JohnKit
- Date posted
- 1y ago
brenoaugustobrenoaugusto
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Let me tell you a story: I experience both CTPSD and OCD, i’m queer and, as it’s common to some of us, i’ve spent a fair share of time searching for a therapist whose background would support my needs. At the beginning, intrusiveness got so intense to the point i experienced suicidal ideation — so, when seeking help, i had no time to make good use of my own criteria, which led me to a therapist that not only wasn’t trained in treating OCD, but also wasn’t culture informed about LGBTQIAP+. All of this led me to intrusive thoughts regarding my own sexual orientation, and it target it so hard to the point of creating a false idea that it is deviant and generated false attraction towards the opposite gender. I spent days in spiral, ‘til i dropped this professional’s sessions, got support from my own community and started a CBT-oriented therapy. Just to illustrate how intense intrusiveness can get.
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@brenoaugusto So u are lgbt but ur OCD made u fear u were actually straight? That’s like the opposite of what I’m goin thru. Sometimes I know it’s OCD, like I have all the symptoms but then there’s so much proof in my head that says I’m also gay or bisexual, but I don’t wanna be
brenoaugustobrenoaugusto
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@Anonymous Yes, that’s what happened to me. Its sensation of having evidences is generated by OCD intrusiveness. It’s hard.
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@brenoaugusto Yeh I keep checking, imagining scenarios to see my arousal levels. Like right now, and my private got a little thicker and grew a tiny bit but then I started to touch it aswel to see my reaction further and I think I got almost a partial. The worst part is when it looks like u want it in ur head. I had to imagine what the guy was feeling to even kickstart the arousal tho, like as if I was him
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Yeh obviously bro, if it didn’t feel real u wouldn’t be on this app
JohnKitJohnKit
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@Anonymous I don’t have intrusive thought about same sex anymore and it scare me that My attraction toward woman is not back and I still have doubt about my sexual orientation
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@JohnKit Search up “HOCD back door spike”
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@JohnKit And how did your intrusive thoughts to men go away?
JohnKitJohnKit
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@Anonymous I don’t even know hwo it go away
Gordy Gordy
- Date posted
- 1y ago
There is this false attraction,analyzing everything in the past and etc..but don’t worry if you feel discomfort form this it’s ocd 🤷🏼♂️and let it be dont panic just let it be trust god and everything is going to be okey brother 🙏🏻I’m experiencing this for almost a year don’t worry !
JohnKitJohnKit
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@Gordy I experienced it for a few months now
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- Date posted
- 23w ago
Soocd
Does anyone with so ocd get scared or feel like they r just going to suddenly realise they r gay. Like all of a sudden you’ll be like omg I’m gay and then I get scared like ong it’s happening to me Can any relate to this
Dead girl wa...
- Date posted
- 21w ago
I’m confused
Ok so I’m a 17 year old female, and I’ve always thought I was straight. But I just really want to know how you would know the difference between so-ocd and actually questioning your sexuality. I have nothing against the LGBTQ community (in fact I am very much a token straight friend, lol) but I saw a video about comp-het recently and it sort of felt like what I was experiencing. I don’t want to be gay, I want to be with men, I want to like men, I’ve always liked men, but now I’m questioning whether or not that’s real? Because people can be gay but not want to be right? I’m single and I always have been. I think women are gorgeous, but when I try to imagine actually having any sort of romantic or sexual relationship with a woman it feels wrong, at least most of the time it does? Sometimes I’m less sure, and I’ve never been particularly boy crazy. I’ve liked maybe 2 or 3 people in my life, (not to say I’ve never found other guys attractive, but it doesn’t seem to be as often as most people) I have no particular reason to be afraid of being gay, very supportive family, safe area ect, but I don’t want to be, does that mean this is ocd, I don’t know what’s going on every time I say I’m straight I feel like I’m lying, but that might just be because I think about it so much. The idea of being with a woman doesn’t feel like something I would want, but is that just because I don’t want to want it? People online say things with so much sureness, if you feel like this it means this. Ect.
allyocd
- Date posted
- 9w ago
Idk if I can do this anymore
It feels like I’m lying to myself constantly and everyone. There feels like there is a weight on my heart from the moment I wake up till I go to sleep. I don’t want to be gay. Idk why it doesn’t register. Now everyone I see I have to see if I’m attracted to them. I see good looking men and I feel like I’m lying to myself that they are good looking, I see women and I see if im attracted to them. I look at everyone and I feel jealous. I want my fucking life back. But now my OCD (if this is even OCD) is telling me I was never happy and I was always suppressing my feelings of being gay. Why is this happening? Can OCD do this? I can’t enjoy anything ever.
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