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- 5y ago
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Hi, Laura! First thing I want to let you know is that you’re not alone! I completely related immediately when you said “I’m tired of my brain not shutting up”. OCD can be really annoying, especially when it can cause you to question yourself nonstop and you keep trying to use logic to “prove” your OCD wrong. Problem is, OCD doesn’t care about logic. There’s always going to be those “what if” thoughts. I’m sure you heard this a lot but it’s a fact that many have these “what if” thoughts. Difference is that for us with OCD we can’t let it go and ruminate on it what feels to be 24/7. There are many things that can help and I highly suggest you seek professional help. If medicine is not your thing you don’t have to worry about that now. There are many alternatives. I was someone’s who was highly against medicine treatment till my psychiatrist talked me into giving it a chance to help speed up the recovery. Sure enough, it did help. Am I cured? No. But I am at a much better place compared to where I once was. It does get better when you get the help that’s needed.
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- 5y ago
@laura44 I can understand how this can be more difficult when you have parents you have to go through for help. I myself seemed treatment at the age of 26 two years ago. I was in a dark place and had anxiety attacks just thinking of telling my wife what I was going through and how my thoughts felt that they weren’t my own and constantly tormented me. Did you know intrusive thoughts used to be called “the devils whisper” in the olden days? I can see why they would call it that and it fits perfectly! You don’t have to go into great detail with your parents what exactly your thoughts are, I think the important thing is that you at least share with them that you are not in a good mental place and you need help. If it’s a financial thing that may be preventing you from seeking help I believe depending where you live they can offer some free service. If any of your parents work full time though they should be able to have you under their insurance.
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- 5y ago
I have been dealing with this on my own for a while now and everyones been saying to see someone for this because it is a very scary thing to go through cuz sometimes you just think your literally going crazy and stuck in your thoughts and just cant find any way to get out but for only maybe a second then your right back in ur thoughts again thats what truly sucks about this but honestly seeing someone would be the best bet because you dont wanna be feeling like this forever you wanna learn ways to cope with this for sure so just try and talk to your parents about it im sure they will not judge you there your parents they will do anything to help you im sure but its better then just letting it go like i did because it will just keep getting worse
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- 5y ago
@AlexGee thank you for replying! what if i’m not in the position to receive help? i don’t exactly know how to break it to my parents i’m not feeling well mentally...
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- 5y ago
my dad is the only one who works and i am pretty sure we don’t have insurance
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- 5y ago
I had incest thoughts, and as someone with 5 siblings it’s pretty scary... I was scared my whole family would turn on me if I told them about my thoughts too
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- 25w ago
I’m so tired of my OCD changing “themes.” And no matter what it changes to, it’s always directed towards a specific person - my mom. My mom and I are very close. I consider her my best friend and we live together. I can share anything with her and she’s very supportive. I’m 32 now, but harm ocd started when I was 15 and she was the main target back then as well. I had a bad flare up this year and the harm thoughts came back, but about a week ago they turned into sexual thoughts. Graphic thoughts and images about incest. These thoughts typically make me feel panic and dread, and just an overall depressed feeling. It has made me uncomfortable to be around my mom, since I can’t even look at her without a sexual thought or image popping up. Even watching a romantic scene in a show, listening a romantic song, etc. My brain wants to put an image of her in my head. Even me fantasizing about a man that I’m attracted to will replace the man with my mom. They just keep popping up. So this of course makes me think I actually want these things, and are actually fantasies. I have started to wonder if I’m in actual denial or that these are my true feelings. I have never been a relationship before due to not having much interest in it plus my mental health issues started as a teen, but someday I would like to get married. But now I’m thinking maybe I’ve never pursued a relationship with someone else because I’m actually in love with my mom and want to be with her, but I can’t so I’m just suppressing my feelings. And I do love my mom, but I question myself is this just platonic or familial love? Also questioning our relationship in general now - is it unhealthy or too dependent? It makes me feel doubt, since I have never really been in love before with someone else so I have nothing to compare it to. Always just crushes or finding a man attractive, and I identify as straight. But I also have not thought of my mom in a sexual way before, so I’m hoping this is just my OCD acting up. Even thinking about a future relationship with a man is making me feel nervous, since I think if I have feelings for my mom, will I ever be able to be in a serious relationship someday? If I’m with someone will I actually just picture her? It makes me feel hopeless, like I can’t help how I feel and what if these things are true? Would I act on them? My brain even made me think, “you want to ask your mom to be in a sexual relationship with you and/or want her to ask you.” I feel like such a pervert for writing that, like a truly disgusting person. I know I don’t want these things to be true, but what if they are and I can’t help how I feel? Again just feel doubt and uncertainty, that I’m in denial, and not to mention just feeling like a very sick individual.
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- 24w ago
I've gotten diagnosed with OCD and I'm in therapy. But I'm worried that I don't have OCD/that I got misdiagnosed. And recently I'm worried that I've just gotten myself into a habit of thinking of dirty minded or just plain old terrible things after I see/hear certain things because I feel like I need to prove I have OCD or else I'm faking(sometimes this goes away). Or that I'm just mimicking symptoms of ocd to cope with real problems I may have and that im just really deep into denial. I don't know...I'm just so tired. I mean, what if I really am what I think I am and this is my brains only way of coping? I don't even really feel anything towards most of the thoughts anymore either I just know they go against my values and I don't want them. I don't know if that's because I'm so mentally exhausted, I just don't care, or that the thoughts are true and I'm comfortable with them.
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- 17w ago
Every day my ocd makes sure there’s a new reason for me to stay trapped in my mind rather than being the mom I want to be that my kids need. Instead i’m stuck in my head depressed and pushing them away. The other day I was braiding my daughter’s hair like I always do and her hair is really long so when I get to the end of the braid I can see her butt in my peripheral vision and I looked down and I immediately got upset asking myself why did I look down?(the ocd has made me question everything I do now). I know it’s just because I was at the end of the braid and I just looked because I was already looking in that direction. A normal person wouldn’t even think twice about it. There was no inappropriate reason behind it at all but of course my ocd latched onto the situation and said I looked down because I wanted to look at her butt. I was so upset and said to myself “I don’t understand how the ocd started an intrusive thought because she was wearing baggy pants. I could understand if she had on tight pants and her butt was more noticeable” and the only reason I said that is because usually the only time my ocd starts intrusive thoughts telling me i’m looking at my daughter in a wrong way is when she has on leggings or a crop top or bathing suit ect. Now my ocd twisted what I said to mean that I like looking at her in tight pants. Nooo! That’s not what I meant but now the ocd won’t stop trying to make me believe that. I don’t ever look at my children in any inappropriate way. I hate this. I hate ocd and I can’t live like this anymore.
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