Does your OCD

Absolutely. This is one of OCD's favourite tactics to make you feel ashamed and can make it really hard to reach out to other people. There is no shame in having thoughts - everybody, even those without OCD experiences unpleasant intrusive thoughts it's just much more unpleasant for those of use who can't shake them due to our OCD. Having a thought does not mean you welcome it or invited it in. My favourite analogy is that intrusive thoughts are like weeds. Yes they're in the garden but that doesn't mean you planted them.

Unfortunately OCD is never going to give you certainty. But perhaps it's worth thinking that if these thoughts weren't part of your illness then would you be experiencing this level of distress? Or does your distress suggest that it is likely symptomatic of a mental health condition? Remember the more attention you give the thoughts the more they will thrive so maybe try and let the OCD be and refocus. You're much stronger than your OCD.

I struggle with this lately with my harm OCD. Ive had them for so long that it doesn’t give me as much anxiety as it used to but now I feel like because I don’t have as much anxiety then the thoughts must be sort of true or that I like them or want them to happen. Truth is if we didn’t have OCD we wouldn’t be having reoccurring intrusive thoughts in the first place. Just remember that.

100%. That’s what Ocd does! It’s the doubt disorder, and the feelings and urges are INDISTINGUISHABLE to your average thoughts and feelings. Makes it all the more fun to deal with 🫠