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The worst part is how inescapable it can feel. Most people can get some temporary relief by finding a “flow state.” It’s any activity that requires your full attention, something that you feel like you “lose yourself” in when you’re doing it. It could be writing or doing a puzzle or exercising or playing an instrument. Find something that gives you flow and lets you get out of your head for a bit.

The worst thing about OCD is that when it starts it takes you on the most unbearable and infinite rollercoaster of your life (nausea included in the price). I know that. My most recent flare-up started the second I met my now boyfriend. First, it convinced me that he was a player just because we met on Tinder and we agreed on a situationship for two months before making it official — dumb, I know, but there I was. THEN, ever since two months, it ranges from “you don’t want him anymore now” to “you are just disgusted because you know he talked to other girls on Tinder” — duh?? We were BOTH on Tinder?? You know what the worst part is, though? Getting over a theme and knowing how hard and lengthy the process is and fearing its comeback… it leaves you in constant anxiety.