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@Beachpie thank u for ur comment :( this is hard to deal with

@co140 Ik but ur not alone!

@JediMJ yes i was living way more in the moment… which sucks bc it didn’t last long lol. thank you!! :)

@JediMJ i guess what was different is i had like no ocd thoughts at all (well pocd hocd)

@co140 When I am in the moment, actively engaged in whatever’s going on around me, I do much better. It’s when I’m in my head that I feel anxious/upset/depressed. I’ve been trying to pay attention to what my brain is doing and how I’m feeling. I struggle a lot with rumination and I’ve been able to redirect my brain, somewhat successfully. It’s like I can step back and ask questions about all these rapid thoughts in my head…instead of just letting my brain do whatever it wants. There’s a quote about the brain being a good servant but a terrible master. I feel that. I want my brain working for me, not against me. 🙂

@co140 I’ve been using this app to investigate and analyze my emotions and it’s been insightful. Plus it has some good tools. And I like the design. Plus, it’s free! It might be a good resource for you. https://howwefeel.org

@JediMJ I agree with this completely. i try to pay attention to brain and how im feeling too but try not to pay attention to the thoughts exactly i guess just try and acknowledge im in an ocd cycle so I can step out of it and live in the present moment. i struggle with rumination a lot also

@Jesse1982 I relate, thank u for ur comment. I wish u healing

@co140 - You think we will ever get better?

@Jesse1982 i would like to say yes.. even though sometimes i feel like i wont. as long as we put in the work to get better. pocd will never go away (ocd in general) but u learn to live with it if u get it treated. i heard erp is good therapy for ocd i dont have insurance that’s why i dont do it but if u do have i do recommend doing erp therapy