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- 37w
Ignoring thoughts
Trying to ignore my thoughts but it feels like they are only coming at me more now😭 im just at a loss i dont know what to do
Trying to ignore my thoughts but it feels like they are only coming at me more now😭 im just at a loss i dont know what to do
Imagine your intrusive thoughts as an overzealous street performer desperately vying for your attention. This performer pulls out all the stops - juggling flaming swords, contorting into impossible shapes, and even attempting risky stunts. Their act is designed to shock, awe, and provoke a reaction from passersby. However, you're a savvy spectator. You recognize this performance for what it is - an elaborate show with no real substance or danger. Instead of gasping, applauding, or tossing coins into their hat, you simply observe with detached amusement. You know that engaging with the performance will only encourage more outrageous acts and drain your time and energy. As you continue your walk, resisting the urge to react, you find that the performer's antics fade into the background. Soon, you turn a corner, leaving the noisy spectacle behind, and are rewarded with a serene, quiet street where you can enjoy your own thoughts in peace
Someone told me that I shouldn't be trying to ignore them and more accepting of them which I know sounds bad or like impossible, but if you can't change what you think then you gotta accept how you think and feel and overtime that acceptance will make the thought weaker and it will go, I've been trying to do the same and it has been working and going away for longer periods of time, I think the main thought and feeling that "accepts" the thought or thoughts your having is by thinking "so what" like "what if that does happen, or I am this person" in a non worrying way, like you wouldn't care either way, basically not caring for your fears and being like okay if they did happen or they are true
I cannot for the life of me stop ruminating or checking how I feel about thoughts or focusing on thoughts or creating more thoughts. I feel like I’m losing my mind. I want to scream. I try not to ruminate about the thoughts, but trying not to just makes me think about them more. I try not to check, but somehow, I still check. I want to let a thought sit in the background, but the more I try not to focus on it, the more I end up focusing on it. I don’t want the thought to expand because that feels like engaging with it, but I can’t just stop it from expanding. It feels impossible. People keep saying I’m in control of my compulsions, and maybe that’s true for the physical ones. But when it comes to the mental compulsions, I swear I have no control. It feels like I’m missing something that everyone else seems to have, like there’s some tool they’re using that I don’t have. Controlling mental compulsions has never felt possible for me. I’m starting to fear them. And every time someone says I’m in control and can just choose not to do them, I end up beating myself up even more when they happen. Or when I *choose* I guess. I don’t know anymore. If this is my fault, if I’m responsible for this, then what does that make me? I feel like a monster. I am at my wits’ end. How am I supposed to control mental compulsions when it feels like they control me? I freak out when they happen. They don’t bring me relief, they just make me panic. I want it to stop so bad.
I don’t know how to deal with the thoughts that come and barely gone. Usually, the brain often remembers and forgets things. People with OCD however struggle with trying to forget the intrusive thoughts because of the imbalance trying to convey what is real and if the thoughts in your head will come true. Just for the past few days, I was having fun and suddenly hit with a wave of obsessive thoughts and making me stuck with nowhere to go.
I’m trying to let them pass not engage nothing , trying to compusle but the thoughts won’t leave. My brain keeps telling me I should stab my dad for not asking if I’m okay after the death of my ex …
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