Maybe made an ERP mistake

I haven’t posted here in a while. I’ve been in ERP therapy and it’s been slow but I feel better, even though it’s only been a few months. The problem is, we’re starting slow because my trigger is sharp objects, and I think I made a mistake. The guy i’m seeing is at work and asked me to prep dinner by cutting the chicken and I thought even though i haven’t used a sharp object to cut meat in MONTHS, I thought I maybe could do it. Well, I cut the chicken and it was extremely thick, and made me have the worst intrusive thoughts. Did I mess up? I’m kind of freaking out. Did I get satisfaction from cutting into a thick meat? I’m scared

Username: healinghearthealingheart

Date posted: 39w ago

you didn’t mess up, eventually you would’ve had to deal with a sharp object when you didn’t feel ready yet. at least you’re in therapy and had some mental prep beforehand, there’s nothing wrong with having intrusive thoughts because remember it’s intrusive! it’s unwanted

Username: lydm249lydm249

Date posted: 39w ago

I’m not a therapist - but from my own understanding, I believe this is almost the point. To trigger them thoughts but to know actually that’s okay, the thoughts can be there, you know they are ocd thoughts, you notice it and are kinda like ok move on now, you sit with that uncomfortable feeling of scary thoughts but see that actually nothing bad physically happened. You didn’t mess up! You’re trying which is amazing :) but of course talk to your therapist

Username: Privacyyyx

Date posted: 2y ago

Am i doing this right?

I have avoided knives for two years since i first started having ocd thoughts. I have only just educated myself on ocd and ive learned all about erp and stuff but i feel terrified whenever im near knives and today my mum wanted me to wash up and there was a knife in the sink and i was so scared, i didnt want to touch it or look at it and it made me want to run away i was so scared that id hurt someone and when i picked it up i felt like i was going to hurt someone and it’s terrifying i dont want to be like this. Is it right that i put myself in positions were im around knives? Like should i be avoiding them? I feel better when i avoid them but im starting to think its not the right thing to do.

Harm OCD

Username: leafcr0nicals

Date posted: 1y ago

erps

i told my therapist about erps i could try and do (like her bringing a knife or scissors or a lighter next time i see her) and she thinks it’s a good idea, but now i’m having anxiety about when she actually brings them 😭 i’m scared i might act out on intrusive thoughts and hurt her. is this normal? like is it normal to feel anxious when you know you’re going to do an erp 😭

Username: Don’tLoveDra...

Date posted: 29w ago

Self-Harm?

So I made some REAL terrible past mistakes, but due to OCD I ruminated about them last night and cut myself for the first time ever (I’m 20) I didn’t do it in a dangerous place like my wrist or anything and I used a razor/it was not that deep hardly any bleeding etc. But I don’t trust myself to not turn to this again in the future, cause I liked it. (I struggle with False Memories, Intrusive-Thought-Action-Fusion, Magical Thinking etc.) Advice for embarrassment/distress?

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