POCD

@bekind94 Hey! There’s a lot going on in my head rn and the last few days it feels like this theme is becoming more and more real. It feels like these thoughts are becoming apart of my identity and who I am as if I WANT to do those things but I don’t. A certain thought keeps showing up and I’m not really reacting enough to it except shaking my head but it still proves nothing to me. I just feel so numb from it. I also had some sugary stuff for breakfast and I feel kind of energetic and it’s making me feel like I want/like that thought. I’m trying to talk to guys I like and then that thought appears over and over and idk what to do about it anymore.

@bekind94 Yes, but it sucks after dealing with it for so long you start to think it’s who you are and your morals and values are just gone and you start think it’s ok when you know it’s not. It feels like I’ve been flattened and stomped on by this theme and this whole other “identity” has taken over. How am I supposed to treat the OCD and not the theme when the theme feels so overwhelmingly real??

@bekind94 I’m in therapy, my therapist has said I have OCD but there’s a chance I’m in deep denial and just wanted to get a diagnosis just to say I have it and go on with life being THAT person.

@bekind94 Well, it was a series of things. It got bad this last year and it’s been nonstop since then, but after graduating high school it started from me viewing adult content on twitter and thinking it was something else that it shouldn’t be. There was also other things that I don’t really worry about anymore but there were other things that used to bother me. I would get over it but then last year I remembered how much of a bully I was to kids younger than I was when I was a kid and those thoughts didn’t go away so easily especially when I’d watch stuff on Twitter…if you know what I mean. I know it’s very TMI and gross but that’s unfortunately how it started. And how it’s been for me the last year (2 years).

@Jay222 - What has helped me was getting in touch with acceptance and commitment therapy and compassion focused therapy, both aligned to assist me in my treatment. If you're interested, OCD Stories, a podcast made by Stuart Ralph, invites specialists and people within the OCD spectrum to talk about it and episodes... - #367: Dr Chad LeJeune - “Pure O" OCD: Letting Go of Obsessive Thoughtswith ACT. - #255: Dr Patricia Zurita Ona - W.I.S.E. M.O.V.E.S. in ACT based ERP. - #282: Dr Michael Twohig, Dr Patricia Zurita Ona and Jonny Say: ACT for OCD. - #334: Jonny Say – Self-compassion, and building up psychological flexibility in OCD treatment. - #297: Kimberley Quinlan: Self-Compassion for OCD. - #384: Dr Steven Phillipson: Living within the variability of being human, being centred, autonomy, and assertiveness in relation to OCD. - Dr Steven Hayes on ACT, OCD and Living A Meaningful Life. are quite insightful about what i’ve mentioned and like them a lot.

There’s a intrinsic multifatorial character to diagnosis, 'cause human beings are complex. Suffering, disease, and illness are all affected by multiple levels of organization, from the societal to the molecular. The most wise use of a diagnosis is tracking an individual’s symptoms and signs while also being genuinely curious about one’s entire experience about what’s happening to them — not to produce normativity. Then, there’s gonna be valuable and legit information feeding both patient’s and professional’s acknowledgment to make conscious choices about their treatment, care and healing.