Don’t know what to do anymore

Hii! I hesitated before posting this but here I am.. Ocd are a living hell rn to me. I barely eat or sleep anymore because of it, I’m just scared of everything, ruminations are here every night leading to panic attacks, sh, psychosis,.. it’s like « what if I’m/or do something bad, what if I did something wrong and I don’t remember,.. I store my studies because of all of this..I can’t do this anymore I’m so tired of compulsions and everything I have more ocd but rn it’s the most debilitating for me, if someone have experienced the same things or just have tips I take it!

Rumpelgoocher

Date posted: 1y

Hiii remember when it comes to ocd your best weapon is to just work with what you have. If you can afford therapy, try it. If you can’t, the internet has great resources. With ocd the best long term choice is to not do compulsions, learn to sit with the uncertainty, and say maybe maybe not. This along with body mind practices such as yoga, meditation, or exercise and taking vitamins, and sleeping. Maybe also getting outside. Simple small things add up to feeling better. I can’t guarantee if you will feel better within a month of implementing these, but I certainly feel like a totally different person than I did a month ago. Acceptance really helps, being aware of your thoughts, emotions, and sensations, just observing them, and allowing yourself to feel bad. It’s honestly so peaceful on the other side but start with small changes! You deserve to feel at peace.

lou__

Date posted: 1y

@Rumpelgoocher Heyy! I’m actually in therapy for many reasons and my therapist is really great, she helps me so much! The only thing is the shame about ocd, I minimize a lot, but I talked to her about it.. we try the exposition therapy (ig it’s what you are talking about) but it was hard, I think I did it 3 weeks but it was worse than just doing the compulsions and everything because fighting it just makes it worse, I mean I tried to resist, but i can’t so panic attack, to finally doing it, and like yk it’s not that simple, if it’s like repeating a thing until it feel « right » to me, again panic attack, same for eating.. it’s just adding a step.. I really understand how the exposition works and it works for the thing I repeat (the number my brain want) times. Like I did meditation and went to the conclusion that it’s not bc I do it 1 or … times, that my life is gonna be worse, but for the « concrete » things it’s just to hard.. same for the ruminations, some I succeeded to stop but the « real » one like « imagine my house is gonna burn I have to do this.. and this… » for me it’s real because it can happen

Rumpelgoocher

Date posted: 1y

The journey to feeling better isn’t as hard as we think it is. I have also found that I will never be able to change what thoughts pop up; but I can choose to ignore it, even if it feels wrong.

Rumpelgoocher

Date posted: 1y

Within a month of accepting, allowing myself to feel, being more aware, ignoring compulsions and intrusive thoughts, I have gone from never seeing the point in anything, terrified, in pain 24/7, to a totally different person. Relaxed, at peace, excited, able to regulate my emotions, and genuinely hopeful about life. Anxiety clouds your vision. When you’re finally feeling more relaxed, you see clearly. Your perception is fixed!!!

lou__

Date posted: 1y

@Rumpelgoocher Im so happy for you!! You are really strong!! <3 Yeah my therapist always says that everything is a belief.

learningtore...

Date posted: 23w

a quietly loud vent about ocd join in if you need

venting cause im tired of this: sorry for yelling it’s for emphasis, HAVE ANY OF MY FREAKOUTS CAUSED BY OCD ACTUALLY HELPED ME?? PROBABLY NOT? (no seriously they havnt this is exposure therapy now I ain’t reassuring myself) HAVE THEY MADE ME SLEEP DEPRIVED? YES HAVE THEY MADE MY HANDS CRACK AND BLEED FOR YEARS? YES (ouch currently can’t even move my hands without them cracking open) HAVE THEY MADE ME TAKE WAY TO MANY SHOWERS TO THE POINT MY HAIR IS LIKE STRAW? YES HAVE THEY MADE ME LOST WITHIN MY SELF AND RUIN RELATIONSHIPS? YES :( HAVE THEY MADE ME AVOID AREAS OF MY NICE HOME? YES (double sucks cause i only moved late last year) legit in the last couple of months i thought i had could have tetanus, insecticide poisoning, mould in my hair and bed, that somehow bleach and alcohol or ammonia got mixed and i made a toxic gas (I don’t even own bleach etc) thrown out towels and clothes and so so much more. just wtf is ocd, why? Why does it do this?? Surely people without ocd are just wondering what they’ll have for lunch or something?? NOT OMG ITS GOT MOULD ITS SPREAD EVERYWHERE. I’m so tired, just want to live life without being terrified all the time. Please join in with what you’re over with when it comes to OCD, it’s good to vent sometimes.

J.E

Date posted: 22w

Idk what to do at this point any tips help.

Hi I’m 17. My life since I was born has been full of exploring and tons and tons of hobbies. I have adhd. But about 1 year ago is when it kinda started or at least when I started to notice these thoughts and compulsions. I got in a relationship with my girlfriend. And about 2 weeks into that relationship my I started thinking “what if I don’t love her” and I didn’t even know that that’s what ocd was at the time and it ruined with gut wrenching anxiety for months. Then I started titling it as ocd. After we broke up I started to notice that my ocd was starting to flare up a lot. Like when I was snowboarding and normally when I was having the most fun is when I would ask myself things like “what if I hate this” “what if I’m not having fun” then I would try to feel if I was having fun. I would use chat gpt a lot to try and help it but it didn’t really help. I have lots of other ocd thoughts aswell but at the time this one really caused be anxiety and I just felt numb and I became not social. To this day I’m still not as social and I don’t feel like myself anymore. This is the opposite of who I was a year ago. Then I started questioning everything I do and people I love. So it feels like from the moment I wake up my mind just starts spiraling. I can’t seem to find peace or joy in anything anymore and I just feel like my life is going to continue like this and I’ll never be happy. I’ve accepted it at this point. I would love some help. I haven’t really told anyone I know so any tips would be appreciated. I’d be surprised if you even read this far haha. I’m also Christian and love to approach things from a Christian standpoint. I don’t want to sound like a baby who isn’t experiencing real ocd and it’s hard to put into words how much it affects me I just really hope yall understand and can help.

Adi7

Date posted: 17w

Advice please ❤️

Hi ❤️ I’m really struggling right now I’m in my sophomore year of Highschool and I’ve finally started planning or thinking abt my future (for context I was extremely depressed and suicidal from 6-9th grade) After conquering my depression this is a huge leap for me and I’m proud of myself ❤️ But there’s something still holding me down :( and I’m not sure what to do anymore that thing is OCD. Since 6th grade I have had strong and invasive intrusive thoughts all the time they scare me so bad and make me feel as though I’m not even real anymore :( I’m sick of taking the time to do ridiculous compulsions to rid or ease these thoughts it’s a waste of time and energy and it hurts me so bad I feel like I will never get to just live my life without this :( How can I plan my future when I can’t even find myself in this mess of anxiety 💔 I’m so tired of fighting my mental health it’s been years from anxiety attacks to sh to survived suicide attempts (I got help dw❤️‍🩹) and recovery there. Just to be thrown into a storm of awful scary sickening thoughts day and night-when can I just be a normal teenager and possibly a happy adult? How do I conquer this so I can love myself to the fullest and live my life free and happy? :( ❤️❤️‍🩹 I’m so scared to talk to my parents about it I’m ashamed of my thoughts and every time I bring it up they just say I shouldn’t be diagnosing myself or it’s just ADHD. It really really hurts me they have no idea how awful this feels and it makes me feel so alone sometimes 💔

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