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I fear that my ocd will cause psychosis or that it already has..
I fear that my ocd will cause psychosis or that it already has..
I have this a lot as well as really upsetting harm thoughts. The combination of the two is really difficult to deal with. I keep feeling like I'm going to be locked up and won't see my family. I wish I could offer you some good advice but I'm struggling myself. I basically worry that after 20 years of OCD I have developed schizophrenia. When I used to have OCD thoughts before I would think to myself "it's just OCD" but now that doesn't work.
@tenby Same!! I used to not feel like this and could deal with the thoughts. But now with this fear I can’t. It feels all to real
@tenby Oh my goodness, you sound just like me!!! My ocd has been going on since before my teens and it's exhausting.
@0cD&ME_20 The fear is horrendous, I'm not sleeping well, I get headaches and feel irritable which then just makes me feel like a horrible person and then I worry that I have something terrible. Would love to know how to get out of this loop.
@tenby Me too! It absolutely sucks! It also sucks being home by myself with my babies. Especially since my ocd is attached to them! It scares the living crap out of me! I got triggered at the store earlier because of all the chatter going on making me think i was hearing whispers. The fan being on makes me think so too or the air kicking on. I’m constantly double checking to make sure I’m hearing things right. Or I’ll here a certain sound and my brain will make up a word that it sounded likea usually a word that goes with my theme. It just sucks!!
@0cD&ME_20 Yes I currently experience Audio pareidolia in fans it’s a common phenomenon in white noise or specially fans and I only realized because of this schizophrenia theme. I was constantly scanning to find a problem and because of this I am constantly hyper aware of noise and every noise I hear actually triggers a anxious response because of the audio pareidolia this theme is so horrible. It feels so real. Are you on meds??
@Lilly2442! Yes ma’am I take Zoloft!
This theme definitely feels so real. I’ve had harm ocd but this THEME IS HORRIBLE. I constantly think I’m going to start seeing things or hearing things any minute especially when my anxiety is high or I have a panic attack
@Lilly2442! Yes! It does it sucks so bad! That’s the way I feel!
I feel the same way it’s so scary mine just started two months ago and I don’t know how to handle them.
@strongwoman1979 I understand! It’s very scary!
@0cD&ME_2O Hey how are you doing now??
My last and almost life long theme/sub-theme largely subsided recently and my ocd felt like it wasn’t even an issue. Then I went on winter break from uni and being alone made my mind come up with a whole new topic to obsess over. TLDR on my fears, my advisor wouldn’t email me back for a while about signing up for classes so my mind started to worry “what if he doesn’t in time and you can’t enroll this semester and you lose this whole life you just built and all these new friends” So when that issue was resolved my mind found other scarier ways I could be uprooted from my current life and friends that I’ve grown so attached to. Then my mind remembered back when I was struggling with false memories and scrupulosity and I essentially made a post on a forum 2 and a half years ago saying I did something or was convinced I did something that I never actually did. Now I’ve been spiraling about someone finding it reporting me and I either get seen as a horrible person or arrested or something over something I never actually did but “admitted” to out of fear of going to hell. My mind won’t let it go and keeps finding new reasons for it to be “valid” “logical” or even inevitable. I feel like it’s just hanging over my head and I can never rest easy. Especially when I try to focus on my daily tasks or plan for the future I get this horrible flair up of “why plan for the future when this could come back in that future and you get uprooted from all of it” my mind won’t rest without certainty being uprooted won’t happen but certainty doesn’t exist, at least not with ocd. This sucks and I miss being care free.
i have such a fear of psychosis and schizophrenia, so i’m scared that i’m going to develop it and lose control over my OCD thoughts. If im very tired and my eyes get heavy i get so scared that im going to go crazy or that i have one or the other. and if i have a panic attack im convinced im going to develop it. does anyone have any tips on how to work though this? i saw a thing online that said people with these dont know the have it and that scared me into thinking i have it and dont know.
i have been diagnosed with OCD & generalized anxiety disorder. for some reason, i’ve been very hyper aware of everything. like the way i talk, the way i see the world, how certain things sound/look/feel, and it’s very distressing. i feel like the hyper awareness makes me afraid of things? like for some reason, my mind attached to cartoons, and i was hyperfocusing on it, and got extremely scared, like scared of the cartoon for no reason? i’ve done this a lot, and i get scared i have psychosis or schizophrenia, or something that makes you afraid of things for no unknown reason. i feel so scared that this is my new normal…. im heartbroken. so many what if’s. did i just ruin my own life?? 💔
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