jessica_c

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

Struggling with a lot

Currently still struggling with feeling hopeless and anxious and sleeping, I have been sleeping the past days at four in the morning and it’s really been taking a toll on me. I just feel so hopeless due to insurance issues with NOCD , I no longer have a therapist at the moment but I’m trying my best to find another therapist that’ll accept my insurance, but with Medi-Cal it’s really hard , And the stage and point I’m in at my life currently it was the worst time to be let go and not have much help. I know I have my tools and skills, but it’s different having that one you know, someone understand what I mean, I’ve just been having really poor mental health, and in the night I have been having a really poor sleep and it’s really affecting me because I struggle going to sleep and getting up in the morning, just wondering if anyone is able to help me make a sleeping schedule , Or any encouraging words to keep going anything would be appreciated. I really truly don’t mean to burden anyone on here thank you so much

Princess Lorita

Date posted: 1y

Sleep is such a game changer!!!!! I’m so sorry you’re going through that!

jessica_c

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@Princess Lorita Hello, thank you so so much for your kind words(: I think you commented on a post I left last time a while back. I love seeing your profile pic. I hope you’re doing well, and by any chance, do you have any tips for sleeping or the impact that it had on you getting a better sleep schedule or sleeping a little earlier? I’m trying to find some motivation to sleep earlier so I’d love to hear your experience.

Princess Lorita

Date posted: 1y

@jessica_c Me and you are literally going through the exact same thing! I wasn’t able to go to sleep until 4 or 5 am! And it’s horrible so I feel your frustration! I ended up having to take a melatonin and forcing myself to lay down and close my eyes. My biggest tip was to put my electronic down and just go to bed. But I have to have melatonin at night because with the medication I take I can’t fall asleep without help. I’m so sorry for your insurance being a funky mess, have you ever tried to use an insurance called Aetna? It’s through CVS and it’s nationwide. My therapy is only $20 no matter where I go. And thank you for your kind words!!!!!! I’m glad I was able to be of use!

jessica_c

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@Princess Lorita Yess thank u for validating how I feel and the struggle because yes it can be so so hard. Yes I struggle with putting down my phone , often , thank u I will try that suggestion thank u so so much for ur support and kind words even tho this may sound corny or it may not feel like it we got this despite the struggle 💓thank u for being a kind soul I was feeling so alone today and I just find solice in knowing I’m not alone again many thanks 😊

Princess Lorita

Date posted: 1y

@jessica_c Of course lovely!!! We do got this despite feeling like we don’t!🩵💜💖 it is literally mind over matter when it comes to OCD! I think one of the reasons it’s so hard to put our phone down is because that’s when the brain isn’t as occupied and can then start scheming with our OCD on how to trap us. We have the skills to get through this! We have to use our skills and breath work and let whatever wave comes just come. Even if it’s terrible, it’s not forever. I’m so glad you’re able to still use this app and get some support despite your insurance being funky. I’m also always here to talk! I wish they had chats!

jessica_c

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@Princess Lorita 🥹

jessica_c

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@Princess Lorita I agree ! Your right about letting the wave be there im struggling with that currently , I read your bio I noticed you have panic disorder aswell do you have any tips for working through panic attacks in a non compulsive way , I would just love to hear if u did . Also I’m wondering can I get aetena in addition to having medi-Cal? Thank you 🥹🫶🏽I also love ur bio as an ocd princess so cute !

jessica_c

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@Princess Lorita Me too I wish they had chats ):

jessica_c

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@Princess Lorita Again, thank you so much for your kind words

Princess Lorita

Date posted: 1y

@jessica_c Not too sure if you can have double insurance, but I’m sure there’s ways to! Sorry for not replying faster my dear I have been having issues at home with my step dad. But one thing that helps me in a panic attack is forcing myself to sit still and forcing myself to breathe. When I’m in a panic attack I know I wanna just pace or something and sitting still is the last thing I want to do because of the adrenaline. But I reclaim control of the situation by sitting still and breathing, I’m telling my body that I’m ok, and that I’m still in control. Also thank you so much for you sweet words!!!!!!

jessica_c

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@Princess Lorita Thank you so much for this and no worries about the time you took your respond , I truly hope ur situation gets better too and I’m sorry to hear that you’ve been having issues with your stepdad , that’s very helpful advice thank you ❤️

