Proof By Corey: Today I Honestly. . .

How would we even begin to start these?; *sigh* Okay, here we go. I mean a lot of this OCD “area-of-improvement” characterization, could easily be reorganized as strengths. How would I understand what is and isn’t necessary to change with this life partner, that is an OCPD induced brain. I do value her/ it in some ways. However, being alone with her is a bit of a task. It’s nice to have a community of like minded or should I say “shared-struggle” beings, attempting to respond, mechanize and reason with a thing not entirely understood but necessary to live with. While it feels that in time this program will help us gather a deeper understanding of what it means to gain control over our responses to internal and external interpretations of ourselves and our environment, I do understand that this is all a kind of tested hypothesis, one that may harm my partner brain. It is triggering to even begin to explain such a fear, let alone be given an open-ended outline requesting us to do so, together. NOCD however, one of, if not the most, advanced method of recovery proven to bring about success with the OCD marriage being more understood and if self co-existing with such a thing progressively. In other words this method SHOULD bring about maintained mental and physical SELF CONTROL despite. Like everything else though, it is a method of recovery only accessible “with time and patience”. I am engaging with my OCD via NOCD therapy in hopes that one day soon we can work together to continue finding more time-saving solutions to mental quagmires such as OCD and far more. *sigh* 2 sessions in and Today I Honestly. . . wish I had enough control of myself already! This seems to be the start of a long arduous ‘couples therapy’-like process with my partner and this very friendly brain mechanic, that doesn’t necessarily appear to have a definitive end. *sigh* Oh my f*#%ing God! Here we f*#%ing gooooooo!!!