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- 1y
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Iām dealing with this same thing. Got into a relationship quick and I wasnāt sure how I felt about her at the beginning. I feel like I started liking her but then ROCD comes in and gives me all these thoughts and I just donāt know whatās real and whatās not
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- 1y
Yeah!! it sucks frfr Ita hard too because this bout of ocd started thr first time he stayed over and we got together coz its new i guess? But now its attatched itself to him and i get scared about seeing him :((
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I'm experiencing the same thing! Severly! Intensly and totally out of control! I'm having panic attacks and I'm taking pills for it. I totally get it but you need to have therapy sessions as I'm also having. You don't need to give your relationship up! It's not the answer because it keeps happening again and again with other people as well! You only need to treat it!
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Im trying to use my tools I learned in therapy - its harder when he stays over as I cant really do much as i dont want to wake him up, but im trying to get myself a bit more under control then ill face having him stay over again
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@Doot šŗ I lost a relationship because of these thoughts and I regret it deeply! But I'm not gonna let it happen again.... I hope you can also manage these shitty stupid thoughts that are not even slightly true!
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- 25w
Iāve had so many moments of clarity with my OCD that I love my boyfriend and Iām beyond willing to go through this to be better and be with him. in the back of mind Iāve in a way known I was at least somewhat sexually attracted to women (Iām a woman) since the start of the ocd it was always like āokay. Fine, but I donāt want to date a girlā I only just realized this after the ocd started, I never really argued with this. my ocd has always revolved around if Iām romantically interested in women and not men. Iāve done so many compulsions through this year and a half and 9 times out of 10 have come to the conclusion that I donāt want to be with a woman romantically. I always end up feeling like I know I love my boyfriend. But the doubts donāt stop about whether I want to spend my life with a woman instead, my heart literally breaks to think of not being with my bf and imagining him with someone else. I donāt want to be with a woman I know deep down somewhere underneath the anxiety that thatās not what I want. It doesnāt feel natural for me, unfulfilling. I want to tell my boyfriend about the possible sexual attraction to women (ik itās still ocd related) but Iām scared that once I tell him, Iāll realize that I actually do want to be with women and not with him. Ugh Iāve spent hours today ruminating about this after being solid in my commitment with him for a little while, Iām stuck in this loop and idk how to get out right now
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- 24w
These past few days I was fine. Minimal intrusive thoughts ,no anxiety etc(to add I'm on medication so maybe it's starting to work although it barely is 2 weeks) and today I got a sudden wave of anxiety and it started latching on some thoughts like" what if I'm in denial and I wanna break up with my bf? And what if erp doesn't work for me because I actually wanna break up with my bf?" But they didn't really stay long usually those thoughts would make me spiral for days or so, now they lasted for some hours. And now I'm trying to trigger myself into being anxious again because if I don't it means I don't have ocd and if I don't have ocd it means I don't love my bf and if I don't love my bf it means I have to break up. Idk if it makes sense but the lack of anxiety makes me wonder if I actually have ocd or not.
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- 23w
For the past 3 months ish Iāve been struggling on and off with this anxiety and fixation over my relationship. To wondering if i still have feelings for an old friend, wondering if i actually love him, wondering if the thoughts are all real and im just trying to cover it up with ocd. It sucks, when im talking to my boyfriend i feel fine. The words i love you and talks about the future come naturally. I canāt imagine myself with anyone but him. But this constant rumination on my relationship is KILLING me and Iām scared itās going to ruin what i have. It makes me numb and disconnected which therefore makes me believe the thoughts even more. They just feel so real sometimes and itās so scary like why can i not just enjoy it. Weāve been together for a while so i know thereās periods of like feelings ebb and flowing but this is so much more. Itās just constantly sitting on my chest with anxiety. My compulsions are coming on this app, looking at photos of us and confessing it to him. Heās very understanding and helpful. I love him so much. I just need help / Iām also just starting new meds as well ..
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