My harm OCD is acting up again, especially with so much violence in the world, media, true crime podcasts constantly being played by people, or depictions of killers on tv. I feel like I can’t escape it, I try to rationalize with myself that I would never hurt anybody. At the same time my brain insists on playing tricks on me and makes me worry that I may do something crazy. I’m scared of myself at this point and I’m so exhausted. I know my OCD is being the absolute worst, but I’m scared something more may be going on and I don’t know what to do. I’m so afraid of being told that I’m crazy

I’ve experienced this - sometimes I just can’t turn on the tv or news. Apart from ocd, a lot of entertainment and media actually is violent and depressing right now. I think it affects even mentally healthy people deeply.

I felt the feeling like you cant esacpe part. I had suicidal OCD (a form of Harm OCD), and it feels like a constant thing. You are not alone, and I promise there is an end.

Its hard to ignore Harm OCD thoughts

Same here, just remember there just thoughts and ignoring them seems to help me when I get the thought I simply say “its just ocd this thought will pass and this thought does not define who I am”. Now some important things to remember are: do not focus or obsess over the thought it will make it worse now if you ignore it the thought will go away and eventually you will stop getting the thoughts as long as you don’t let it get to you don’t let it get to your head your stronger then this so remember to just ignore it and if your having trouble find something to distract you what I find helpful taking my mind of it is I talk to someone.Hope this helps

np, if you need to talk I’m here for you

@kyneum OCD can be really scary at times and it’s the worse when the thoughts begin to feel “real”. Trust me I have harm OCD and it’s a fucking pain in the ass. I would see a knife or any household object and just think what if I hurt myself with this lol. Trust me don’t avoid the tv or the media, the more exposure you have to the violence the less and less the anxiety will begin to creep up overtime. Stay strong and know that the worse of it is passing over you. Hope this helps.

Thank you so much!

But what do you do if you have the thoughts in the situation with a person related to that person? Than talking doesn‘t help me so much :(

@kyneum yes staying positive is super important and obviously it’s going to be frustrating at times but the best thing ab OCD is that over time u just get better at managing it so it really can’t get worse.