i dont know exactly what i’m feeling. i know ocd isn’t logical and trying to get to the core of it is hard, but i think what terrifies me is that i (everyone for that matter) have the potential to do horrible things. to stop loving my parents, to hurt my little sister, to hurt myself, and that i’m just resisting the urge to do so. my ocd used to be one theme pocd and incest ocd and for some reason i’ve managed to dismiss the thoughts easier but i’m tired of being in my head all the time, i’m tired of my brain not shutting up. do you guys have any tips to help me?

Hi, Laura! First thing I want to let you know is that you’re not alone! I completely related immediately when you said “I’m tired of my brain not shutting up”. OCD can be really annoying, especially when it can cause you to question yourself nonstop and you keep trying to use logic to “prove” your OCD wrong. Problem is, OCD doesn’t care about logic. There’s always going to be those “what if” thoughts. I’m sure you heard this a lot but it’s a fact that many have these “what if” thoughts. Difference is that for us with OCD we can’t let it go and ruminate on it what feels to be 24/7. There are many things that can help and I highly suggest you seek professional help. If medicine is not your thing you don’t have to worry about that now. There are many alternatives. I was someone’s who was highly against medicine treatment till my psychiatrist talked me into giving it a chance to help speed up the recovery. Sure enough, it did help. Am I cured? No. But I am at a much better place compared to where I once was. It does get better when you get the help that’s needed.

@laura44 I can understand how this can be more difficult when you have parents you have to go through for help. I myself seemed treatment at the age of 26 two years ago. I was in a dark place and had anxiety attacks just thinking of telling my wife what I was going through and how my thoughts felt that they weren’t my own and constantly tormented me. Did you know intrusive thoughts used to be called “the devils whisper” in the olden days? I can see why they would call it that and it fits perfectly! You don’t have to go into great detail with your parents what exactly your thoughts are, I think the important thing is that you at least share with them that you are not in a good mental place and you need help. If it’s a financial thing that may be preventing you from seeking help I believe depending where you live they can offer some free service. If any of your parents work full time though they should be able to have you under their insurance.

I have been dealing with this on my own for a while now and everyones been saying to see someone for this because it is a very scary thing to go through cuz sometimes you just think your literally going crazy and stuck in your thoughts and just cant find any way to get out but for only maybe a second then your right back in ur thoughts again thats what truly sucks about this but honestly seeing someone would be the best bet because you dont wanna be feeling like this forever you wanna learn ways to cope with this for sure so just try and talk to your parents about it im sure they will not judge you there your parents they will do anything to help you im sure but its better then just letting it go like i did because it will just keep getting worse

@AlexGee thank you for replying! what if i’m not in the position to receive help? i don’t exactly know how to break it to my parents i’m not feeling well mentally...

my dad is the only one who works and i am pretty sure we don’t have insurance

I had incest thoughts, and as someone with 5 siblings it’s pretty scary... I was scared my whole family would turn on me if I told them about my thoughts too