My Experience with OCD (First Post)

I became concious of my OCD when experimenting with hallucenagenic drugs back in 2020 during covid and the lockdown (yeah, horrible idea). My anxiety spiked for what seemed like the entire year and I developed a panic disorder. I didn't know it was OCD at the time. I went to a psychiatrist and got diagnosed only with panic disorder. Eventually, I saw a therapist and was diagnosed with OCD, but I couldn't afford to continue seeing him. I also wasn't sure yet that it was true that I had it, or perhaps wasn't willing to accept it yet. My method of managing it for the past few years became to keep myself busy and not think about it. This year, I realized I was running from the fear when it brought me to my knees and made me feel the way I did in 2020. Now I'm here and ready to tackle this once and for all.

Ranger_867

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

This is NOT a linear process day to day, but over time it is. If I’m good today, I might be bad tomorrow, but over time the line improves overall. I started last June and I am a lot stronger and more informed than last year. You’ll definitely see gains. Give it time and do what they tell you.

oofieINmytoo...

Date posted: 1y

Ayeee sweet. You got this Mannnn! Just got the app and ready to deal with this honestly to. Oof

daltonb.971

Date posted: 1y

@oofieINmytoofie WE got this 💪

fcknsav

Date posted: 1y

Did you experience ocd before your trip? I used to smoke a lot of weed and was always fine but I had a really bad trip and for whatever reason after that my ocd got way worse to the point where I actually got diagnosed (I didn’t even know I had it before but id need dealing with some of the things my whole life) and for whatever reason after my trip almost every time I smoked it would just trigger my ocd really badly or just give me really bad body dysmorphia to the point where id have a panic attack

daltonb.971

Date posted: 1y

@fcknsav Yeah, pretty similar experience with me. I didn't really experience OCD until after tripping. Then I realized how much I would overthink things and get anxiety attacks. I didn't have to get diagnosed and get on meds until after tripping multiple times. I can't even smoke weed anymore without getting anxiety attacks. It brings me back to the trip almost like PTSD or something.

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