Politics

I'm doing a lot better with my OCD episode but I'm finding it hard to cope with what's happening in my country. It's hard because it is scary and people keep telling me I should be afraid. That everything is over and it's the apocalypse. I don't think it's productive to be gripped with terror but I don't know how to calm down.

I feel unbelievably stressed out all the time, especially in the state of the world today. It seems like every time I open social media I’m shown grief in every capacity of life. What is happening here (the US), what’s happening overseas, etc. I have no idea how to navigate how I’m supposed to build a life and my career when it feels like the world is sort of falling apart around me. I feel really depressed and hopeless about it. I think it’s really easy to self isolate, especially being diagnosed with a deeply internalized anxiety disorder like OCD, and I’m just curious I how many people are feeling it too? I deeply crave community and I find it harder more and more everyday to get myself to a point where I even feel like it’ll do any good. I know this isn’t the first time in history that people have had to try to figure out some kind of normalcy in the face of political turbulence.. but with how much news and information we’re getting at every second of every day, I’m wondering if there is more damage being done than what we realize. It feels completely irresponsible to ignore everything that’s happening around me, but it’s overwhelming and making it to the point where I don’t know what to do with myself anymore.

I've been watching a lot of mainly political videos recently. It started as trying to get a better understanding of everything going on in the world and how we got here in the first place, but one of the last videos I came across was about certain hateful groups of people that are becoming more active in recent years due to varying factors. The whole video made me so uncomfortable. Rightfully so, I think, even if it was informative. But now I can't stop thinking about how scary it is that humans can be sort of indoctrinated into such hateful mindsets and views... These issues have existed for a long time in the US, but recently, I've noticed that a lot of people are being more vocal about certain discriminatory views they hold and things. Maybe I'm overloading myself with too much information. I don't know. I'm just feeling really unsettled after that video. I can't imagine ever becoming someone like that, but it scares me to think about :(