- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
Back when I was at the pit of my current flare up, this time with SO OCD, I would google constantly, always desperate to find that one story that would assure me that I was going through SO OCD. During those googles, the one place I always turned to was my favorite website Reddit, which only made everything so much worse. While people posting on there were trying to be helpful, the majority of the posts that ended up triggering me more were ones one people that didn’t have an OCD mindset. While I’m still going through my current flare up now a few months later, I’m in such a better place now, and even have my OCD theme switching to questioning if I even have OCD at all, which is obviously fun. Having seen people here post about how they also turned to Reddit for guidance, I tried to find the posts that triggered me to just leave a little blurb to hopefully steer them towards ERP and you know what I couldn’t find, THOSE POSTS! While I know they exist, in my memory every post I read had the top post being someone either saying how SO OCD doesn’t exist or that the similar things described sounds like someone in denial. It’s crazy seeing know how my brain just focused on those posts, and made it seem like they were the majority and made me spiral further. Even now the one my brain wants to focus on is from someone that posted 7 years ago, that doesn’t have OCD and says how they think it doesn’t exist. Which obviously they, and my OCD, are right, I do truly enjoy a large percentage of my thoughts going towards figuring out my sexuality and that I’m just in denial 🙄 Basically it’s crazy being in a much better headspace now and seeing the constant state of panic I got myself in over a rare couple of posts, and how us suffering with OCD usually want to focus on that what if scenario so much and blow it up into such a bigger threat than it needs to be