Shame/burden

Idk if this is the right place to post this. But i feel like such a burden to the people around me because of my anxiety. I woke up this morning super stressed over a dream that reminded me of some messed up moments from my past. My girlfriends kinda listened but i mostly felt ignored. Then we all got in the car to drive my sister to the airport. And on the way, i started to get anxious cus of al the traffic. But it wasnt rlly that, it was the fact that no one seemed to care or wanna help me when i said i was anxious. So i asked if i could just hop out of the car and walk. I felt like such an attention seeker, and my girlfriend got annoyed and took the next exit and dropped me off. But i feel like such a little bitch cus my girlfriend was able to handle everything n i left her to come back alone from the airport. I dont feel like a man or like im capable of anything right now. I wish i could redo it all so that it never happened. I feel like i gave up so easily when tryna handle my anxiety n im ashamed of myself

Username: Ben84Ben84

Date posted: 37w ago

Do some research on medically recommended ways to cope with OCD and anxiety. Communicate those to the people close to you so they can remind you in the moment of what you need to do. Remember, those around us have their own lives and struggles too. It's reasonable for them to give you some reminders and encouragement, but the rest is up to you. You can do it :-).

Username: TheosisTheosis

Date posted: 37w ago

@Ben84 Thanks, the part that sucks is that ive been doing everything i can to take care of myself cus i grew up knowing that everyone has their own problems. But i appreciate the help

Username: elliss2elliss2

Date posted: 37w ago

Sorry this happened to you, it shouldn’t have. Being anxious is a burden of itself, and then also the reaction of people is another burden. Maybe you can talk to her later when there’s more quite. You can tell her how you felt, hopefully she can understand.

Username: TheosisTheosis

Date posted: 37w ago

@elliss2 Thank you, i wanna have more compassion for myself but i feel like such a failure sometimes. I will definitely talk to her when things are calmer tho.

Username: Anonymous

Date posted: 4y ago

I don't know how to do it anymore. I have these constant urges to replay and revisit certain moments (where I think I hurt someone) and analyse them. I also want to confess to everyone I know... about everything. All I feel at the moment is disgust which has been growing more and more for the past weeks as I've been constantly feeding on tremendous levels of shame and disgust. I wonder how I could ever act on an urge and hurt my brother (even I never would intentionally because I love him more than my life, and because I don't want to be a person that causes pain to anyone in any way or shape). I wonder how I got here. It all started with thoughts. But it all ended in a huge, huge disaster with me as a monster in the centre of it. I'm really tired. I'm also scared because I'm convinced I will fail ALL my exams, therefore I will not be able to complete my second year at uni. Everything is getting worse and worse, and I barely have any energy left. I know I sound dramatic, which I apologise for, but I honestly feel like this is the end for me.

POCD

Username: j09182

Date posted: 2y ago

Feel like a burden

I feel like a huge burden to those around me because of my anxiety. Idk what to do and I feel so much guilt.

Username: bm111111

Date posted: 1y ago

False memory (again)

Another day feeling anxious about a memory that deep down I know isn't real. I don't know how to talk to people anymore, I can't find the words to describe the feeling and try to feel relief. My only desire is to cry out of guilt for something that didn't happen. I'm ashamed to be feeling this way because I know that people don't know how to deal with it, so what I'm left with is this terrible feeling and a thread of hope that I can't hold on to because it's too heavy. I feel so alone, I wish I didn't have this.

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