- Date posted
- 1y
How
How can i know that im not actually faking my attraction to hide my denial and hiding my real attraction like its so scary and confusing
How can i know that im not actually faking my attraction to hide my denial and hiding my real attraction like its so scary and confusing
Bro I feel the same and ask my self the same thing tbh with you I don’t even know
@JohnKit Yeah like i can acknowledge when a guy is good looking and i know I don’t want anything sexual but then my thoughts go like ur only faking it
I’m dealing with the same exact thing. My therapy starts weds but I’ve been trying some things on my own for erp therapy. At my job now when a man comes up to order instead of looking at the screen I stare right into their face and let whatever feelings or thoughts I have just come and go you can’t control these things. But you can get past them. Now if you’re worried you’re gonna look at a man and become attracted to him this could be a good step. It’ll be hard not to reassure yourself in those times but you have to tell yourself maybe, maybe not. Who cares it’ll help you lose interest in the topic.. anxiety can release dopamine and your brain doesn’t decipher between them. Just that you got a dopamine kick and because dopamine is a good chemical in the brain it’ll try to recreate that anxiety and give the brain its fix
Hi, I was lying on the bed with my female partner. We we laughing and joking and I bed humped (couple of thrusts) pretending that it was my male lecturer. She brought him up. I was just joking, I dont even know why I did it. I've never had sex with a man. I .on Prozac for GAD and am starting Propranolol tomorrow. Now I worry that my gf thinks I'm gay and I can't shake this thought. My nonsensical act and joke might have ruined my relationship and we have a child. My mind won't stop racing and it's convincing me that she is doing the same. She is being quiet though, which is worrying. My anxiety is out of control. I'm anxious because I'm confused about being confused and its making me doubt my sexuality. Help
I’ve had so many moments of clarity with my OCD that I love my boyfriend and I’m beyond willing to go through this to be better and be with him. in the back of mind I’ve in a way known I was at least somewhat sexually attracted to women (I’m a woman) since the start of the ocd it was always like “okay. Fine, but I don’t want to date a girl” I only just realized this after the ocd started, I never really argued with this. my ocd has always revolved around if I’m romantically interested in women and not men. I’ve done so many compulsions through this year and a half and 9 times out of 10 have come to the conclusion that I don’t want to be with a woman romantically. I always end up feeling like I know I love my boyfriend. But the doubts don’t stop about whether I want to spend my life with a woman instead, my heart literally breaks to think of not being with my bf and imagining him with someone else. I don’t want to be with a woman I know deep down somewhere underneath the anxiety that that’s not what I want. It doesn’t feel natural for me, unfulfilling. I want to tell my boyfriend about the possible sexual attraction to women (ik it’s still ocd related) but I’m scared that once I tell him, I’ll realize that I actually do want to be with women and not with him. Ugh I’ve spent hours today ruminating about this after being solid in my commitment with him for a little while, I’m stuck in this loop and idk how to get out right now
Ughhhhhh it feels like I can’t tell between false attraction or attractive 😭 :/ idk I just saw some pics of joji and artist that makes music when he was younger (it was a post on insta) and on one of them I thought oh he looks cute here, but no I’m like omg but idk in what way tho but it felt like not false attraction like I thought or meant it in another way and I. Felt that and then kinda freaked out bc idk if it’s weird and then I felt groinals and *sigh*
Why are things so real the first time they’re in my mind and then when I think about it later it’s easier for me to be like wtf?? I was watching a movie earlier and the young girl had developed more in the chest area than the last movie and I felt the desire to check her out so I did. Then later I let myself imagine her having sex and I liked it. But now looking back I’m like ew. The boys in the movie have also developed as the movie went on and I couldn’t help but think that in their real life they’ve probably woken up to boners and s*men and stuff. And looking back it’s just ugh. Idk if it’s sexual relevance but I genuinely let myself indulge in these thoughts and groinal responses and I remember thinking to myself I don’t want to be attracted to little kids and how do I stop myself (everyone has attractive qualities so in younger boys I see man like qualities). Idk I need help. I wouldn’t type this out if I truly believe I was messed up but I’m still scared
Share your thoughts so the Community can respond