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- 44w ago
I’m struggling with Taboo OCD themes today
Send any support you can for dealing with this. It is very difficult.
Send any support you can for dealing with this. It is very difficult.
You got this! Give yourself grace and know that God is leading you through this. He knows what you are dealing with and has given you strength and authority over it. He is with you and helping you overcome it. You are not alone. I literally just posted about feeling lonely about dealing with scrupulosity. I was struggling this past week but seeing your post reminds me that I'm not alone in this
No matter how real anything feels remember it is your brain trying to fix something that isn’t there
Yep. You can expect this. This is how OCD works. When the taboo themes come, just tell yourself it is just “par for the course”. This is bound to happen to everyone at some point. Just tell yourself, “Yep, here comes the taboo themes just like I expected.” And then don’t worry about it!
Just know that ocd always shifts to your lowest denominator. For me, that’s everything that is taboo as well. Once I remind myself that ocd wants me to obsess about the most vile things my brain can possibly imagine, I’m able separate myself from the disorder. The thoughts arise in our brain, but we are not our thoughts.
Tonight is one of the hardest nights I’ve ever had with harm ocd. It’s really one of those nights I’m doubting it’s ocd. I’m having panic attack after panic attack and it’s been the past couple of days where it’s been its highest. I’m doing everything I can to cope, like a hot shower (in the middle of a panic attack, hardest thing ever) skin care, turning my diffuser on and skincare. I took a klonopin but it hasn’t kicked in yet. My brain is beating me up with thoughts like “who thinks like this, you’re a serial killer! A murderer! You should be locked up!” Watching my family around me have peace and be normal is so hard because I’m here struggling to just lay down and relax. Part of me feels like I’m gonna lose my mind and end up in the hospital tonight. I just need positive reinforcement and people who can relate. Are you guys there?
I’m going through a really bad flare up. I developed ocd many years ago when I had my first child. Postpartum ocd. I suffer from harm and pocd. At first I had mostly mental and some physical compulsions but the physical faded away pretty early on and i’ve just done mental compulsions since. My ocd was in remission for alot of years and if the ocd would pop up now and again, I was easily able to shrug it off and not engage. A few years ago I went through a stressful time in my life and the ocd came back to stay. At first it was bad but then it got better and has been pretty mild until now. It’s been really bad this week and the physical compulsions are even back. I never thought it would ever get this bad again. My ocd is making me doubt who I am and how I feel. I know it’s all ocd and not real or true but the ocd makes it feel so real that I can’t easily dismiss or disprove it. The more I try to disprove it the more real the ocd makes it feel. I’m really struggling and don’t know how to get back on track. I don’t have access to a therapist because there are no ocd specialists near me and my insurance doesn’t cover online therapy. That’s why i’m reaching out here. Has anyone been through a rough relapse? How can I get through and past this??
Since I developed ocd as postpartum my ocd has mostly always targeted my kids. It started as harm and then switched to pocd. Both are equally very painful. For years I was mostly able to keep my ocd at bay but when it comes back it’s so bad. I have a son and a daughter and my ocd switches back and forth from kid to kid with horrible intrusive thoughts and now even intrusive ocd dreams. With each thought I get past and start to feel relief another one pops right up. The thoughts feel so real and true even though I know it’s just the ocd and not how I think or feel, the ocd always makes me doubt myself and question everything I think or do. I know other moms/dads go through this too. Please anyone who has or is going through this please tell me how you deal with this. 😪
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