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- 26w ago
Ignoring thoughts
Trying to ignore my thoughts but it feels like they are only coming at me more nowš im just at a loss i dont know what to do
Trying to ignore my thoughts but it feels like they are only coming at me more nowš im just at a loss i dont know what to do
Imagine your intrusive thoughts as an overzealous street performer desperately vying for your attention. This performer pulls out all the stops - juggling flaming swords, contorting into impossible shapes, and even attempting risky stunts. Their act is designed to shock, awe, and provoke a reaction from passersby. However, you're a savvy spectator. You recognize this performance for what it is - an elaborate show with no real substance or danger. Instead of gasping, applauding, or tossing coins into their hat, you simply observe with detached amusement. You know that engaging with the performance will only encourage more outrageous acts and drain your time and energy. As you continue your walk, resisting the urge to react, you find that the performer's antics fade into the background. Soon, you turn a corner, leaving the noisy spectacle behind, and are rewarded with a serene, quiet street where you can enjoy your own thoughts in peace
Someone told me that I shouldn't be trying to ignore them and more accepting of them which I know sounds bad or like impossible, but if you can't change what you think then you gotta accept how you think and feel and overtime that acceptance will make the thought weaker and it will go, I've been trying to do the same and it has been working and going away for longer periods of time, I think the main thought and feeling that "accepts" the thought or thoughts your having is by thinking "so what" like "what if that does happen, or I am this person" in a non worrying way, like you wouldn't care either way, basically not caring for your fears and being like okay if they did happen or they are true
My mind just starts racing with thoughts all day. I overthink aswell so I just tend to sit in the thoughts and canāt escape. I mostly have thoughts that tell me I donāt like the things I do like snowboarding or backpacking or if I even if I love my girlfriend. Deep down I know I do but then I start getting worried that the more I think these things the more they come true. Then I have tons and tons of more thoughts throughout the day and it just feels like Iām constantly having anxiety and constantly battling my brain over things that donāt even make sense. Iām only 17 and this is extremely hard and I feel like Iām wasting these teenage years. I donāt know what to do or where to go. Iāve picked up reading my bible and praying more but the thoughts persist please help.
I cannot for the life of me stop ruminating or checking how I feel about thoughts or focusing on thoughts or creating more thoughts. I feel like Iām losing my mind. I want to scream. I try not to ruminate about the thoughts, but trying not to just makes me think about them more. I try not to check, but somehow, I still check. I want to let a thought sit in the background, but the more I try not to focus on it, the more I end up focusing on it. I donāt want the thought to expand because that feels like engaging with it, but I canāt just stop it from expanding. It feels impossible. People keep saying Iām in control of my compulsions, and maybe thatās true for the physical ones. But when it comes to the mental compulsions, I swear I have no control. It feels like Iām missing something that everyone else seems to have, like thereās some tool theyāre using that I donāt have. Controlling mental compulsions has never felt possible for me. Iām starting to fear them. And every time someone says Iām in control and can just choose not to do them, I end up beating myself up even more when they happen. Or when I *choose* I guess. I donāt know anymore. If this is my fault, if Iām responsible for this, then what does that make me? I feel like a monster. I am at my witsā end. How am I supposed to control mental compulsions when it feels like they control me? I freak out when they happen. They donāt bring me relief, they just make me panic. I want it to stop so bad.
I donāt know how to deal with the thoughts that come and barely gone. Usually, the brain often remembers and forgets things. People with OCD however struggle with trying to forget the intrusive thoughts because of the imbalance trying to convey what is real and if the thoughts in your head will come true. Just for the past few days, I was having fun and suddenly hit with a wave of obsessive thoughts and making me stuck with nowhere to go.
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