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Hi, Laura! First thing I want to let you know is that you’re not alone! I completely related immediately when you said “I’m tired of my brain not shutting up”. OCD can be really annoying, especially when it can cause you to question yourself nonstop and you keep trying to use logic to “prove” your OCD wrong. Problem is, OCD doesn’t care about logic. There’s always going to be those “what if” thoughts. I’m sure you heard this a lot but it’s a fact that many have these “what if” thoughts. Difference is that for us with OCD we can’t let it go and ruminate on it what feels to be 24/7. There are many things that can help and I highly suggest you seek professional help. If medicine is not your thing you don’t have to worry about that now. There are many alternatives. I was someone’s who was highly against medicine treatment till my psychiatrist talked me into giving it a chance to help speed up the recovery. Sure enough, it did help. Am I cured? No. But I am at a much better place compared to where I once was. It does get better when you get the help that’s needed.
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@laura44 I can understand how this can be more difficult when you have parents you have to go through for help. I myself seemed treatment at the age of 26 two years ago. I was in a dark place and had anxiety attacks just thinking of telling my wife what I was going through and how my thoughts felt that they weren’t my own and constantly tormented me. Did you know intrusive thoughts used to be called “the devils whisper” in the olden days? I can see why they would call it that and it fits perfectly! You don’t have to go into great detail with your parents what exactly your thoughts are, I think the important thing is that you at least share with them that you are not in a good mental place and you need help. If it’s a financial thing that may be preventing you from seeking help I believe depending where you live they can offer some free service. If any of your parents work full time though they should be able to have you under their insurance.
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I have been dealing with this on my own for a while now and everyones been saying to see someone for this because it is a very scary thing to go through cuz sometimes you just think your literally going crazy and stuck in your thoughts and just cant find any way to get out but for only maybe a second then your right back in ur thoughts again thats what truly sucks about this but honestly seeing someone would be the best bet because you dont wanna be feeling like this forever you wanna learn ways to cope with this for sure so just try and talk to your parents about it im sure they will not judge you there your parents they will do anything to help you im sure but its better then just letting it go like i did because it will just keep getting worse
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@AlexGee thank you for replying! what if i’m not in the position to receive help? i don’t exactly know how to break it to my parents i’m not feeling well mentally...
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- 5y ago
my dad is the only one who works and i am pretty sure we don’t have insurance
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I had incest thoughts, and as someone with 5 siblings it’s pretty scary... I was scared my whole family would turn on me if I told them about my thoughts too
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This might contain triggering content, but I'm also wondering if others have dealt with this similar thought, and if so, how to deal with it? Overall, I've been doing so well these past few days. I'm able to eat again, which I hadn't been able to do because of how much anxiety I'd been experiencing. I'm spending time around loved ones and not just rotting in my room, and I've been able to wake up without immediately being bombarded by intrusive thoughts. When things first got really bad, I'd wake my mom up every night for reassurance, but I haven't done that in a while either. I'm really proud of myself, but there's still this nagging thought in my mind... While looking through others posts on here, hoping to find advice that'd fit my situation, I ended up making things worse. Someone mentioned how they had a fear that they'd purposely search for illegal content (related to POCD). I panicked, and "what ifs" flooded my thoughts. "What if the intrusive thoughts affect who I am as a person, and I do that?" I'm terrified that I'll search for those things, which I know means I wouldn't do it. But then, another person on here said they'd actually looked for those things, and that freaked me out even more. Does that mean it's possible for that to happen to me? I don't want to do that, but I keep having intrusive thoughts surrounding it. I've been doing so well these past few days. I'm just... stuck. I don't know what to do. I've spoken with other people who have the same fears, but how do I manage this? It's not something I've even thought about before seeing those posts. I've been practicing accepting the uncertainty, but I'm really struggling with this one. I hate this. This morning, I woke up, and the intrusive thoughts were back. It's just disheartening.
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I feel like there’s no way out of this. everyday i’m anxious and depressed from these thoughts. i feel like i have to constantly question if it’s OCD or not. the panic attacks are insane and i freak out. and a compulsion i have is looking eveything up on the internet when im stressing to know that it’s just my OCD and im not in danger. but looking things up add on to my thoughts and i start thinking “what if” actual suidcal people think. do others with this theme whenever they do something like if im taking a picture it’ll be like “yeah you look happy people will wonder what happened when your gone” LIKE i DO NOT want to end my life. or even as simple as cleaning my room, “yup keep it clean so when your family goes through your stuff” then i panic and can’t even do anything. those thoughts distress me so bad. i’ll sit there and think how good my life is or when im having a good day my thoughts will be like “NOPEEE what if your just saying that to convince yourself” it never shuts up and genuinely makes me think i have SI or something. i hope this reaches the right people just to know im not alone. Even when i do get better in the back of my mind it’s always “people who want to are the same a day before too” im genuinely scared and im scared one day im going to just snap and do it because its “too much” do i need to go to a mental hospital! i feel insane.
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i’ve been dealing with this “thing” since i was 15. (i’m 23 now) if i have a bad memory that i have done when i was really young or just an intrusive thought i feel like i need to tell my mom or boyfriend. it’s been on and off ever since but since January hit it’s been an everyday thing about the littlest things. mostly about my relationship. an example is i was talking to someone random at my job and we were talking about taxes and when im in deep thought or just thinking i do a thing where i bite my lip (not in the sexual way) and i had a thought when it happened “was that sexual?” and i felt like i did something wrong and i went for a while thinking that until i told my boyfriend about it. or like my ex’s face has popped up in my head in the most inappropriate times and i feel the need that i have to tell him. (my ex was not a good person) i feel like im a prisoner in my head everyday, trying to justify thoughts or remind myself that its just a thought. i didnt know that this was or could be a form of ocd. it runs in my family but i’ve just never considered it being this. i always called it anxiety or depression but i always felt like it is more than that.
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