Am I normal? I have thoughts about killing my friends, family, and strangers recently very often in a variety of ways and these intrusive thoughts are draining happiness from me.. I don't know this type of OCD but I'm certain it's a subset of OCD. I don't know what's happening to me. Someone please reach out to me. Its draining happiness from me every day. When I'm having a fun time with family one intrusive thought enters my mind out of the blue. It gets so bad and so violent that it physically made me sick. I'm not even kidding.

Well said. Everyone has intrusive thoughts, but a person with ocd pays attention to them. Don’t let them win.

You got this , I’m sure of it ! Let us know how it goes ??

This is all apart of pure O, you are such a well-aware person especially to be willing enough to tell us!! To relate my intrusive thoughts started at the age of 13 so your not alone!! You have us & dont ever be afraid to speak your mind we’re all here for each other.

I just woke up, it warms my heart to see all these nice and reassuring comments. I'm going to try to tell my parents.

This warms my heart that you talked about this. To even have the courage to come out and say those things are amazing. I’ve struggled with intrusive thoughts ever since I had my daughter. The horrible things that run thru my head were so scary. Your a brave soul. Never give up. I still struggle every single day, but we can beat this. Thoughts do not define you. ??

Thank you. I've been dealing with this for at least only 3 months. I'm only young too. I'm 12. It started when j was at my grandparents house and I got an image of me stabbing my grandpa and hiding away from my family. This is when it made me physically sick. It's just good to know I'm not alone and this is something.

Listen man , I know this must be extremely scary for you, but just know that these thoughts don’t define you nor make you a bad person at all. What you’re going through is called pure O OCD ( intrusive thoughts OCD ). The reason why you’re having these thoughts so much is specifically because they cause you to be distressed. Anything that doesn’t sit well with who you are is going to pop up in your head. Don’t think about a purple elephant. And what did you do just now ?? Chances are you thought of one. This is what’s going on when you have OCD. The best thing for you to do is to stop trying to control these intrusive thoughts and images and let them flow through your mind without judging them. That’s going to take the power away from the thoughts, and it’ll cause them to happen way less. If you ever need anything I’m here

https://www.intrusivethoughts.org/ocd-symptoms/harm-ocd/

Also how can I tell my parents? This has been a secret for me and it's been tearing me up on the inside for 3 months. I feel extreme anxiety about telling them and if I do I feel like they'll put me in a mental hospital, fearing I'll go insane.. how can I tell them :(

I think you should sit them down and explain to them that you’re feeling very anxious and unsettled over things going on mentally. Explain to them that these thoughts cause you a lot of pain and that you don’t want them at all , and you could tell them that it’s called pure O OCD and that’s a legitimate condition. If they have trouble understanding it at first , that’s okay. As people suffering , we also have to understand that sometimes our loved ones need time to process these things. Not because what we’re going makes us bad people , but because they probably haven’t heard of it since it’s not usually talked about in the media and what not. Maybe ask them if they’ve ever dealt with anxiety or scary thoughts , who knows , maybe they have too ! You got this.

I used to have thoughts like this ALL THE TIME, to the point of having a panic attack, so you’re not any less normal than me ? Harm OCD can be a very difficult thing to talk about, so make sure you’re well prepared before telling anyone. I always use the train scenario (when you’re standing by the train tracks at the station and think “I could jump” but don’t want to). Most people relate to thoughts and feelings like that so I just tell people I have moments like that more than the average person. Everyone has intrusive thoughts so start off whoever you’re talking to with that connection, then slowly ease them into the whole “I’m afraid of murdering people” thing. Or you can start it off as a joke. The way I told my mom was by texting her, “ugh I’m so stupid I’ve just convinced myself I could be a murderer ?” and then slowly worked up from there. I’ve been able to talk to lots of people about it now, and I’ve never ended up in a mental hospital. It’s all about how you tell it. It’s a bit of a learning curve but you’ve got this! If you feel safe and comfortable with your parents, please consider telling them so they can help you seek the treatment you need!

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