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My story sounds very similar to yours. Constant battle of what ifs. It’s a horrible place to be in. Completely feel like I’ve lost who I am as a person. This has been going on for over a month with me and it’s only just started to get better. I’m back on antidepressants and started therapy. I also work in a school so I’m constantly triggered and just started to realise that anything that comes into the mind is just a thought it’s not our reality. Keep fighting you’re doing great!

I wouldn’t go into details. You could just say you’re having a really hard mental health day/week and not up to it. However, I thought you should go and hang out with that friend at the very least because shutting yourself away is NIT helpful and signaling to your brain there’s danger, which only makes the OCD worse.