At what point do you actually start feeling like you AREN’T that person when you’re trying to heal from POCD? Im still dealing with the thoughts and I just want to not FEEL like it’s the who I am anymore. That’s literally all I need rn.
I understand the struggle. It takes time to get there. Just keep practicing ERP consistently and you’ll start feeling relief. I would also like to mention that OCD is a highly treatable condition - so your suffering won’t last forever. It’s hard work but you can get to a place where you’re no longer affected by these thoughts and feelings. 💗
I’m exactly the same jay. All I feel is that I’m that person now and it’s horrible. My head all day everyday thinks about is am I that person. It’s driving me insane. I just want all this to go away and live my life.
Does anyone especially with harm ocd feel like they are their thoughts and want to do these things? Like no matter how hard I try and even during my therapy session I get the constant, “what if this isn’t OCD?”, “you like these thoughts”, “your a bad person”, “your going to act on these thoughts.” It gotten to the point where it feels like I’m actually this person and that I have changed into an evil person and it’s so scary cause it’s gotten to the point where it feels like I’m never going to get my life back and that’s saddening. I’ve never had a violent history never hurt anyone or anything but I don’t know why it feels like I am.
Hi y’all I guess I am asking for reassurance, but I’m just wondering if anyone on here has recovered from pure ocd to the point where they feel it doesn’t have any control over their life and identity anymore? Right now I feel like I will never live my dream of being a good person and having a husband and family and being a child and family therapist. My most present theme is pocd and I feel like it’s wrong for me to ever be in a relationship or even make new friends bc of the things I have thought and the tricks ocd has played on me to make me “feel” things. I have a hard time taking care of myself most days because I feel like I don’t deserve it, let alone my dream. I don’t know how I will ever allow myself to feel self trust and confidence again, this is literally my worst nightmare and the only thing that brings me comfort is suicidal ideation. I feel like maybe I accidentally did something wrong along the erp path by trying not to be distressed, like I taught myself to think wrong or something. Has anyone been here and gotten back to who they were before?
POCD has made me lose all my self identity, i dont know who i am anymore. Im really tired, when will this horror end.
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