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Lucid dreaming
Okay I have to vent because I truly just feel shit today. Last night I had this horrible dream and right before this incident happened in the dream I had thoughts that I was aware it was a dream & also had this thought saying āI better do this because Iām dreamingā now this was actually a really fucked ip dream in the sense I had sex and got off over an old friend of mine that is a girl, I have a boyfriend I would never cheat on him ever!! I feel sick to my stomach because lucid dreams people can control themself in the dream sometimes but Iāve also heard that just because you may feel aware youāre dreaming at one point does not indicate you have control over the dream, many people can still not have control even when they are aware theyāre dreaming⦠I have had many dreams where Iāve been doing things and somewhat seem like Iām enjoying it in the dream about things that repulse me such as anything sexual! That doesnāt make me feel good and if I had control over a dream I would dream about good things? Things I had a desire to do? Iām just asking has anyone else suffered with feeling slightly aware you are dreaming when you canāt actually control anything you do? I feel sick because I donāt want to feel like if I was in control that I wouldāve gotten off and basically slept with someone besides my boyfriend⦠it actually makes me sick! I think having control over your dream takes a lot of practice! Which I have not and would not practice⦠I guess Iām just asking has anyone had a dream that is based off things youāre afraid of and ocd themes, and you might have an awareness that youāre dreaming but donāt actually have control, I think I even had a thought in the dream before this happened saying basically āwell this is a dream so I better take advantage of this opportunityā which is freaking me out like is this a deep desire of mine? Was this a conscious choice I made in the dream and did I have control over this dream. Or do you think that if I had control I wouldnāt have acted in those ways! Iām just worried because especially the thought saying basically Iām dreaming so I better act on this situation because itās a dream⦠does that mean I had control or it couldāve been an intrusive thought in the dream??