groinal response

please help every time i get the groinal response i go back to whatever i was looking at, at look at it again then look away. i repeat this over and over until i can successfully do this without getting the groinal response. i’ve also noticed when i get the groinal response i experience a shortness of breath. it makes me feel like i enjoy when i really hate it. i just want to make this go away but i have no idea how to do that. i also procrastinate and can’t do what i want to do until the compulsion i mentioned above is just right.

My main compulsion is checking for arousal (like in my head I'd check or imagine seeing another woman naked or kissing them) and eventhough I wouldn't like it and feel nausea or tightness in my chest nearly every time, there are times where I can't physically imagine a person naked in my head and that's what scares me because it feels like what if the thoughts are true and that I'm actually attracted to this person. Plus the groinal responses down there don't help. I'd be sweating and feeling anxious in my chest and sweating yet the groinal response make it feel that everything else is not true. It scares me that the thoughts are becoming true

everytime I see a kid or anything about a kid is mentioned then boom here come groinal responses that feel like genuine arousal and a whole bunch of thoughts telling me im a p. I genuine feel like I am one. I feel like this isn’t ocd. My anxiety has gone down tremendously so it seems as if im only ASHAMED of this. Which p’s can be also. I just want peace. I don’t want to be a p. Even my brain is like “just do it so u can have the label permanently “ like no I don’t want to do that but this all feels so real:( I hate the groinal responses they won’t go away