Feeling lost

I’m not 100% sure that I have OCD, but I do have PTSD and some new intrusive thoughts were triggered a couple weeks ago. It feels like they have changed my whole perception of my life since then. Every experience that should be fun or relaxing is tainted with the horrible dread I feel when these thoughts creep in. I was really enjoying my life for a while before these new thoughts started and it feels like I have lost contact with that version of myself and my life. I’m afraid of these thoughts tainting things that I want to stay good and pure. I’m just feeling really lost about how to soothe myself and dig out of this

Username: elliss2elliss2

Date posted: 35w ago

I understand that you feel like you lost a version of yourself. OCD is cruel. Nobody sees what’s going on inside and how the person is fighting. No one can see that That‘s the reason you’re loosing so much precious time of your life. I’m currently reading „the obsessive outsider“ by Alaine Osborn and can really recommend it. She describes her struggles really well and I feel seen.

Username: elliss2elliss2

Date posted: 35w ago

@elliss2 Also, im not getting paid for this - I genuinely find her book helpful

Username: MusicfoolMusicfool

Date posted: 35w ago

I think with ocd different thought come and go but the ones that scare us seem to get stuck! It’s hard but we must welcome these thought in and say hi there how you doing! Eventually when the anxiety lessons and the power in the thoughts go away. I know it sucks but seems to be the way it is with ocd… I’m going through something similar where I feel like I’m losing a friend! It feels real as hell and maybe it is or not not sure but I’m trying to welcome the anxiety around this and not seek reassurance from him. Stay strong! OCD is a punk!

Username: elliss2elliss2

Date posted: 35w ago

Hey! I saw a YouTube video saying that OCD is in certain ways a PTSD version. We have experienced sth. bad in the past, and that’s why we do compulsions (in certain areas) to prevent that thing to happen again.

Username: sunsetrose75 sunsetrose75

Date posted: 35w ago

The way you referred to this is finally words I can relate more to. Life is starting to fly past me. How do I get better?

Username: LovelyJones17LovelyJones17

Date posted: 35w ago

i'm really sorry to hear that you're going through such a tough time. it sounds incredibly difficult to have your perception of life shifted so drastically by these intrusive thoughts, especially when things were going well for you before. losing touch with a version of yourself that felt happier and more at peace is a hard situation to be in, and it's understandable that you're feeling lost right now. by the way, have you heard about this new ai-powered ocd therapy tool called "unstuck?" when i was in a similar spot, what really helped me was this free ai ocd therapy tool called "unstuck" (unstuckmyocd.com/try) that my nocd therapist recommended to me. i think it'll be especially helpful for you because it provides personalized, step-by-step support that can guide you through managing intrusive thoughts, similar to what an ocd therapist would do. it might offer you some strategies to reconnect with the parts of your life you've been missing. i hate when people promote stuff, but i really think it can help you because it's changed my life. lmk if you have qs or just want to talk more! <3

Username: sunsetrose75 sunsetrose75

Date posted: 35w ago

Personally, I've struggled with mental health since I was 14 and I'm now 48. On a mission to find relief.

Username: 0823

Date posted: 6y ago

I’ve been struggling with intrusive thoughts lately and after a lot of research, I’ve learned to just let them happen. But now, I’m scared that since I’m not having anxiety or crying over it, it must mean that I like the thoughts or that I don’t find them bad. I know that this in itself is OCD. I haven’t been diagnosed with OCD, but I have been speaking to a specialist over email to set up an appointment. I don’t feel like myself anymore, my brain is so full of questions and thoughts that I can’t even figure out what they are. It feels so foggy and I feel so lost. Does anyone else ever feel this way? I’m all alone in this and I’m just so confused.

Username: Cozy_dragon

Date posted: 2y ago

Ocd about being alive

At this point I’m pretty sure I’m psychotic. I have intrusive thoughts all day long of me doing a bunch of things that I never and will never do. Images of me poking out my own eyes in all sorts of other horrific things that will have to do with self mutilation. These images have been haunting me for two years with the persisting fear that I will act out on these things one day despite me never wanting to do so. Now on top of these thoughts I am dealing with something else. I keep thinking about the fact that there’s no escape from life other than death and it makes me feel scared and trapped. I can’t stop thinking about this that there’s no escape. It’s scaring me. I want to live I have no desire to die but once I get the intrusive thought about not being able to escape this life is scaring me. I believe I’m going through depersonalization because nothing feels right my surroundings feel unfamiliar I feel unfamiliar. I feel like an alien in a place that seems unknown to me. This all started after I had a panic attack in the shower three weeks ago over my intrusive harm thoughts and in the moment I actually thought that my life was over and that I was about to act out on it but of course I didn’t because it’s just a thought and an obsessive fear. Something I would never do but it felt so real in that momentI almost passed out from the fear. The day after that I felt like nothing was real and I’m still in depersonalization and having panic attacks on the regular but today I got that thought about not being able to escape life and how we’re basically all trapped here. I can’t stop thinking it and it’s making me feel sick. Maybe if I Felt more connected to myself and my surroundings stuff like this wouldn’t bother me but that panic attack destroyed me. Does this sound like OCD or something else?I was completely normal and fine three weeks ago yes I had my intrusive thoughts but they weren’t scaring me or controlling me like they are now.

Harm OCD

Username: jnothem

Date posted: 1y ago

I am so lost.

Hello, 3 weeks ago I experienced something that triggered horrible intrusive thoughts. I have been having 5-10 panic attacks every day. I can't leave the house and haven't been able to work. My relationship with my girlfriend is in distress as she has 2 young kids and doesn't understand what I am going through. I feel so alone. It wasn't until last Monday that my psychiatrist identified it as intrusive thoughts and now I am realizing how many other OCD symptoms I am having. I can't eat from my anxiety. I am so so sad. I just feel like this will never end and I am going to be in this black hole forever. All I do is worry about losing everything and everyone I love because of this.

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