It’s been a few days but can anyone give me some feedback on my last post? It’s a vent about everything and I just want to know what everyone thinks. Should be able to find it on one of the tags that I have. Thank you
It didn’t seem like you were in therapy. I’d strongly suggest that though. Also in mental illness your judgement is always clouded. Your handling of the intrusive thoughts don’t seem healthy, regardless of the feelings they cause you to have. I wouldn’t attribute it to bad character though (like it seems you do) but rather just a symptom of the illness. Sry if I misunderstood your text, I’m not a native speaker.
@LoveMeAlone It’s ok and I had like 3 sessions with her but that was a month ago haven’t done a fourth session. It’s because I haven’t actually been doing anything to actually help myself I think. Idk. I appreciate your feedback though.
@Jay222 Hey! I'm so happy you have been going to therapy! Make that 4th appointment, you'll be glad. Not going can be a form of avoidance which will just strengthen your OCD symptoms. It doesn't matter if you haven't been doing anything. Tell your therapist. They can help you identify the blockers causing you to not do the therapy. It's common for people with OCD who are doing ERP therapy to procrastinate and then feel guilty and then not help themselves. I literally went to a support group here on NOCD yesterday called "self-compassion" and that's what the group leader said. So please take the step of making the appointment because you haven't done anything wrong or bad. You're dealing with the same disorder the rest of us our and we all do those things You're not alone.
@Mindilini I don’t think I’ve been “avoiding” that appointment, I had to get new credit card information I have to change on here that I haven’t had the energy of time to do cause I’m always working. Which is another reason as to why I can’t really make an appointment that easily. So no it’s not really “avoidance”. The only blockers that I know of is me being too lazy or not knowing how to do it properly. Along with ofc not feeling comfortable being around the things that I have those thoughts about.
Oh I understand! I'm sorry I misunderstood your original post. Funny enough, I also had a similar experience recently. I had some billing issues that prevented me from being able to get in right away. So I get that.
@Mindilini It’s ok. Thank you for your feedback
i made a similar post, but I didn’t really get helpful responses. also I’m not diagnosed and can’t get diagnosed , but the past two days I’ve been spiraling and I have constant anxiety. I feel contaminated and like I keep having actions replay in my head and I see images of terrible things and I just feel gross. also like I can’t do anything alone or else I’m afraid that I might end up doing something wrong. so then every action I do has to be in from of other people so I can make sure I didn’t do anything crazy. any time I’m alone and I go about my day later on I always get these thoughts and what I’m pretty sure is false event ocd and I’m stressing so much.
The other day I made a post about being kind and supportive and not being judgmental when commenting on other people’s posts because someone made a comment on my post insinuating that I don’t have ocd and i’m actually just a bad person. At first it didn’t really bother me because I know i’m not a bad person but now my ocd is latching onto their comment and it’s making me feel horrible. My post that they commented on was about how whenever I think things to myself like how my pre teen daughter is blessed to have slim legs and not chubby thighs like mine and she’s growing up into a nice shape or my teen son has a nice shape jawline and neck and it’s good that he’s slim but he’s too slim or how all of my adult kids are so handsome/beautiful my ocd turns my random normal mom thoughts into something inappropriate. I know I don’t think of or look at my kids or any kids or young person in an inappropriate way. My ocd says I do and I was seeking support. That persons comment was so damaging for me. I tried to think maybe they have never had dark disturbing intrusive thoughts with their ocd themes and maybe they just don’t understand or maybe they have never had pocd theme or maybe they are not a parent but even if all of that were true, their comment was still so judgmental and damaging. I am struggling even more now because my ocd is latching onto that persons comment and making me feel like a horrible person. Has anyone else had this happen? How did you get through it?
This might contain triggering content, but I'm also wondering if others have dealt with this similar thought, and if so, how to deal with it? Overall, I've been doing so well these past few days. I'm able to eat again, which I hadn't been able to do because of how much anxiety I'd been experiencing. I'm spending time around loved ones and not just rotting in my room, and I've been able to wake up without immediately being bombarded by intrusive thoughts. When things first got really bad, I'd wake my mom up every night for reassurance, but I haven't done that in a while either. I'm really proud of myself, but there's still this nagging thought in my mind... While looking through others posts on here, hoping to find advice that'd fit my situation, I ended up making things worse. Someone mentioned how they had a fear that they'd purposely search for illegal content (related to POCD). I panicked, and "what ifs" flooded my thoughts. "What if the intrusive thoughts affect who I am as a person, and I do that?" I'm terrified that I'll search for those things, which I know means I wouldn't do it. But then, another person on here said they'd actually looked for those things, and that freaked me out even more. Does that mean it's possible for that to happen to me? I don't want to do that, but I keep having intrusive thoughts surrounding it. I've been doing so well these past few days. I'm just... stuck. I don't know what to do. I've spoken with other people who have the same fears, but how do I manage this? It's not something I've even thought about before seeing those posts. I've been practicing accepting the uncertainty, but I'm really struggling with this one. I hate this. This morning, I woke up, and the intrusive thoughts were back. It's just disheartening.
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