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How do I know if it's rocd or how I actually feel? I don't want to lose him because I know id never find another person like him. I am only 15 but I really did feel that he was the love of my life before the thoughts. I still feel like he is but I feel like I don't love him. Every single person in my life tells me that the way I act around him hasn't changed at all. We've been together for 11 months and this has only been an issue after I stopped taking the microgynon 30 birth control pill about a month and a half ago. I only took it for 6 weeks to help with my period pains. Id never thought about not loving him before. I just want to love him again. I've never been happier than before this. I've been in love with him since we met when we were 11 and it only took him 3 years to ask me out. I don't want to lose him or the future we planned together, or his family or his cats. I just really don't feel like I love him and when I'm really deep in a spiral I can't tell if I even want to love him. I just want it back and I wish this never happened to me. Please help me love him again

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 22w ago

Hey there, First, I want to say that what you’re experiencing is incredibly tough, and it’s brave of you to share your feelings. ROCD can make you doubt your feelings and cause a lot of confusion, but know that you’re not alone in this. It’s important to recognize that your feelings of doubt and anxiety are symptoms of ROCD, not a reflection of your true feelings. You mentioned that your thoughts started after stopping the Microgynon 30 birth control pill. Hormonal changes can definitely affect mood and anxiety levels, which might be contributing to how you’re feeling right now. Here are some steps that might help you navigate through this: 1. Acknowledge the ROCD: Understand that ROCD is making you question your feelings. The intrusive thoughts and doubts are part of the disorder, not a reflection of reality. 2. Reflect on Your History: Think about the times before these thoughts started. You’ve known him since you were 11, and you’ve been in love with him for a long time. These feelings didn’t just disappear; they’re being overshadowed by anxiety. 3. Listen to Loved Ones: The people around you who see your interactions say nothing has changed. Trust their perspective—they see your genuine feelings even when you’re struggling to see them yourself. 4. Seek Professional Help: Talking to a therapist, especially one experienced with OCD, can provide you with tools and strategies to manage these intrusive thoughts. Cognitive-behavioral therapy (CBT) and Exposure and Response Prevention (ERP) are effective treatments for OCD. 5. Practice Self-Compassion: Be kind to yourself. It’s okay to feel confused and scared. Remind yourself that these feelings are part of the disorder and not a reflection of your true feelings. 6. Stay Connected: Keep engaging in activities and conversations with your partner that make you feel connected. Sometimes, just spending quality time together without focusing on your doubts can help. 7. Consider Hormonal Influences: Since your symptoms started after stopping birth control, it might be helpful to discuss this with a healthcare provider. They can provide insights on how hormonal changes might be affecting your mental health. Remember, your love for your partner is still there, even if it feels buried under anxiety right now.

Username: avirgofrombrklynavirgofrombr...

Date posted: 22w ago

Listen. What you fell out of “love” isn’t it really that. You are in a phase of your relationship where this is true love. You fell out of the honeymoon phase and that is normal! This is why relationships take work! I remember this fear I had and learnt I still do love him but it just takes work. “Love is not a feeling, love is a choice”. I cannot recommend enough this channel called awaken to love. It’s reduce my rocd symptoms to 0. Well it switched topics but yk.

Username: oliviak2305

Date posted: 3y ago

Is this ROCD or not? I continuously keep having doubts about my feelings for my boyfriend. I’ve never had this before with my previous relationships and it’s really upsetting because this is the first boy that’s actually treating me like how i deserve. I feel like i’m in a bubble when it’s to do with him. I feel like i can’t emotionally get to him or connect to him. Whenever I think about him or see photos of him i get anxious and stuff. I know i want to be with him forever and i panic about it going wrong. I’m scared i’m going to end up giving in to the doubts and end it😞Whenever i think about the future it makes me anxious, it’s like i’m turning my emotions off. I keep crying after being intimate with him and i don’t know why, i’m panicking it’s because i’m losing feelings for him. I look at other couples and ask myself why am i not like them, why am i not in love like them. They make it look easy and it’s making me doubt everything. I’ve been with my boyfriend for 5 months and it’s amazing when i don’t have these horrendous doubts. He’s so patient with me and he loves me and worships the ground that I walk on yet and I still have these doubts. They came when our relationship started getting serious. I keep asking my friends and mum for reassurance if i love him and it’s making me so so sad. I feel like if i love him i shouldn’t be having these feelings. He’s not done anything wrong and i feel so guilty for it. Is this OCD or me? Plz help :(

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Username: purpleturtle730

Date posted: 33w ago

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rocd is ruining me and my life and my relationship. i feel so disconnected from my boyfriend bc of it and it’s so frustrating but i also feel so numb that i can’t even feel frustrated or upset or anxious or anything bad when the bad thoughts come bc it’s been so excessive over the past couple of months. i don’t feel anything like i use to and i just wish i could love him peacefully and purely the way i use to with no worry or doubt. i feel like he deserves better bc my mind is constantly telling me i want someone else secretly or makes over analyze anything and everything with him or about him and creates so much doubt in my mind. it feels so real to the point that i feel like i’m betraying him and even though i’m not actually DOING anything to him or behind his back or anything it feels like i would be lying and deceiving him to continue being a good girlfriend and just being good to him if that makes sense. like when i’m actually with him or talking to him it’s mostly good im not thinking badly too much but as soon as he’s gone it all comes and it feels like i’m hiding a different, bad, personality from him when he’s not around. he’s such a good person and i’ve done everything to be so good to him bc i want to and he deserves it all. but inside i feel like don’t know myself at all anymore. i want to get past it but i feel like even if i do i’ll feel like i’m hiding a past betrayal from him. i don’t want to lose him. can anyone help with any of this or share ways they’ve gotten past this.

Username: Anonymous

Date posted: 27w ago

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ever since my rocd started nothing w my bf has felt the same. i constantly overthink my feelings and if ive lost feelings or if ive just lost the spark and am unable to regain it. sometimes i look back at old texts and pictures and remember how it used to make me feel when i didnt struggle with my rocd and i cant even resonate w that feeling anymore despite wanting to so badly. of course i do not want to lose feelings and any indication that i do feels like the end of the world to me. but every single day i continue to fixate on trying to feel something genuine in the moment or just how i feel about him overall and i can't feel what i want to feel which simply continues my ocd cycle. it makes me notice other people too who i dont even want to notice and i cant tell how much of it is ocd bcs some of it feels like it comes before my ocd thoughts hit. and even on my best days when i'm not struggling it's still there and whatever i do feel, i think it's forced or not the same. i want some hope that i'll eventually be able to go back to how i used to be or that it'll start to feel gwnuine and like the butterfly inducing crush i used to have on him all the time. can someone please give me some advice i'm losing hope and i'm having a severe episode :(

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