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Fam you were a baby/ toddler. You weren’t trying to do anything bad. Let it go. Other people’s poor choices are not your fault.
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I felt guilty for being groomed and attacked by someone as a young teen. I think it's our brains way of making sure it doesn't happen again and possibly our mind is framing the emotional response to the event incorrectly. Do you feel as if it's your fault, only because you know better and are wiser now? If so, remember that you aren't who you are now, back then. Hindsight is a b*tch. Life has learning curves. You were extremely young and you were learning about life. You can't legally consent to anything for a reason at that age
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@odettetheotter This sounds like karma really resonates with your core values. Like moral scrupolosity. I forget, are you in therapy?
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@odettetheotter What therapy were you in and maybe they meant they couldn't help you? (based on their knowledge)
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@odettetheotter Did it help you at all?
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@odettetheotter I'd just seek another therapist. Maybe emdr for trauma and erp for ocd
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I’m so sorry that your mother made hurtful comments towards you. Do you have the capability of attending therapy? I really feel as though you need to speak to a OCD therapist about this. Don’t give up, managing OCD can be a bitch ❤️🩹
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Your mom twisted your head a little bit there. your mom was the embarrassment and your mom was disgusting and nasty for making you feel guilty. She should’ve been feeling guilty. because you were a baby and a toddler and she was a full-grown adult and needed to get herself together. she’s the embarrassment not you. And you did literally nothing wrong you just have OCD that is making you feel heavily guilty for no apparent reason because that’s what it does
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Worried about situation that happened with nephew new memory or not idk I'm scared Worried about situation that happened with nephew I'm so scared when I was holding my nephew I thought " I wonder if this would sexually stimulate him" ( not the exact words don't want to be extremely graphic) I began to bump him like how people bump babies on their hips he was on my stomach cuz that's how he was handed to me. Now I fear I remember also thinking if his diaper would stimulate his private part or something like that IDK LIKE I FEEL LIKE I REMEMBER THINKING THAT BUT ALSO DON'T??? LIKE O FEEL LIKE maybe I thought this at a different time for whatever weird reason but then I'm scared that it makes sense it would happen when I held him. Does it change the situation?????I feel extremely sick because I don't know why I would think that or if it was my brain or me. Idk if it was or wasn't cuz I felt his diaper against me? Was I curious if it would? It feels like I was curious but wth why???Was it just something weird I thought? Am I actually a monster? I had been having disturbing thoughts I'm pretty sure that were related to my POCD in general for a while before that. Ik my nephew didn't get hurt but I'm so scared why would I do something like that I feel so sick and disgusted. I know away from that situation I have no sexual interest or attraction towards him I'm just so freaked out and disgusted. I don't wanna be a bad person and I don't want my worst fear to be true.
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Was I a bad person before this life and is God punishing me. Sometimes I think I have a reverse punishment. Like God knew I'd be a horrible adult so that's why I was abused as a kid. I wasn't horribly abused but I didn't really realize I was until my psychiatrist told me I was. I hate myself
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I feel nauseous. Extremely sick, i cannot eat, cant sleep well, and I haven't enjoyed things I normally enjoy to cry in bed and spiral for several days already. I feel extremely anxious over my past real events. I remembered something extremely triggering. I used to be morbidly curious about crimes and like I remember when i was a younger teen I watched a dark documentary that honestly i shouldnt have watched. There was this extremely weird scene and i think i felt weirded out but also a little aroused? but only bc I was thinking "lucky, shes already having sex. I wish I was her so i could experience it too." The poor person was like 1-3 years younger than me at the time. I KNOW how wrong that is now i legit feel like im going to throw up rn. Anyway I think I felt a little aroused??? And I think I touched myself a little bit and imagined myself in her place? I dont think I enjoyed it bc i remember it felt forced and weird and i stopped. I never did it again. I feel so sick! I would NEVER watch a documentary like that now as an adult and think or touch myself to it thats just so wrong but im scared that this is a sign im a sicko/p. I remmeber crying at the end of the documentary bc I felt disturbed by the contents but i still put some in my watch later out of morbid curiosity to see more real cases of these crimes bc they scared me. I never watched them again though. It only happened once and it was before my ocd started which SCARES me even more!!! And i wouldnt watch them as an adult either theyre too disturbing! I regret it so badly and feel like a monster bc it was messed up. Like what was wrong with me?! Theyre extremely disturbing to me and I rather avoid such content bc its triggering to my ocd but im afraid now like was that a sign of me possibly being a p? Am I a monster??? Am I in denial? Is this even ocd?! I feel so much shame and guilt it's killing me. 😔
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