Scared and Tired

Does anyone else get the theme of fear of going crazy or into a psychosis ? I’ve been having that fear lately and it has been the worse ever. I’ve never had these thoughts before and I don’t know what triggered them that they won’t go way. I couldn’t eat for days from how scared I was of these thoughts. I keep having intrusive thoughts like what if you’re imagining it for example I was at TJ Maxx with my mom and I was looking for her and when I saw her a thought popped into my head like “what if that’s not her and your imagining it” it was so scary that I wanted to cry. Of course apart of me knows that’s not true but the thoughts keep popping up. I’m so scared and just want to be myself again. So if anyone has gone through this theme can you please tell me what helped you. I’ve also struggled with harm ocd, suicidal ocd and a lot of health anxiety. I can’t afford therapy so if yall have any recommendations on what helped your ocd please let me know. I’m so tired and feel so helpless. I want my life back.

Username: AnnuxAnnux

Date posted: 16w ago

I have this right now. One i can tell you, that this is very common and a lot of OCD patients suffer from this. You are okay, its just a lots of anxiety and absurd thoughts. Even healthy people get these thoughts, but they are unbothered by them, but we who have OCD get scared and we start to question those feelings. Just make sure you can ignore those thoughts as much as you can, just accept that "okay that was random" and go on. I know its hard, but trust me, it will be harder if you will start to think about that absurd thought, thats where the OCD feeds more and more. You will not go into psychosis, its just not that simple and it does not work that way. Also, if u were going into psychosis, most likely you even would not notice that. In a panic attack or in anxiety a healthy mind has three things in mind that scares them 1) going crazy 2)dying 3)loss of control. If u have one of these fears, then i can mostly assure you that you are fine. People who really suffer from psychosis or who go crazy, they dont feel that fear at the moment. Be safe and take care, you got this!

Username: abigaild99abigaild99

Date posted: 16w ago

I've been heavily dealing with this as well. i've been having a lot of issues with depersonalization on top of it which only makes things worse. But i definitely go into a spiral about "what if i go crazy" or "what if im under so much stress i just snap and lose my mind". it's such a scary thought and the fear of losing control is awful but also really common as ive come to learn. you aren't alone in these feelings!

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 16w ago

I’ve had this theme so know exactly what your feeling. I’m always here as I know how scary it can feel

Username: Misstama65Misstama65

Date posted: 16w ago

I've been dealing with this. I find myself checking to make sure I really heard or saw things. Asking others if they hear and see them. There's nothing ever wrong... It's just the fear. I'm working on not checking when the thought pops up or I hear a sound I can't identify. It is exhausting though. We have to teach our brain to stop reacting. So hard...

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 16w ago

@Misstama65 Yeah, as much as I want to ask my mom if she sees what I see I know that would be a compulsion and that will only feed ocd making it think it’s right. We have to remember we’re in control not ocd.

Username: Misstama65Misstama65

Date posted: 16w ago

@Anonymous Oh my gosh... I remember visiting my mom. I put a warm container of food in the fridge and saw steam coming off it. I had the thought maybe I was hallucinating it, freaked out and asked my poor mom over and over if she saw it to. Yikes...

Username: MalisimoMalisimo

Date posted: 16w ago

The “what if” is the hook trying to pull you into the ocd loop. If you bite and try to solve the question you will be in the loop. You need your realize the question “what if that is not her” has no answer. It’s also is not a problem that requires you to solve it. If you do try to answer it you will have then created an actual problem and need to exit the loop. The loop is this, what if, the anxiety spike, the trying to solve it compulsion, relief, and repeat. The easiest thing to do is to allow your body to feel the anxiety and do not engage with the what if. Your body will naturally release the energy created by the spike. If you do engage you will reinforce the belief this is a problem that needs to be solved. You can always answer the what if back with a neutral answer if they helps, something like yeah maybe it’s not idk, nothing I could do about that. Never ever engage with problem solving or you will be stuck. Good luck, you got this!

