Anonymous
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Help mešš
Trying to remember a night out that I was intoxicated but remembering it backwards and visualising it all, itās driving me crazy and donāt know my brain feels blocked and about to bust
LillyXLillyX
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I would try to stop doing this, your ocd is capable of mixing up your real and false memories. You could end up interjecting a false memory into a real memory and wind up being seriously confused.
Always-overthinkingAlways-overt...
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I have this issue as well. I don't remember what happened and then try to piece it together and stress and worry for months. I found it was best to quit drinking.
Anonymous Anonymous
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@Always-overthinking Itās horrific isnāt it? Iām going to own upto it
Anonymous Anonymous
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@Always-overthinking What was your theme about?
Always-overthinkingAlways-overt...
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Who I upset, who was mad at me?
Anonymous Anonymous
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@Always-overthinking Oh I understand, did you have anything themes around rape etc? After a night out
Always-overthinkingAlways-overt...
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Yes! I was told by a guy that he quit drinking while with me one evening because I said I'm not having sex with you several times. I woke up naked and was convinced he had sex with me and worried I did not consent to it.
Anonymous Anonymous
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@Always-overthinking Oh never, Iāve bet that have played havoc with your head, I hope your okay and getting better, are you just trying to remember it all? Iām the opposite I feel Ive done it and Iām the criminal to someone I feel horrendous
Always-overthinkingAlways-overt...
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That would be awful. Sounds like we are on opposite ends of the situation.
Anonymous Anonymous
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@Always-overthinking I know thatās what I mean I feel horrendous 24/7, donāt know what to do with myself what do you suggest?
Always-overthinkingAlways-overt...
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Yes I try to remember it all, it's hard to piece together when your brain won't let you remember it.
Anonymous Anonymous
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@Always-overthinking Yeah Iām the same I try to remember everything about the night, every detail and always go over the night in my head
Anonymous Anonymous
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@Always-overthinking I know thatās what I mean I feel horrendous 24/7, donāt know what to do with myself what do you suggest?
Always-overthinkingAlways-overt...
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@ Anonymous When I get that way I try to isolate myself and take deep breaths to calm down. Then I will ask my friends for details to see if they can help piece the night together. If it's other stuff I find exercise helps calm my mind. Running especially. I have to run with music on though, otherwise I start thinking about stuff. š¬
Anonymous Anonymous
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@Always-overthinking Iām exactly the same Iām filled with fear, does everything you use to enjoy feels like a chore now, I just feel everythingās pointless for me and I should own upto it, do you struggle to sleep as I do
Always-overthinkingAlways-overt...
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@ Anonymous I used to struggle with sleep, but I am so exhausted from being so busy, that I normally pass out.
Always-overthinkingAlways-overt...
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@ Anonymous I do feel like somethings are a chore. Like my job, school, kids, taking care of home. I don't remember the last time I fixed a meal.
Anonymous Anonymous
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@Always-overthinking Yeah Iām the opposite I isolate myself in my room because Iām full of guilt, do you see a therapist and medication?
Always-overthinkingAlways-overt...
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@ Anonymous I am doing neither. I've been managing it well, until I start dating someone or get into a relationship. Since I don't go out and drink anymore.
Anonymous Anonymous
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@Always-overthinking This has put me the other way I run away from relationships etc. Iāve stopped drinking but think it was too late before I messed my life up that night
Always-overthinkingAlways-overt...
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I meant if I get into a relationship it flares up.
Anonymous Anonymous
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@Always-overthinking Oh right I understand, have you been diagnosed with OCD? I havenāt and donāt even know if it is which is making it worse
Always-overthinkingAlways-overt...
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@ Anonymous I have not. I always thought it was anxiety and was diagnosed with that. But the older I get the more I think it is OCD
Anonymous Anonymous
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@Always-overthinking Yeah I understand from that night when did you think it was OCD, I had about 4 months were I didnāt have a clue it couldāve been OCD, how fast from that night did you realise it may of been OCD
Always-overthinkingAlways-overt...
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Examples of my worrying. Things having to be lined up, light switch switch 7 times, door knobs jiggled 7 times, wash has and scrub 7 times, house will burn down if it does not happen. Pray for certain people every night, if they die it's my fault, if I didn't pray.
Anonymous Anonymous
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@Always-overthinking Yeah I get you itās torturous
Always-overthinkingAlways-overt...
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@anonymous, what stupid things did I do? I make bad choices when I drink. I have waken up naked and then don't remember what happened. Did I have sex with someone? Then I'm convinced I'm pregnant. How did I get home. What stupid things did I say? How did I act?
Always-overthinkingAlways-overt...
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There is not just a specific incident. It's been years of different things happening. Since I was a child.
Anonymous Anonymous
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@Always-overthinking Could you give me examples of not do t worry I totally understand
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