This is my first time on here, and I’m just hoping to find a community that understand what I’m going through. I struggle with severe existential thoughts that cause me to dissociate near daily. Does anyone else go through this?
I do. Bad. What kind of thoughts do you get
@AD8888 Mainly thoughts about how everything exists. What’s beyond space. What happens after d*ath. They make me spiral
Me too, could we pls talk
@Jusne Feel free to talk! I’ve had it flare up recently. I used to be an intellectual atheist years ago but I had a very scary demonic experience filled with the worst self harm OCD I had ever experienced in my life. From there, I was experiencing a lot of harm ocd related to harm to others and I remember being incredibly shameful as I was having these thoughts. Here’s the thing: The context behind the OCD has changed for me 5 times. I have never truly tried to deal with it the way you’re supposed to which is why I have a 7 year history with it. But I became a Christian after all of the existential fears and concerns. “What if none of this matters?” “What is reality?” Jumping into the scientific evidence for Gods existence and better, the truth of Christianity, I started to understand the nature of reality, and am starting to understand and see the deep purpose and meaning in everything that happens. The concept of death is scary because we don’t like the idea of eternal darkness, however, after carefully examining different testimonies and the fact that there is a spiritual component to reality, I have begun to realise that death is not the beginning of forever darkness, rather your soul will persist somewhere. There is a DEEP and intentional design to the world as well as in you. I’d be happy to discuss the fears of disconnect or detachment as well. I’ve experienced it all and am still learning.
Hi guys! I’m new to the community and I’ve recently received my OCD diagnosis (tho I’ve known about it since childhood). I’ve been somewhat spiraling lately as I wait for my first ERP session (hooray!) I was just wondering if any of you guys have received ERP for existential OCD and if it was successful? My existential OCD compulsions are more so mental and have been affecting me in the sense of dream/memory flashbacks and giving me a sort of “uncanny” feeling about everything around me. Any advice is appreciated! Thank you❤️
This is my first post, so I apologize if the formatting is weird. I experience existential ocd I always struggled as a kid but learned more and more how to manage with school and such forcing me to learn how, now I experience a lot of overwhelming intrusions from when I wake up to when I go to bed (simply because I live and work in the same place it gets cabin feverish) but now more often going out maybe it’s just paranoia, I walk into a place and each person comes with a story immediately, every piece of trash on the floor, every piece of produce, each isle is a brand new way I could get into a life altering situation. I’ve managed well enough but sometimes I just completely lose my original objective and just leave or I’ll wanna leave my house but everything that goes with it and that could happen pops up and I just won’t go. It’s started to become avoidant behavior. Any help or similar stories? I just feel like I’m going crazy but my thoughts are so scattered and immediate it’s hard to break the habit and not spin a story. Thank yall!
Hey guys so I’m new here and just recently started struggling with some health ocd and thinking I had a brain tumor but it’s taken a turn for the worse and become this existential ocd where I’m questioning quite literally everything in my life, the purpose of being here and stuff. I just started meds yesterday, which is scary for me cause I’ve never been on them before. I keep having thoughts like, why does everything feel like a blur, what’s the meaning of this and I wake up every day with just existential dread. I’ve been having very vivid dreams that make dreaming and reality confusing I also am scared cause I’m dealing with some DP/DR as well. I just wish my life could go back to a few months ago before I knew all of this was possible. I guess I’m just writing this too get it off my chest and see if any of you all have gone through something similar and made it out okay?
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