Username: Amalia :)Amalia :)

Date posted: 15w ago

@Malisimo I agree! sometimes the best way to break the loop is to pay no attention or take away its power. A great tool I learned was to agree with the thoughts in a nonchalant manner. Or give your thoughts a funny name For example my ocd is named, drunk uncle Bobby. Why? Because ocd is that drunk uncle so is never invited yet shows up anyways. So when I have these thought of harm ocd. I think, “Am I going to hurt this person??” And respond with… “maybe? But that just drunk uncle Bobby talking” Kinda helps. Maybe give it a shot 😅

Username: gracexocdgracexocd

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 16w ago

This has been my major theme in ocd and exactly what started my ocd. It’s rough. But it’s a super common OCD theme! The exposures helped me a lot and just thinking that if it were to happen, I’d be okay and I’d figure it out just like everything else in my life!

Username: Anonymous

Date posted: 3y ago

Really thought about whether or not to post this but I’m really struggling and wondering if anyone has gone through the same thing/what helped them out of it. I have fears of psychosis/schiz/delusions and I started having intrusive thoughts that sound and feel delusional even though I know they’re not true, and I don’t actually believe them. I obsess over whether I think they’re true and if I’m actually delusional, then I start to feel really disconnected and dreamy (like derealization?) but then I get worried that I’m actually dissociating and/or losing my mind. I rly struggle w these thoughts as they make me so uncomfortable and make me feel like I am delusional. I will reread things I wrote, rethink things I have already said to make sure they’re coherent, argue w my thoughts, constantly check to make sure I know who I am, where I am, know who my family is, etc. to ensure I’m not losing my mind. My themes switch from this, to harm ocd and I’m just really having a hard time w the thoughts mixed w the disconnected feeling. It makes me want to stay in bed forever and cry because I don’t wanna feel this way anymore. Any advice would be so helpful.

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Username: Anonymous 567

Date posted: 34w ago

Any advice?

So I’ve been in a pretty rough spiral/ocd spike for about a month now. I used to have this theme of being severely mentally ill or schizophrenic or psychotic and it went away for like 6 months and now it’s back full force. I have never hallucinated but I have this intense fear of what if I do. So with this theme I have these delusional thoughts that are just bizarre and I know how delusional they are but they feel so real and scary like I believe them. My body reacts by my stomach feeling uneasy and I’ll get a chill and just feel like I’m gonna be sick. Sometimes it doesn’t even have to be a thought per say.. it can just be a weird sensation or feeling and then I’ll become extremely anxious and borderline feel like I could panic. I can usually talk myself down from a full blown panic attack and but it’s just so distressing and I’m wondering if anyone else goes through this? I think it stems from a core fear of losing my family, ending up institutionalized away from my family and my family being devastated and judging me bc I “went crazy” please if anyone else can relate I’d appreciate any advice.

Username: AnonUser

Date posted: 17w ago

Tired of living in fear and questioning everything

I’m tired guys. I’m tired of thinking something is always wrong with my health, tired of letting random symptoms/ sensations take over my brain and make me think something is horribly wrong. Tired of thinking I need to go to the doctors to get X & Y looked at. I’m tired of always assuming worst case scenario. I’m tired of constantly thinking if something is unethical/ immoral if I don’t do something, tired of always thinking I’m offending a religious higher being, tired of thinking I’m a bad/ disgusting person for my thoughts. I’ve had OCD ruin so many things for me that should have been fun. It’s ruined intercourse/ intimacy because of religious thoughts, or I keep thinking about STDs/ infections. I’ve been having panic attacks lately, something I’ve never experienced, because of life changes and it’s all gotten in the way of my structured life and it’s been very uncomfortable. Lately I’ve been feeling like I’m in danger, or nothing is real. Right now I’m fearing the most that I’m losing my mind, who I am, and I’m just so scared of my mental health getting worse and going manic or developing a dangerous mental illness. My mental health has NEVER been this bad. This is all new and it’s so scary. I was just fine a few months ago, sure I was dealing with other OCD stuff, the intrusive thoughts, the fears, the repetitive actions just to make sure something is the way I want it/ brings me comfort. But ever since my structure was changed/ ruined, it’s all been downhill. I just finished an EMT program, and that messed with me. Saw/ experienced things I’ve never done before and man, it’s really messed with me. Working on getting a new job in healthcare but still don’t have insurance so getting a new OCD specialized therapist has been difficult. Can someone relate just so I don’t feel like I’m crazy?..

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