Username: Jesuslover28

Date posted: 18w ago

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Hello all, so I have been struggling with intrusive thoughts that come against God and his spirit. And I can't tell if it's me anymore or OCD. Sometimes I'll get one bad thought about his spirit And then the thoughts just stick around scaring me And confusing me. I keep getting super hot and feel like I'm on fire. What if these thoughts are coming from me is my biggest fear and idk what to do about it. Idk who I am anymore and I'm worried that I am a bad person. What if these thoughts stick around forever and I will never recover from these thoughts. I'm having trouble excepting that they are intrusive because they scare me so bad I want to be 1000% sure I'm not offending God. But a part of me can't shake the feeling that it is me. I'm scared and nervous and I haven't slept good in almost 3 months. I'm really tired of fighting this and scared at the same time what if It was me all along and that I'm never gonna make it to heaven.

Username: happiness._.123happiness._.123

Date posted: 18w ago

Listen bro u love God right? U respect him and see u are bothered by the negative thoughts your OCD gives you and if these thoughts trouble you and don't pleasure you then it is definitely not u so chill bro God knows it is just OCD and he won't punish you he knows the real you

Username: Jesuslover28Jesuslover28

Date posted: 18w ago

I do love me some God, but I just want to be able to appreciate the holy Spirit without negativity, it feels so real and scary.

Username: happiness._.123happiness._.123

Date posted: 18w ago

@Jesuslover28 I was having the same thoughts why they are not going away will i end up like this for my entire life when I was 13 years old I had this thoughts firstly and then after 3 years they hit me so hard and then I convinced myself that fear is not a solution and i let them be present without stopping them yeah felt guilty but after that I had control on my fear and they never troubled me like they used to do now i didn't even remember those thoughts and just treat them as bad memory and let it go when it pops coz OCD wants u to freak out but u should not freak out u know the real you

Username: Jesuslover28Jesuslover28

Date posted: 18w ago

@happiness._.123 Ngl this has been helpful, it's just sometimes the urge to just say it is like there. Or sometimes it just feels so God and that I like it. Honestly maybe he feels good to the Dark side but I will never ever say anything bad about God ever. I love him with all my heart and it hurts my brain when these thoughts pop up.

Username: happiness._.123happiness._.123

Date posted: 18w ago

I totally understand you as I have been through this but their is always good after bad and everything ends till now i have been through so many themes like am just 18 and I have gone through tons of themes but I am over it and will keep getting over it and I am strong now and so will u dw

Username: Jesuslover28Jesuslover28

Date posted: 18w ago

I'm glad u are doing better knowing people have gone through the same thing and recovered helps me. Do u have any advice tho on what to do exactly to get rid of these thoughts?

Username: happiness._.123happiness._.123

Date posted: 18w ago

@Jesuslover28 Umm... honestly venting out do helps i mean not reassurance but venting out even on a paper or in front of someone like this app for example and breathing exercises when anxiety hits hard I did this and moreover being strong, never get weak by your own mind you are strong and you will fight this and will be over this and I never got professional help idk what it's like but if u can get do get they can help you more I wish I got at that time when all this started so that I never had to figure out by myself about things but ig that happened for a reason coz fighting by my own made me strong and independent but professional help helps us more and makes us stronger

Username: Jesuslover28Jesuslover28

Date posted: 18w ago

@happiness._.123 Thank you for responding, I've tryed to tell my parents but they think I'm just crazy and that I don't need help so I kinda rely on God and the internet to help me.

Username: happiness._.123happiness._.123

Date posted: 18w ago

Praying to God is the best therapy ever i believe ✨

Username: Jesuslover28Jesuslover28

Date posted: 18w ago

Facts

Username: Jesuslover28Jesuslover28

Date posted: 18w ago

Just a quick question since you went through what I'm going through have you ever felt angry and indifferent towards your thoughts I don't understand why I feel this way but it's quite concerning tbh

Username: happiness._.123happiness._.123

Date posted: 18w ago

@Jesuslover28 Yeah I felt like why my ? Why my mind is having such thoughts ahhhh!!! Stop it i can't handle anymore I get angry on my own mind

Username: ocdr1ocdr1

Date posted: 18w ago

I am going through the same thing rn, I've been like that for the past 5 years, and everytime I get rid of one topic another one pops up and stick. Right now I am struggling with a thought that is really affecting my life 24/7 and can't live any happy moment because of it, if I let the thought be present and I don't fight it I would feel so guilty, knowing that I've tried not to fight the thoughts and let them pass, but everytime a new thought pops up that make me wanna fight it.

