Why is everything sexual so scary?

everything about it scares me. it sounds painful, terrifying, traumatizing. I know it sounds dumb but every time i see something that remotely affects me sexually it sends me spiralling and i get this like white knuckled fear. im scared to hug people because what if it turns me on, especially if its a man because what if i accidentally turn HIM on and then he cant control himself and forces himself on me? I hate seeing my body especially my private areas now because im worried about turning myself on and touching myself and make myself feel even grosser, which then other people around me can tell ive done and then they KNOW how gross i am for doing that and start leaving me. i keep seeing other womens stories about sexual trauma and i relate to it but then i feel bad for relating to it because i havent actually been raped or molested so then i feel like a fraud taking other peoples stories and making it about me. everything about sex seems terrible but i keep thinking about it that it feels like my body is broken and i must secretly be some sort of degenerate freak.

Username: ughhhhughhhh

Date posted: 44w ago

i know how you feel on most of these. i try to tend to stay away from sexual stuff too if i can help it your not alone i hope you feel better

Username: timothysteeletimothysteele

Date posted: 44w ago

I have some religious OCD that affects my view of sexuality. I remember after becoming an adult, feeling afraid of washing my butt because I was afraid of arousing myself. Eventually I got over that fear but other fears came up. I think one thing that might help is to believe that the body is a gift and everything about it has a context and a purpose.

Username: Brian__Brian__

Date posted: 13w ago

Dude I get EXACTLY how you feel. I’m utterly horrified of sex and the M word (I don’t even wanna say it because it makes me feel sick) I stay away from sexual stuff as much as possible I hate anything remotely sexual it makes me feel so icky and gross and it affects my intrusive thoughts and urges so badly it drives me mad

Username: Whitestar

Date posted: 6y ago

Does anyone have hard time with sexuality and sexual things? I am worried to be sexual, that God is watching. I stopped everything remotely sexual. If it ever comes to the point where I will kiss someone again I will be so scared because God is watching me. And it will be uncomfortable because I won’t be enjoying the moment I will be thinking about my thoughts. I used to be totally fine and then all this came along and I feel like I can’t even be normal human. I have sexual dreams and I feel fine and aroused in them. Then I wake up and I’m like omg God doesn’t want me to think these things. I can’t even explain it all.. I wish I could all stop this and go back to normal me :’(

Username: iwillbealright

Date posted: 5y ago

The thoughts are oh so bad again. I even can get turned on by the thought of being sexual with a girl but I really don’t want it. ( I’m a girl ). At least I don’t think I do. I looked up questioning sexuality and it said THIS MAY TRIGGER YOU— it said that if you fear it, it may be because you want it because “sexual attraction can be scary”. I don’t want to be with a girl but I feel like lately that’s all I can think about. I can’t even get turned on or get off ( sorry TMI maybe ) to the opposite sex but I can so easily with the same sex even though I don’t really want to. This is so scary I’m not sure what to do.

Username: Anonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

Scared

Sometimes i'm afraid that I will always feel like a monster. I just always kind of think of life pre-ocd. I used to want to be a mom and love my family and children but now I just feel like I sexualize almost everything and that I will always just be on the cusp of almost sane. I stupidly read a story about a predator and then of course I had intrusive thoughts but I know I can't avoid these stories or situations but I hate the thoughts and feelings that come from it and I want to try to get better but I feel guilt for trying ro move foward but I honestly feel shame and I don't know what to do at this point because it feels like im morphong into someone who is just ok with harming someone and want to just be ok with everything no matter how depraved or wrong.

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