Is my attraction to the unwanted sex what true attraction feels like?

Has anyone else with SOOCD found themselves mentally reviewing literally every interaction they’ve ever had with the sex that their OCD is telling them they are attracted to rather than the want they want and know themselves to be attracted to?? I am a straight female and ever since my OCD flared up about two months ago I have spent every minute of every day ruminating over past experiences and my mind has convinced me that I was attracted to virtually every female figure in my life, even though I have never actually acted on any of these presumptions. Likewise, my brain is pushing away all of the actual memories I have of being in love with past boyfriends and having crushes on guys. Now, when I see a girl anywhere I freak out and automatically assume I’m attracted to them, even though the thought of being gay makes me sick to my stomach and is never something that I want to act on. And also, when I see any guy that I find attractive, I will acknowledge that I find them attractive but it’s like my mind is telling me I’m faking it because I must actually like women. These thoughts are so incredibly painful because I feel like my attraction to men is fading away even though I only ever want to be with men in the future. I feel like I’m numb to everything and it’s making the anxiety soso much worse. Anyone who can relate or provide any advice would be greatly appreciated.

Hello all. I am a woman who struggles with what i assume to be hocd and have struggled with it for 3 years now. I have had false attraction on and off and have been able to let them go because i realized the anxiety behind them. Now however, i have a fear that i am secretly attracted to people of the same sex who are masculine presenting or one day i am going to feel attracted to and actuallydevelop feelings for one. Are there women that feel this way ?? Thank you advance.

I just don't know anymore like the false attractions feel too real and believable it's hard to sit with them to make me see it's not real when they appear on people I know and strangers. I know I don't consciously want it but maybe something deep down I'm not in control does. I hate feeling this way.