Username: Jesuslover28Jesuslover28

Date posted: 18w ago

Yeah I understand that my mind is my own worst enemy ik none of what my mind says is true but when I try to counter it, it just makes me doubt and I'm tired of it, I keep fighting because if I don't I get worried and concerned, I can't just let these thoughts sit there in my brain they are too wrong for them to even be in my brain. It makes me sick tbh

Username: ocdr1ocdr1

Date posted: 18w ago

@Jesuslover28 Yes same is happening to me. We should try not to fight these thoughts, because these are not our thoughts, it's the OCD, and God knows it's not us who thinks like that, it's hard but we should try our best.

Username: Jesuslover28Jesuslover28

Date posted: 18w ago

@ocdr1 It is very hard especially when it feels so real. But what I do is after awhile I will pray and it does help alot, and I try to focus on God, but I think God is proud of us for not giving up and to keep going he sees how hard we have it and we keep going he must be the most proud father in the world.

Username: ocdr1ocdr1

Date posted: 18w ago

@Jesuslover28 Agreed! He must be so proud of us! Praying also helps me but I cannot focus 100%, the thoughts always come in the way and I have blasphemous thoughts and it ruins my focus

Username: Jesuslover28Jesuslover28

Date posted: 18w ago

@ocdr1 Yeah, I understand my mind keeps attacking the holy Spirit and it scares me because I know it's not right. Ik I love him because he showed me how much I Do. And when I'm really tired it scares me the most because I just don't have the strength to fight.

Username: ocdr1ocdr1

Date posted: 18w ago

@Jesuslover28 You are strong enough. I once read something that God gave us this fight because he knows we are strong enough to fight it. He knows what are we capable of, and he knows we will get rid of it. So hopefully everything will be alright🙏🏻

Username: Jesuslover28Jesuslover28

Date posted: 18w ago

@ocdr1 Amen! God is good

Username: happiness._.123happiness._.123

Date posted: 18w ago

Yeah the same thing bruh when I get over one other pops up but I have fought them till now nd will defeat them one day I am strong now

Username: ocdr1ocdr1

Date posted: 18w ago

@happiness._.123 You are doing great! Keep going

Username: Puppy

Date posted: 2y ago

Confusion

Sometimes I have thoughts that I would normally assume to be ocd, not sound like ocd. I start to think/feel that it's God telling me to do these things?? I then end up feeling guilty for not immediately implementing these things into my life. I hate that so much of what used to feel like ocd seems unclear. I don't feel like a good person. I know a lot of sermons aren't made with ocd in mind, but I feel like I'm not listening to God if I don't listen to thoughts I would've thought were ocd before

Username: Mr. Motivation

Date posted: 1y ago

OCD thoughts?

Hello! Lately I’m dealing with my brain giving me intrusive scenarios or almost giving me worst case scenarios and my mind instantly believes them! For example: My Brain will give me an intrusive scenarios like “what if god is actually punishing me with these thoughts!” Then my brain gives me negative emotions towards god and being a Christian it’s just heart breaking!

Username: Schaune

Date posted: 40w ago

Intrusive Thoughts Feels like another person in my head

Last week, I had a really bad OCD spiral, where I was convinced that I was in fact paranoid and going "crazy". I ended up going to the ER, and they confirmed that it was in fact my OCD and prescribed me meds. I met with a few psychiatrists and they also confirmed that I have OCD. I started therapy with NOCD on Tuesday, and had a great session, and felt great! And yesterday, I was doing pretty good, where I was able to go into the office, and have a normal work day. I still had those intrusive thoughts regarding paranoia but didn't cause me distress and kind of just pushed them away with ease. This morning, I started having some bad intrusive thoughts where I see myself trying to fight the negative thoughts in my head. These intrusive thoughts sometimes feels like its another person in my head. I've had these experiences before, and I tell myself that these are just my thoughts, and not anybody else's, and I am afraid that I am believing that there is some kinda entity in me trying to convince me that these intrusive thoughts are true. Coming from a very religious background, it makes it even harder for me to push these thoughts away because people in church will tell you that it is an evil spirit causing this distress. I know that this doesn't make sense from a rational perspective, but it makes me always question that it might be true. I find myself trying to tell this "entity" or spirit that it doesn't belong in my brain, which makes me feel like I might have a more severe mental illness.

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