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you deserve a support system that validates your stress, fear, and frustrations that make you feel your life is over. whoever would judge you for this is just tryna make themselves feel better than you tbh, even if it's your own ego turning against you. just remember that it's an irrational fear you have due to maybe an anxious attachment style where you don't trust yourself, but you trust others and seek reassurance from them a lot. no shame my dude, you're normal to me and i hope you get to a place where you can trust yourself and be fully aware that your true desires are not in anyway malicious. also youre not being tempted, youre being oppressed. hope this helps, cheers!
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Thankyou π means a lot and same for you if you are struggling to hope you get to pure happiness
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Iβve been dealing with a lot of anxiety and uncertainty I think Iβm really struggling right now. I was in my alone time (self pleasure) and obviously like whenever youβre doing your thing you might have fantasies or whatever and thatβs what came into my mind in the moment and then all of a sudden I get a flashback from a scene from pretty little liars came into my mind where Emily kisses Ali on the neck. In pilot actor who played Allison was 12 years old, which the pilot was the first episode I believe but in the rest of the season of season one she was 13 and that flashback was in season one as well after the pilot and Iβm really worried that I might have self pleasure to myself to that scene even though I knew all this time that she was 13 in that scene and I donβt feel comfortable because Iβm 16 and even though like itβs not too much of an age gap itβs still polished me and Iβm scared to death right now, but I didnβt panic immediately because I think I somewhat kinda knew in the moment that I probably didnβt do anything bad but I am not 100% sure and then the more I thought about it, I started to panic even more and now Iβm panicking even more now and I feel like a really big pedo, and I keep searching and googling and trying to check for her age to see how old she was in that scene and Iβm pretty sure she was 13 but I promise I wasnβt intentionally thinking oh yeah Iβm gonna self pressure myself to this scene regardlessof her age. No, Iβm just afraid I probably did without even like realizing or registering the thought in my mind, but then at the same time I kind of feel like maybe I was just coexisting with a thought and now Iβm scared Iβm really scared guys.
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feels like I violated a family friends son who is 10 years old because I was holding a kitty on my lap and they were scratching under the cats chin and I went to scratch under the cats chin as well but we ended up touching hands bc we were both scratching under but like I didnβt care bc I was just like awww kitty or whatever but then when we touched hands and he moved his hand away it freaked me out like I did something bad or violated him. It felt like I cupped and grazed his hand because I went to scratch under the cats chin but he was doing so as well. And when he moved his hand away it like slid past my hand and it just made me feel like I did something weird. Some people would be able to do this and not freak out and even continue scratching under the cats chin with the little boy and not care but I care and itβs making me feel really weird and bad. And also him moving his hand away when I touched it makes me feel like I did something bad. This all happened in a span of a literal second and I just want to disappear
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ππππ£πͺ ππππππππ₯ πππππππ βππΌπΈππΌ π»πβ'π βπΌπΈπ» ππ½ πΌπΈππππ π»ππππβπΉπΌπ» πΉπ πβπΌππΌπ πππβ πππ»π hi everyone, I am really struggling with something disturbing and I'm so afraid I'm a PDF. So my sis came to visit with my nephew for the first time. So the other day we were taking pics with the baby I was already feeling kinda nervous cuz I never held a baby before. Anyway it was my turn and I like I wonder if this would sexually stimulate him( not exactly the thought but the of thought was more graphic and I don't wanna disturb anyone). And I can't remember if I thought that while I was bumping him on my stomach (like how people bump babies on their hips) or before I started doing so. Anyways I can't really remember what my reaction to that thought was or if I started bumping him before or after I had that thought... So I tried not to think much of it but over time I started to spiral really bad and wonder why I thought that and why then I would bump him on my stomach after having that thought or during. I just feel so disgusted. Like was I curious about it? Did I disregard the thought because my brain thinks disturbing things? Ik right now away from that situation that ofc I have no sexual interest in my nephew at all. I played with him and helped changed diaper and everything and never had the urge to do anything inappropriate to him besides that one weird instance. So like I'm so disturbed like did that mean something? I have P OCD but that didn't really feel like an intrusive thought? I also can be very impulsive, and if it was impulsive does that mean I had a desire? Now I'm terrified of having kids even though I wanted some or to foster some. I mean I know but myself I'm not sexually attracted to kids but then why would I think that I am so disturbed really and feel so sick. ππππ I don't know what to do I'm so scared about what my motivation was I feel so bad and scaredππππ
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