Princess Lorita

Date posted: 1y

@jessica_c Thank you so much! Do you think you would like to email? My email is crystalpinkrose@hotmail.com

jessica_c

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@Princess Lorita Yes I would like that ( :

jessica_c

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@Princess Lorita Hey I just came here to say I hope ur doing ok, my gmail keeps telling me that my account is full with storage and that at some point I wouldn’t receive messages , and it finally happened I think it’s because I switched my account to my original since I just recently graduated highschool they deleted my other email, but unfortunately I couldn’t receive what you sent me it shows me on my end you sent a message but it won’t show me much , but maybe we can chat on here time to Time ugh yea I really wish they had chats): well anyway i hope you are okay

Princess Lorita

Date posted: 1y

@jessica_c Hi sweet girl!!! I’m very sorry I didn’t see this until now!! You are just fine! You have my email so if you ever get another feel free to reach out!!! We can talk on here anytime!

jessica_c

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@Princess Lorita Hey I’m sorry I’m just seeing this too , that would be awesome ((: thank u for being so kind

lizzieisanxious

Date posted: 19w

vent,, feeling a bit hopeless

i’m so sorry, this is a bit longer than i anticipated. for the people that struggle with periods on this app, i’ve had irregular ones all my life. the one i’m having now has been going on for almost two and a half weeks, i’m in so much pain, and i’ve bled through pants multiple times a day since i’ve been on it. i went to the gyno earlier this year for my first pap smear and tried talking to her about the problems i had previously faced. it felt like she ignored me and rushed through my appointment. i had to go ahead make another appointment with her because she could see me the soonest (since i was already established with her. every other office i called could only take me starting late june) due to the issues i stated previously. i’m extremely nervous to go because i’m scared she won’t listen to my issues like last time. i’ve also gone to the er a few times trying to figure out what’s wrong, but they all just do a blood test and an ultrasound and tell me to go home. i’m swimming in medical bills that i already can’t pay. on top of that, my ocd is getting to a point of being extremely debilitating. i tried seeing if the app would accept my insurance, but they don’t. even with a payment plan, i absolutely cannot afford to find therapy here. i’ve also tried looking at therapists near me, but it seems like none of them specialize in ocd. i live in a small town, so in a way that’s expected, but it doesn’t help my case. i’ve been feeling incredibly weak due to the blood loss and the lack of therapy. i just need some kind words to help me keep a positive attitude, because it’s been extremely hard to do so as of late.

OCDMM

Date posted: 14w

Lonely and struggling

OCD can be so isolating. I’m in a health anxiety spiral and struggling at work. I feel like I am failing everywhere and feeling very alone. My support system is tired of hearing about my fears, health wise and work wise. I find myself crying a lot. I don’t particularly enjoy doing anything anymore. I feel like I just can’t get comfortable in my skin or my head sometimes. I’m not sure how to else to describe it. Like nothing soothes me or makes it better. Even sleep is bad dreams and waking up anxious all night. I’ve always felt different from everyone else but when I’m on meds I can fake it better and I feel more connected. I want to go back on SSRI’s but I’ve been dealing with health issues and the meds exacerbate them so am delaying for the time being

wrdem

Date posted: 12w

feeling extra hopeless today

i am nearly constantly extremely anxious and i don't want to live like this. my family and friends are so done dealing with me to the point that i feel that i'd be better off completely alone. every small twinge or pain in my body sends me into a panic, and if it's not that it's something else i manage to be worrying over. i'm fairly certain my stress has caused an ulcer to form. i try to sit with myself and not seek reassurance/check myself for issues but it is genuinely agonizing at times. most days i sleep 12-14 hours a day because it gets to a point that i cannot deal with it anymore and i take something to sleep. sometimes i do feel that i would be better off just not around so i wouldn't have to feel this any longer. i do a lot of unhealthy things to cope (drinking, smoking, and otc sleeping pills being the main culprits) and those habits end up hurting me in the long run and making me more anxious. i do have a counselor and she is great but i'm having a really hard time finding a medication provider under my insurance. i really really do want to get better because this is the most miserable i have ever been and i hate being like this and exhausting myself and the people around me. i've been told a big part of the healing process is to make yourself sit with your thoughts and deal with the uncertainty and fear as it comes, but it feels torturous to do that. sometimes reading through these posts does make me feel better knowing that i'm not alone but lately i have been unable to pull myself out of this frantic state. what are some healthier ways to cope/distract yourself that you guys find to be at least semi-effective? i am genuinely willing to try anything to make this terrible feeling go away

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