Anonymous
- Date posted
- 1y ago
How
How can i know that im not actually faking my attraction to hide my denial and hiding my real attraction like its so scary and confusing
JohnKitJohnKit
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Bro I feel the same and ask my self the same thing tbh with you I don’t even know
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@JohnKit Yeah like i can acknowledge when a guy is good looking and i know I don’t want anything sexual but then my thoughts go like ur only faking it
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 1y ago
I’m dealing with the same exact thing. My therapy starts weds but I’ve been trying some things on my own for erp therapy. At my job now when a man comes up to order instead of looking at the screen I stare right into their face and let whatever feelings or thoughts I have just come and go you can’t control these things. But you can get past them. Now if you’re worried you’re gonna look at a man and become attracted to him this could be a good step. It’ll be hard not to reassure yourself in those times but you have to tell yourself maybe, maybe not. Who cares it’ll help you lose interest in the topic.. anxiety can release dopamine and your brain doesn’t decipher between them. Just that you got a dopamine kick and because dopamine is a good chemical in the brain it’ll try to recreate that anxiety and give the brain its fix
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Hi, I was lying on the bed with my female partner. We we laughing and joking and I bed humped (couple of thrusts) pretending that it was my male lecturer. She brought him up. I was just joking, I dont even know why I did it. I've never had sex with a man. I .on Prozac for GAD and am starting Propranolol tomorrow. Now I worry that my gf thinks I'm gay and I can't shake this thought. My nonsensical act and joke might have ruined my relationship and we have a child. My mind won't stop racing and it's convincing me that she is doing the same. She is being quiet though, which is worrying. My anxiety is out of control. I'm anxious because I'm confused about being confused and its making me doubt my sexuality. Help
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Anxiousaddie
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 16w ago
Please help- so-ocd
I did an erp and I was thinking over and over again “I want to be with girls I just don’t want others to find out” and then it felt like a moment of yeah that is what I want. It felt really real I can’t believe it’s not. I wasn’t anxious about it. It felt completely like me and even when I tried to deny it like it was a true realization and that I wanted it to be true. I can’t do this. What do I do!!! Erp suggestions?
Mariabae
- Date posted
- 16w ago
what if im in denial
maybe i dont want to accept the factvthat i lost feelings, maybe i never actually loved my boyfriend and i hust wanted a relationship , i dont want reasurance, but in very scared i dont love him, because it feels real. im scared
Mt2019
- Date posted
- 8w ago
Question about HOCD
Sorry long post. Anyone feel like now they’re just in extreme denial. Like when I was little I noticed guys more than girls in movies and was more drawn to them. I remember changing my mindset to switch that. 98%of my life has been straight until recently. I felt drawn to some guys but never thought of it sexually. Always had girl crushes dreams and porn. Now I watch porn and I feel like straight takes longer and then I go and watch gay porn and feel nothing until I tell myself it’s two attractive dudes and love is love and imagine physical sensations and then it hits like suddenly. Like I have to convince myself it’s alright. Then when I try again I can do all that but feel nothing and then straight porn works. Idk if it’s just getting a fix or the first time works with anything or what but it’s confusing. On top of that I’ve felt girl relationships including my wife maybe miss something and a guy maybe matches that feeling that but then I feel like I’d be missing something without a girl or my wife. Idk I’ve had some rough times in life with male figures in my life but idk. I feel like I have to convince myself more and more that I’m straight even more than the first time I dealt with this. Can someone relate? Please
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