JohnKit
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brenoaugustobrenoaugusto
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Let me tell you a story: I experience both CTPSD and OCD, i’m queer and, as it’s common to some of us, i’ve spent a fair share of time searching for a therapist whose background would support my needs. At the beginning, intrusiveness got so intense to the point i experienced suicidal ideation — so, when seeking help, i had no time to make good use of my own criteria, which led me to a therapist that not only wasn’t trained in treating OCD, but also wasn’t culture informed about LGBTQIAP+. All of this led me to intrusive thoughts regarding my own sexual orientation, and it target it so hard to the point of creating a false idea that it is deviant and generated false attraction towards the opposite gender. I spent days in spiral, ‘til i dropped this professional’s sessions, got support from my own community and started a CBT-oriented therapy. Just to illustrate how intense intrusiveness can get.
AnonymousAnonymous
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@brenoaugusto So u are lgbt but ur OCD made u fear u were actually straight? That’s like the opposite of what I’m goin thru. Sometimes I know it’s OCD, like I have all the symptoms but then there’s so much proof in my head that says I’m also gay or bisexual, but I don’t wanna be
brenoaugustobrenoaugusto
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@Anonymous Yes, that’s what happened to me. Its sensation of having evidences is generated by OCD intrusiveness. It’s hard.
AnonymousAnonymous
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@brenoaugusto Yeh I keep checking, imagining scenarios to see my arousal levels. Like right now, and my private got a little thicker and grew a tiny bit but then I started to touch it aswel to see my reaction further and I think I got almost a partial. The worst part is when it looks like u want it in ur head. I had to imagine what the guy was feeling to even kickstart the arousal tho, like as if I was him
AnonymousAnonymous
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Yeh obviously bro, if it didn’t feel real u wouldn’t be on this app
JohnKitJohnKit
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@Anonymous I don’t have intrusive thought about same sex anymore and it scare me that My attraction toward woman is not back and I still have doubt about my sexual orientation
AnonymousAnonymous
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@JohnKit Search up “HOCD back door spike”
AnonymousAnonymous
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@JohnKit And how did your intrusive thoughts to men go away?
JohnKitJohnKit
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@Anonymous I don’t even know hwo it go away
Gordy Gordy
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There is this false attraction,analyzing everything in the past and etc..but don’t worry if you feel discomfort form this it’s ocd 🤷🏼♂️and let it be dont panic just let it be trust god and everything is going to be okey brother 🙏🏻I’m experiencing this for almost a year don’t worry !
JohnKitJohnKit
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@Gordy I experienced it for a few months now
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