Im worried.

you deserve a support system that validates your stress, fear, and frustrations that make you feel your life is over. whoever would judge you for this is just tryna make themselves feel better than you tbh, even if it's your own ego turning against you. just remember that it's an irrational fear you have due to maybe an anxious attachment style where you don't trust yourself, but you trust others and seek reassurance from them a lot. no shame my dude, you're normal to me and i hope you get to a place where you can trust yourself and be fully aware that your true desires are not in anyway malicious. also youre not being tempted, youre being oppressed. hope this helps, cheers!