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my ocd has been really convincing lately. it’s convincing me that i’m just questioning my sexuality and that i’m bi and just don’t know it yet. i can’t help but think “what if these thoughts and feelings are real” i’m so lost i just feel like all of this has changed who i was. the worst part is that i barely have a reaction to these thoughts so it’s hard for me to tell if it’s ocd or not. how do i know if it’s ocd or i’m just questioning my sexuality??

Beyond the what ifs - Does anyone else feel like their OCD tells them they have to be gay... I don’t want to be with a woman but it feels like I have to be gay. I’m trying to tell myself it’s OCD and that it’s a lie...but what if it isn’t? What if I’m lying to myself that I don’t want to be with a woman but I actually do?

Here’s my biggest issue. I see men that I think are attractive or I’ll notice a good looking man, but not in a sexual way, I don’t wanna cuddle them, no of that stuff. I simply notice how good looking they are, then the thoughts trigger that ask “I wonder if think he has a good looking face means I gay”, then I keep asking questions along those lines. Then sometimes I’ll put my self in a gay situation in my head to try visualize whether I’d enjoy doing something gay. After all the mental gymnastics, I come to the conclusion of no. Then I proceed to ask myself, “is the answer only no because of what society would think, or how you were raised?”. And I genuinely can’t come up with an answer for that, I can’t tell if I’m just in the closet, or if this is just OCD, or what. I don’t know what to do and it drives me crazy.