Pocd and minors

This has been the worst pocd day of my entire life... i just constantly get intrusive thoughts of having unknowingly explicitly texted minors on NSFW discord servers and explicit chat sites when i only explicitly chatted with women who had their ID's and selfies verified and I only chatted with women who were older than me on the explicit chat site... The ones I found suspicious were those who were unverified or suddenly left the server... this one girl gave me her birthday, so that wasnt that suspicious... but then when i asked this one girl what date she was born on, she just said "13😭" before reiterating that she was 18 later on and many times beforehand... im just honestly so scared and anxious rn... idk if they were lying or not... thats whats scaring me... ive only talked to verified women as far as i know... and i get so scared about minors online lying about their age, and it makes me ruminate on whether or not this happened to me... Ive seen so many horror stories of minors lying about their age and it just terrifies me to no end...

Anonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

Are you speaking to a therapist thru the app?

Givenup

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous I cant afford a therapist... 😭😭😭

Anonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

😞 is it an insurance issue or a copay issue?? Regardless. Im so sorry, ive seen your posts a couple of times today and i just want to tell you, i get it 🙏🏼 so does id say mostly everybody on this app. Thats why we are here. With that being said. im not a therapist but posting may fall into the category of a compulsion or a form of reassurance seeking . Be careful with this as you are most likely aggravating your ocd/anxiety further. Take a minute. Breathe. Distract yourself. You are allowed to feel OK . The whole idea of dealing with ocd or overcoming it ,is to learn to sit with the uncertainty . The answers you are searching for you may never arrive at, it will pass 🙏🏼

Givenup

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous Im just so so scared... i dont ever want to ever explicitly text minors in any way... and the situation with the girl saying "13😭" after asking what date she was born on doesnt help either...

Anonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@Givenup well i can try and give you the advice my therapist would. We will never know with 100% certainty if someone will choose to tell you their age actual age. There is no such thing as certainty.

Givenup

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous I just wish i could get a free diagnosis... this just sucks... not to mention the false memories...

Givenup

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous My pocd keeps giving intrusive thoughts of "you explicitly chatted with minors" based on the previous situation i told you about... i hate my life so much 😭😭😭

Givenup

Date posted: 16w

Pocd and dr disrespect

I hope someone can respond... Im genuinely so triggered and so anxious... Dr disrespect was accused of inappropriately messaging and sending explicit images to a minor, and trying to meet up with them at twitchcon... my POCD is saying that my situation with me venting about 18+ explicit HOCD stuff to people in the PM's on an OCD groupchat I found from NOCD, including the minors, when I was 19, means that I am just as bad as they are... or worse... I pm'ed them from the support group and vented to them in private (including the minors) about my 18+ explicit HOCD struggles... one was uncomfortable by it so i stopped messaging her... the other gave me reassurance so i kept asking her for reassurance... I dont ever want to ever be attracted to minors in any way... I dont ever want to ever engage in any inappropriate relations with minors in any way... i dont ever want to EVER be a MAP, a P, or a gro*mer in any way... I dont ever want to be what my pocd says about me... im so scared... someone said that I need help, that I need to turn myself in, and that im hiding behind a diagnosis because of this situation... i genuinely feel so hopeless... I dont ever want to ever be a monster...

Givenup

Date posted: 16w

Pocd and anxiety

I hope someone can respond... Im genuinely so triggered and so anxious... Dr disrespect was accused of inappropriately messaging and sending explicit images to a minor, and trying to meet up with them at twitchcon... my POCD is saying that my situation with me venting about 18+ explicit HOCD stuff to people in the PM's on an OCD groupchat I found from NOCD, including the minors, when I was 19, means that I am just as bad as they are... or worse... I pm'ed them from the support group and vented to them in private (including the minors) about my 18+ explicit HOCD struggles... one was uncomfortable by it so i stopped venting to her after she told me she was uncomfortable by it twice... the other gave me reassurance so i kept asking her for reassurance for my 18+ hocd struggles... I dont ever want to ever be attracted to minors in any way... I dont ever want to ever engage in any inappropriate relations with minors in any way... i dont ever want to EVER be a MAP, a P, or a gro*mer in any way... I dont ever want to be what my pocd says about me... im so scared... someone said that I need help, that I need to turn myself in, and that im hiding behind a diagnosis because of this situation... i genuinely feel so hopeless... I dont ever want to ever be a monster...

Givenup

Date posted: 15w

Pocd and triggered

I hope someone can respond... Im genuinely so triggered and so anxious... This actor was accused of grooming, giving and receiving explicit videos of underage women, and harassing women... my POCD is saying that my situation with me venting about 18+ explicit HOCD stuff to people in the PM's on an OCD groupchat I found from NOCD, including the minors, when I was 19, means that I am just as bad as they are... or worse... I pm'ed them from the support group and vented to them in private (including the minors) about my 18+ explicit HOCD struggles... one was uncomfortable by it so i stopped venting to her after she told me she was uncomfortable by it twice... the other gave me reassurance so i kept asking her for reassurance for my 18+ hocd struggles... I dont have any feelings towards minors in any way... the most i ever did was ask the 17 year old "what you bouta do about it 😂😂" when she told me to stop putting myself down when i was 19... i didnt pursue anything with her because of my age... im 23 now... i dont ever want to ever be with minors in any way...I dont ever want to ever be attracted to minors in any way... I dont ever want to ever engage in any inappropriate relations with minors in any way... i dont ever want to EVER be a MAP, a P, or a gro*mer in any way... I dont ever want to be what my pocd says about me... im so scared... plus now its saying that I called the second minor "cute" when i have no recollection of ever doing so... im also scared that I will get cancelled or being misunderstood because of this... someone said that I need help, that I need to turn myself in, and that im hiding behind a diagnosis because of this situation... i genuinely feel so hopeless...

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