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Fam you were a baby/ toddler. You weren’t trying to do anything bad. Let it go. Other people’s poor choices are not your fault.
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I felt guilty for being groomed and attacked by someone as a young teen. I think it's our brains way of making sure it doesn't happen again and possibly our mind is framing the emotional response to the event incorrectly. Do you feel as if it's your fault, only because you know better and are wiser now? If so, remember that you aren't who you are now, back then. Hindsight is a b*tch. Life has learning curves. You were extremely young and you were learning about life. You can't legally consent to anything for a reason at that age
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@odettetheotter This sounds like karma really resonates with your core values. Like moral scrupolosity. I forget, are you in therapy?
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@odettetheotter What therapy were you in and maybe they meant they couldn't help you? (based on their knowledge)
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@odettetheotter Did it help you at all?
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@odettetheotter I'd just seek another therapist. Maybe emdr for trauma and erp for ocd
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I’m so sorry that your mother made hurtful comments towards you. Do you have the capability of attending therapy? I really feel as though you need to speak to a OCD therapist about this. Don’t give up, managing OCD can be a bitch ❤️🩹
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Your mom twisted your head a little bit there. your mom was the embarrassment and your mom was disgusting and nasty for making you feel guilty. She should’ve been feeling guilty. because you were a baby and a toddler and she was a full-grown adult and needed to get herself together. she’s the embarrassment not you. And you did literally nothing wrong you just have OCD that is making you feel heavily guilty for no apparent reason because that’s what it does
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I think I know what honestly is what caused my OCD. I’ve never told anyone this but I have to if I want help. When I was either 10 or 11, I think 10 I was at my family’s thanksgiving dinner. Around this time I discovered porn and got addicted. I would watch porn and read erotica. Because of this I guess I wanted to experiment. I feel absolutely horrible just thinking about this but I was playing around with my little cousin, he was around 7 I think and I remember we were playing chase or hide and seek, and I grabbed him and hugged him (something I never done before), and got a boner. I did this for pleasure. That’s all I did that was sexual but I feel so horrible. I try to give myself grace as I was only 10 and didn’t know the consequences of something so disgusting. I keep thinking “what if I went farther and hurt him?”. I talk to him sometimes and he seems comfortable with me and I think he doesn’t even remember this ever happened and just thought I hugged him for some reason all those years ago. I am NOT attracted to him at all but I think this incident and remembering it when I was 14 has caused my OCD such as POCD for all these years. I am 18 now but I feel absolutely horrible. And now it’s even worse because I have been invited to his 15th birthday party in Mexico. I’m traveling all the way to another country just to be near him! Obviously I know I won’t touch him or be innopropriate with him. But what if he has felt uncomfortable with me all this time? He seems fine with me and not uncomfortable around me but still. If I feel as if I go to this trip, I am a horrible person. I don’t know what to do. Am I a horrible person for what I did and continuing to be around him? I remember reading Reddit and Quora stories of similar people who felt horrible and people told them to not feel bad as they were only children and they learned and now know that was wrong and that to not tell anyone as it could only make things extremely awkward.Please help. I know COCSA is a very serious topic that harms people and I feel like a horrible perpetrator now.
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Worried about situation that happened with nephew new memory or not idk I'm scared Worried about situation that happened with nephew I'm so scared when I was holding my nephew I thought " I wonder if this would sexually stimulate him" ( not the exact words don't want to be extremely graphic) I began to bump him like how people bump babies on their hips he was on my stomach cuz that's how he was handed to me. Now I fear I remember also thinking if his diaper would stimulate his private part or something like that IDK LIKE I FEEL LIKE I REMEMBER THINKING THAT BUT ALSO DON'T??? LIKE O FEEL LIKE maybe I thought this at a different time for whatever weird reason but then I'm scared that it makes sense it would happen when I held him. Does it change the situation?????I feel extremely sick because I don't know why I would think that or if it was my brain or me. Idk if it was or wasn't cuz I felt his diaper against me? Was I curious if it would? It feels like I was curious but wth why???Was it just something weird I thought? Am I actually a monster? I had been having disturbing thoughts I'm pretty sure that were related to my POCD in general for a while before that. Ik my nephew didn't get hurt but I'm so scared why would I do something like that I feel so sick and disgusted. I know away from that situation I have no sexual interest or attraction towards him I'm just so freaked out and disgusted. I don't wanna be a bad person and I don't want my worst fear to be true.
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Was I a bad person before this life and is God punishing me. Sometimes I think I have a reverse punishment. Like God knew I'd be a horrible adult so that's why I was abused as a kid. I wasn't horribly abused but I didn't really realize I was until my psychiatrist told me I was. I hate myself
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