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Fam you were a baby/ toddler. You weren’t trying to do anything bad. Let it go. Other people’s poor choices are not your fault.
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I felt guilty for being groomed and attacked by someone as a young teen. I think it's our brains way of making sure it doesn't happen again and possibly our mind is framing the emotional response to the event incorrectly. Do you feel as if it's your fault, only because you know better and are wiser now? If so, remember that you aren't who you are now, back then. Hindsight is a b*tch. Life has learning curves. You were extremely young and you were learning about life. You can't legally consent to anything for a reason at that age
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@odettetheotter This sounds like karma really resonates with your core values. Like moral scrupolosity. I forget, are you in therapy?
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@odettetheotter What therapy were you in and maybe they meant they couldn't help you? (based on their knowledge)
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@odettetheotter Did it help you at all?
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@odettetheotter I'd just seek another therapist. Maybe emdr for trauma and erp for ocd
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I’m so sorry that your mother made hurtful comments towards you. Do you have the capability of attending therapy? I really feel as though you need to speak to a OCD therapist about this. Don’t give up, managing OCD can be a bitch ❤️🩹
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Your mom twisted your head a little bit there. your mom was the embarrassment and your mom was disgusting and nasty for making you feel guilty. She should’ve been feeling guilty. because you were a baby and a toddler and she was a full-grown adult and needed to get herself together. she’s the embarrassment not you. And you did literally nothing wrong you just have OCD that is making you feel heavily guilty for no apparent reason because that’s what it does
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I was checking out a community of adult survivors of childhood sexual abuse, and there was a post that said that pedos sometimes don't even know that they are that, or they don't realize it, like a racist person who won't admit that they're racist. I also saw a comment that mentioned that a ped0 tried to groom them and then when the victim realized, the predator simply said that "they were going to therapy and that their behaviours were a product of childhood abuse" They also said that people like that often did mental gymnastics because they had a personality disorder. This made me feel extremely anxious because, what if that's the case for me? I did things from 10 to 15 years old that made me extremely afraid and shameful, and thinking about the possibility of being that, i didn't abuse or groomed anyone but i saw disturbing things on the internet. Stating the things i did are sometimes accompanied by saying the abuses i experienced as a child, this worries me that it is a gigantic mental gymnastics to evade responsability or to deny being a paraphilic. This is horrible
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i feel like i have been posting a lot about this and i will try to stop since now but i just don't know where to start or what to do, and i can't take therapy right now either. my event is about something that did actually happen; i had a boyfriend and we had a 1.5 age difference (i know this sounds stupid) but the thing is that we both started to sext a lot since he was 14 and i was 15. we shared audios videos pictures ect and i don't know how to just let this go, even when i know that i never really forced him into anything and i was always constantly worried about him being comfortable, when to stop and ect. the memories keep coming back to my mind and the guilt is eating me up slowly because i keep thinking that i'm a predator or a groomer or something like that. i don't know how to deal with the what ifs either, lately i haven't stopped thinking what if i sexually harassed or sexually exploited him or something like that. how do i deal with the cycle of guilt and constant what ifs if i also feel like my event is worse than others i've seen? please help me with this. it's getting a lil tiring and even if somedays i know how to deal with this, i still get really triggered sometimes. this wouldn't even bother me before, i wish i could just get back in time before this theme popped into my mind. my life has been a hell since then and i live constantly scared and suicidal.
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Struggling. My mind/OCD told me I had already abused my child by breathing when they were laying across me and that I might as well do something else to hurt them. I had to think for a second, but the only thing that came to mind was to move my elbow towards their groin area to cause a "feeling". Well I did just that, and I ended up grazing their groinal area and it caused a disgusting unwanted feeling. I IMMEDIATELY wanted to throw up and panicked. I also asked my child to move off of me immediately. It went against my morals, beliefs, and values as an individual and mother. I can't stop thinking about it and it's very debilitating. I didn't enjoy a single moment of it. But my question to you guys is am the monster that I've always been scared of being? Do I belong in the ground? Do I deserve to have a wonderful life and wonderful, perfect child?
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