My OCD feels objectively impossible to overcome

Trigger warning to those who are susceptible to the power of suggestion: I won’t get into the nitty gritty of what my OCD currently consists of, but I can speak vaguely. Imagine constant torment in the most personalized manner. Imagine trying to juggle all these things that feel like are in your control, but not. An analogy for this is like being a manager and trying to micromanage employees that can’t do their job. You’re in control, but you’re not. Imagine all this, and then a moment of serenity comes at an opportune time that you weren’t even looking for to begin with. That urge to give in is so strong, stronger than any drug. And as soon as you give in, the behavior you were trying to overcome becomes reinforced and you take two steps back. Okay, where does that leave us. Maybe faith would work? Problem is, I’m very skeptical about God. Okay, well, you don’t need to be religious to pray. You just need to believe in something and placebo will kick in. What if my prayers work? What if they’re answered? Then it feels like I’m manifesting my thoughts into existence, exactly what I’m afraid of what my intrusive thoughts will do. I’m just so. tired. It feels like there’s no winning.

Bondgirl#88

Date posted: 1y

I can see what you’re saying I’m dealing with this nasty level of OCD that doesn’t seem to go away. I’ll be at peace for a little, but the anxiety is so used to coming back that it’s like a default setting at this point, and having this vicious loop is too much to bare on your own. I would definitely rely on God because he cares about all his creations and wants to be a part of your life and wants to help you get out of it. Especially being a mental battle, we need God to intervene more because what’s not supposed to happen seems too routine now so we need him to guide us to real peace. There’s no harm in praying, and that helps me get off the OCD train of destruction. And the intrusive thoughts are acting this way because that’s there purpose, trying to be manifested when it comes from thoughts not of your own, but we gotta remember that’s not real and that’s just what the disease/demons want you to think. Giving God the weight of your troubles is so much better. At least then you know you’re not alone.

LeslieB3

Date posted: 1y

hey there, i can feel the exhaustion and frustration in your words. dealing with ocd can really feel like being stuck in a loop of trying to control the uncontrollable, and that moment of serenity followed by the urge to give in sounds incredibly challenging. it's like you're caught in a constant battle with your own mind, and that's so tough. 💔 by the way, have you heard about this new ai-powered ocd therapy tool called "unstuck"? when i was in a similar spot, feeling like i was out of options and just so tired of the cycle, my nocd therapist recommended this free ai ocd therapy tool to me (unstuckmyocd.com/try). i think it'll be especially helpful for you because it offers personalized, step-by-step support for when ocd gets overwhelming, kind of like having an ocd therapist in your pocket. it's designed to help you navigate through those moments of torment and the urges to give in, without needing to rely on faith or fear of your thoughts manifesting. i hate when people promote stuff, but i really think it can help you because it's changed my life. lmk if you have qs or just want to talk more! <3

JeffTheGiraffe

Date posted: 1y

@LeslieB3 Thank you! I just gave it a try, it’s too bad that I have to pay for premium in order to use it more than once a day. But I’ll definitely be using it. It’s helpful in that it labels what’s happening with my brain. Now I just need to know how to combat it.

LeslieB3

Date posted: 1y

@JeffTheGiraffe - hi jeff<3 i'm glad that you found it interesting! i hope it helps you.

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