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I can relate to you. I also do it. When i notice a pretty girl. But the thing is..for me it’s like my OCD choose these girls and it makes me think that i have crush on them. Like a secret crush on something. But the thing is that i do not have romantic or sexual scenarios in my mind about them, i mean…i do the same as you that i tried to think about it if I would like it or not. But mostly i just have her face in front of my eyes or i just have the name of that girl in my mind like over and over…..Ofc, i also have thoughts like what if my answer is “no” just because of our society😔 But i dont think that these are my ACTUAL DESIRES. And again, thoughts like what if im just suppress it, and dont want to admit it and when i dont feel anxious and i try to think about it, then im scared that i like it. 😞

It’s just OCD my friend, don’t pay attention to those thoughts and let it hurt you. Jesus loves you so much. 💜

Hey!! I also go through this. You can think the same sex is good looking. I mean that doesn’t mean you’re sexually attracted to them. It’s your OCD trying to tell you that. It gives me a lot of anxiety, but after a lot of deep breaths and I just tell myself it’s my OCD. I feel a little better. I struggle with this a lot. I hope your OCD gets better soon!

It is the intrusive thought and then additional meaning, value or weight given to the thought or your reaction that leads to more what ifs or as I like to call it Creating Stories based on facts with rigidly applied rules that only fit into the OCD story line that seem logical; however, it is not logical, it is just the cycle of OCD to make the pieces fit to tell an OCD story. The creating of stories with these incorrect/or rigidly applied rules or facts - is a compulsion.