Fear of being drugged

@jmadr127 Still the same sadly :(

@Lilly2442! NOO im so sorry :( have you tried to do therapy or medication for. Ive been trying to get over the fear but its so overwhelming

@jmadr127 No I’m so scared to take medicine:( what are your compulsions that you do because of the fear of being drugged ?

@Lilly2442! Oof it’s a lot honestly like I noticed when it first started as badly as I wanted to eat food i couldn’t and when I would force myself to eat it I would have to wait two hours and try not to freak out (almost always did ) because I was like it’s going to take two hours to hit. I constantly have to go on chat gpt for reassurance and every little symptom is like “ a reason I’m drugged”. This one is kinda nasty at work when I’m cash handaling I have to spit cause I think the money is laced. It’s so many to like write down in one comment but what are some of yours :(

@jmadr127 Same as yours! I think everything has drugs on it and it’s because I have a fear of losing control of myself so drugs is huge for me :( i wait hours also after I get done eating to make sure I’m not “drugged”

@Lilly2442! Me too I have such a bad fear of going crazy and embarrassing myself :( if you don’t mind me asking how or why did your fear start? Was it just out of the blue or did something trigger it ?

@jmadr127 Late merry Christmas btw !! I hope you had a good holiday

@jmadr127 Late merry Christmas happy new year also. My fear started after a really bad panic attack I felt I was going crazy

@jmadr127 So now I have a fear of losing control in anyway and doing something out of my control and drugs is a huge trigger because it can cause someone to go crazy and can makes you experience schizophrenia or something so I’m just so scared

@jmadr127 How did yours start?

@Lilly2442! I literally couldn’t controll any of my actions I forgot how to do simple things. It was so embarrassing I was even saying my deepest darkest secrets. My parents didn’t help me they said I was laced eventually I calmed down enough to go to bed. I guess for me the worst thing abt that was not only how it made me emotionally feel but physically like the best way to explain what being high felt like to me is imagine getting spinned on a chair and everything is going in frames. It goes from spinning super fast to super slow and it feels like someone’s taking a picture every time you move your head. Your body is in frames and it felt I was melting into my bed it was horrible. Ever since then I’m so scared to freak out and loose control the way I did that i developed anxiety and panic disorder from it :(

@Lilly2442! What are ways you cope with it sometimes or when your able to calm yourself down enough

@jmadr127 I’m sorry did doing drugs trigger your fear of losing control ? And that’s what caused it

@jmadr127 Honestly I cope with it by just allowing the thoughts I guess I’m in a really bad spot right now I lock myself in my room and don’t go out

@Lilly2442! Yes it did cause an extreme trigger for me , since I freaked out with it just the topic of drugs sometimes makes me want to freak out. I’m so sorry that you had that really bad panic attack

@Lilly2442! I feel you so bad on this because for like a few months I didn’t leave my house because everything made me want to freak out. I’ve learned that when I get a bad thought about something to take a deep breath and say to myself realistically no one has ever been drugged in the ways I’m thinking why would it specifically happen to me now. Or I think about me in the past before having this huge fear and say in the past nothing happened to me. Or instead of imagining the worst case scenario I imagine the best kinda gaslighting myself into thinking everything will be okay. Sometimes I do just have to let myself freak out instead of fighting the feeling. It’s embarrassing though trying to explain to people why you’re freaking out :(

@jmadr127 Yeah I get it :( it’s so hard to live with the fear