Ugh

Can anyone relate To being anxious to watch a movie or tv show out of fear of being triggered OR fear that your mind will latch onto to some weird idea you got from the movie and it will become a new obsession.. like for example… my hubby wanted to watch lord of the rings tonight. I’ve never seen it and for some reason I had the thought that I didn’t want to watch it bc what if it made me scared of creatures or some weird shit like that lol. Or like I’ll think about watching some Si fi show but then I have the thought “hmm better not in case it makes me believe in aliens or something”. I know how crazy this sounds but why do I think like this lol

So i’ve been planning to apply for a job that i’ve always wanted to experienced and i’ve been looking at videos regarding that job. I was scrolling on tiktok when i stumbled upon someone on live talking about the job. i had a very bad intrusive thought and my anxious mind told me that in order to be safe, i need to find that exact live and fix the thought. i’ve been scrolling for the past hour and have not been able to find the account. my brain is not linking the job to the intrusive thought. why is this happening 💔

I saw a post saying that thinking about something for a while will bring it to you. Now I’m scared and panicking because I think about illnesses and getting a disease almost everyday. What should I do? Im very scared