, Fish Oil, and FOR CERTAIN Serotonin, so "SSRI's" and if people don't want regular SSRI medication they can try Tryptophan, 5-HTP, St. John's Wort to build up Serotonin in the brain. SSRI's like Sertraline/Zoloft and Fluoxetine/Prozac are good SSRI's to take. Clomipramine is a tricyclic anti-depressant and I THINK/not sure recycles Serotonin /I could be wrong about this mechanism but Clomipramine is a GREAT drug for OCD, however it works, sorry I take Clomipramine but haven't fully studied up on it. SSRI's are obviously much stronger than natural supplements but if people want to go the natural route, they can try. There are other supplements like Choline (the membrane(outside part) of Neurons is made of Choline, so Choline is a good supplement for OCD Sufferer's. Folate ALSO helps make Nerves and Folate works with B-12 to help make Nerves/Myelin Sheath I believe and part of the problem is that we OCD Sufferers can't fully process Folate especially the synthetic "Folic Acid" Form. We need Methyl-Folate and some need Methyl B-12 to help make Nerves and Myelin Sheath. Honestly I am not sure if Folate makes Nerves or just helps make Myelin Sheath as a helper to B-12, I need to study that more. Please forgive me for not fully understanding but I do have the MTHFR gene. This basically the process and this good enough for now. Everyone PLEASE hang in there and just know that GOD Loves you and has a plan for each one of you. Please believe this, thank you Jesus!
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I deal pretty heavily with this. The last couple days, I’ve had what I think are urges. Something pops into my head intrusively and then what stems from that is me WANTING to just indulge in it even though it’s gross. I get worried bc I used to struggle w thoughts about my dad for a long time until eventually I just purposely thought of him while self pleasuring and got off to it. While that’s something I did, it is NOT me. It all stemmed from my mental health declining a couple years back, I was never this way before. So I get worried that it almost happened or might happen with my pocd cuz I could never live with myself if it did.
Just gonna vent, this never happened to me before during my 20 years alive. Whether it is POCD or not, I have truly lost my sense of self and my innocence. Why of all things did this have to happen. Ive been experiencing more strong groinal responses and mixed feelings of arousal regarding specific thoughts. Its so odd, cause last month none of this happened, it was mainly just anxiety and mental breakdowns. Never did I think I would experience physical sensations as well. Acting on compulsions as well left me feeling absolute confusion, Ive stopped doing that but now I get the urge here and there, and Ive learned to sit with the discomfort. All this leaves me with more questions on whether I will truly get through this or not, or if people will understand my situation. On certain days I feel fine, on other days its sheer terror. I blame myself mainly for this all, It is scary as these images, causing both arousal and terror, only result in me feeling like a shell of my former self
Now i have been a little upset, and i just came across a post that asked people, "What's one of those things that people refuse to accept out of morality, but you believe to be true?" One of the most liked answers was: "Killing criminals should be legal", another answer said: "Imagine a carnage of p... To be in a better world where children don't suffer" I mean, i'm not advocating for those criminals, and in some ways i agree that the world would be better off without them, but my mind keeps assuming i'm already one of them and they're talking about me. It's torture. I don't know what to do or think, It's just that there's no point in "accepting that it could or could not be the fear in my mind", because if it's true, it would mean the most horrible thing in the world. That is, for ROCD, for SOOCD, yeah, it's that irrational and fault logic by definition. There is no shame in being gay, heterosexual or not, loving your partner or not is not a matter of live and death, but POCD doubt IS, i mean... Not only does it feel important, IT IS important for me and i would believe that for everybody, because that's a matter of hurting other people or not, it's a matter of ruining someone's live or not. I can't practice ignoring my mind, saying "ok, maybe", BECAUSE IT'S AN EXTRAODINARILY HORRIBLE TOPIC.
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