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- 5y
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- 5y
Hi, Laura! First thing I want to let you know is that you’re not alone! I completely related immediately when you said “I’m tired of my brain not shutting up”. OCD can be really annoying, especially when it can cause you to question yourself nonstop and you keep trying to use logic to “prove” your OCD wrong. Problem is, OCD doesn’t care about logic. There’s always going to be those “what if” thoughts. I’m sure you heard this a lot but it’s a fact that many have these “what if” thoughts. Difference is that for us with OCD we can’t let it go and ruminate on it what feels to be 24/7. There are many things that can help and I highly suggest you seek professional help. If medicine is not your thing you don’t have to worry about that now. There are many alternatives. I was someone’s who was highly against medicine treatment till my psychiatrist talked me into giving it a chance to help speed up the recovery. Sure enough, it did help. Am I cured? No. But I am at a much better place compared to where I once was. It does get better when you get the help that’s needed.
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- 5y
@laura44 I can understand how this can be more difficult when you have parents you have to go through for help. I myself seemed treatment at the age of 26 two years ago. I was in a dark place and had anxiety attacks just thinking of telling my wife what I was going through and how my thoughts felt that they weren’t my own and constantly tormented me. Did you know intrusive thoughts used to be called “the devils whisper” in the olden days? I can see why they would call it that and it fits perfectly! You don’t have to go into great detail with your parents what exactly your thoughts are, I think the important thing is that you at least share with them that you are not in a good mental place and you need help. If it’s a financial thing that may be preventing you from seeking help I believe depending where you live they can offer some free service. If any of your parents work full time though they should be able to have you under their insurance.
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- 5y
I have been dealing with this on my own for a while now and everyones been saying to see someone for this because it is a very scary thing to go through cuz sometimes you just think your literally going crazy and stuck in your thoughts and just cant find any way to get out but for only maybe a second then your right back in ur thoughts again thats what truly sucks about this but honestly seeing someone would be the best bet because you dont wanna be feeling like this forever you wanna learn ways to cope with this for sure so just try and talk to your parents about it im sure they will not judge you there your parents they will do anything to help you im sure but its better then just letting it go like i did because it will just keep getting worse
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- 5y
@AlexGee thank you for replying! what if i’m not in the position to receive help? i don’t exactly know how to break it to my parents i’m not feeling well mentally...
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- 5y
my dad is the only one who works and i am pretty sure we don’t have insurance
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- 5y
I had incest thoughts, and as someone with 5 siblings it’s pretty scary... I was scared my whole family would turn on me if I told them about my thoughts too
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- 25w
I’ve always had OCD, and for most of my life it was little things that seemed manageable at the time or something that would phase out of my head within a couple days/weeks/months. But, the older I got the more severe it became, I’d find myself collapsing deeper and deeper within my own head trying to out think the thoughts that bothered me. About a year ago I had a thought that rattled me to my core. My brothers and I were watching a movie in our mother’s room when my youngest brother turned to me to say something. His close proximity to me triggered a fleeting sexually explicit image in my head and that thought caused me to spiral. Asking questions like, “are you attracted to your minor brother? Are you attracted to minors? Are you gay? Etc.” a couple days went by and my mental stability continued to crumble until I broke down to my mother, she was understanding and we found a a psychiatrist. I got on medication and for a while everything was slowly but surely trending in a positive direction. The thoughts would still pop into my head but they were becoming more manageable. As we all know OCD and mental illness comes in waves. Currently my OCD has been pretty severe. I feel those intrusive thoughts latching on in my head and it’s been very hard to kick them. It’s gotten to the point where I find myself being uncomfortable being in close proximity with my little brother because I feel as though I am capable of harming him in any way. And the more uncomfortable I become being around him the more I find myself lashing out in anger towards the people I care about the most. Those moments of anger cause me to spiral even farther as my head fills with ideas like “what if you are capable of hurting someone or even murdering them?” There’s times where these thoughts rattle me so much that I feel like it would be better to be in prison where I couldn’t harm someone or that even being dead would be a better solution than possibly running the risk of hurting someone in my life I care about. This is about the jist of it, a majority of the OCD I have is centered around the idea that I am capable of harming my little brother physically, mentally, sexually. It’s been exhausting and it feels like there is no end in sight.
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- 22w
i’m having a full on panic attack, i never used to be like this, what tf is happening to me, why am i like this, i’m so convinced i’m a horrible person and i deserve to be shut out forever because of my thoughts, i’m tired of struggling with harm ocd, i’m scared that because i have mental health issues i’m gonna end up ki!!ing someone someday or end up on the news, when i was at work earlier i kept thinking “how easy would it be to ki!! someone and get away with it” someone help, i don’t feel normal, am i crazy?… 😭😭i know that with ocd you’re not supposed to have reassurance and you have to be “okay” with the situation but.. how am i supposed to be okay with feeling like i could hurt someone…
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- 19w
i am convinced im a psycho killer. everytime im around my mom or sister i get these intense thoughts of stabbing or hurting them. when they’re not around its not as intense but its still there. its literally on my mind 24/7. im so tense 24/7. were currently looking for a puppy for the family and when me and my sister were playing with them today the thought was still there. nothing distracts me from it. video games and EVERYTHING else doesn’t work. im starting to feel like i WANT to do these things. i was never like this until i had a marijuana induced panic attack in january. i feel like something happened to my brain and its not just ocd anymore. i dont even know if im faking it. i have suffered from relationship ocd, pedophile ocd, and health ocd. i got over those relatively quickly. this new theme came out of nowhere after a panic attack on a plane coming home from a horror convention in february. i dont see a way out of this one. its been months. i try to let them sit and i get a panic attack. all i do everyday is cry. i feel like my life is over. i talk to a therapist and i have tried two medications that didnf work work. i dont know how to live like this. im afraid im gonna lose my relationship and im afraid im gonna lose my whole life ahead of me. im just 22. i just want the old me back.
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