- Date posted
- 1y
- Date posted
- 1y
you deserve a support system that validates your stress, fear, and frustrations that make you feel your life is over. whoever would judge you for this is just tryna make themselves feel better than you tbh, even if it's your own ego turning against you. just remember that it's an irrational fear you have due to maybe an anxious attachment style where you don't trust yourself, but you trust others and seek reassurance from them a lot. no shame my dude, you're normal to me and i hope you get to a place where you can trust yourself and be fully aware that your true desires are not in anyway malicious. also youre not being tempted, youre being oppressed. hope this helps, cheers!
- Date posted
- 1y
Thankyou š means a lot and same for you if you are struggling to hope you get to pure happiness
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- Date posted
- 22w
I feel like a really terrible person right now, I keep replaying this, and no matter what I canāt remember what happened, itās like my brain is purposely not letting me think about it. Without wasting any more time, Iāll get into it. Basically, I was at Walmart, and looking at cards with My Dad, I saw anime ones, took pictures of them for my sister, even ones that were anime kids, because I did my best to ignore it, so I looked at a Hunter x Hunter card, I stared at the black haired kid, being all like ā Iām glad Iām not having any thoughts about this, Iām glad Iām having normal thoughts and not thinking anythingā I felt happy, then as soon as I looked at killua (white haired kid), everything collapsed. I donāt know what happened, my brain wonāt let me remember. But Iāll give bits and pieces. I think that I had false attraction, and something in my head, said āoh, I wouldnāt mind being attracted.ā āHe is attractive, and Iām attracted to him.ā āI remember a girl thinking he is attractive and he isā ā Itās not wrong to be attractedā ā I donāt care about his ageā .. something along the lines of that, and now Iām panicking super hard, because Iām worried if I said those things, I feel like I ruined my life that Iām a pe//do and deserve nothing, idk what to do, I feel terrible⦠I remember when I was having the intrusive thoughts, I was panicking and was worrying, but it kept playing out, and I kept hearing things talk, it was drawn out too long, that now I feel convinced that I was saying those things, I tested it too, and I can confirm that I didnāt say that, but why am I still not convinced? I know I wouldnāt say those things, I was hoping the complete opposite would happen. My brain kept making me feel like it wasnāt wrong and it was okay. Maybe thatās why Iām so convinced I did that. Iām just spiraling super bad right now, I donāt know what to do or what to think, I donāt know if I said that or not⦠even if I did test it, I genuinely just feel like I said it, and I wanted it, because I still feel uncertain, I still feel like I said it, part of me just wants to be like oh I did and so I can move on, not because I agree with it, I just donāt know what else to do⦠Iām really scared.
- Date posted
- 11w
Why are things so real the first time theyāre in my mind and then when I think about it later itās easier for me to be like wtf?? I was watching a movie earlier and the young girl had developed more in the chest area than the last movie and I felt the desire to check her out so I did. Then later I let myself imagine her having sex and I liked it. But now looking back Iām like ew. The boys in the movie have also developed as the movie went on and I couldnāt help but think that in their real life theyāve probably woken up to boners and s*men and stuff. And looking back itās just ugh. Idk if itās sexual relevance but I genuinely let myself indulge in these thoughts and groinal responses and I remember thinking to myself I donāt want to be attracted to little kids and how do I stop myself (everyone has attractive qualities so in younger boys I see man like qualities). Idk I need help. I wouldnāt type this out if I truly believe I was messed up but Iām still scared
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 5w
Iām going to a waterpark with my friend in a few days. And I have very severe harm OCD that causes me to worry Iāll touch someone inappropriately. This is going to sound so fucking silly but because my hips moved during a hug one time Iām afraid Iām gonna fucking thrust on someone (bruh wtf lol) and anytime I walk by someone my hips will move a bit or my leg will stretch out too far when Iām walking and Iāll feel like I fucking like it. And Iāll think I was just trying to do a thrust or something (it sounds silly when I type it out and to be fair it is lmao) and Iāll freak out. I honestly donāt know what to do. I feel like a fucking psycho.
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