I just feel exhausted everyday trying to fight off these intrusive thoughts. It has ruined any enjoyment in my life. I feel like I can't go on with this hanging over my head. Trying to be positive, but it's hard when you have all this junk in your head. I just need some relief. Any advice? Or if you feel the same way let me know how you cope. Thanks
It is soooo hard and very exhausting. What has helped me cope the best is staying busy so your mind is off of the OCD. If you have a close friend or family member you can do things with or you can get into some sort of hobby that may include groups or join some sort of group. I feel like being around other people is just a really good distraction
Thank you. Maybe a hobby will help. Just need to think of something to divert my attention. I've isolated myself, so I know that's no good. I moved and don't have friends yet. I've been here 3 years and met 2 people. I've been hermiting with my husband. Maybe I should start planning things. Thanks for the advice. ☺
@Speckles Yes if you can someone make friends, I know it's hard but there has to be a way to find a solid friend or two.
@aliengurl Yes... there are things I can do here. I just need to engage myself. It's just hard when you feel so lousy.... but I'm going to push myself.
@Speckles I know.. it's soooo hard
@aliengurl It is and it stinks bc I wasn't like this before. Now I feel like I'm so alone. Thank you for getting back to me. It helps to know other people are going thru the same thing. ♥
@Speckles I know what you mean.. I was doing good for a while and now I feel like I'm kind of regressing and it's hard to get back to my other normal state. It's also tiring to have to act like everything is ok when you're struggling. You're definitely not alone
@aliengurl I know...I have to pretend to my husband bc he's sick of it. So I just act like it's all ok when inside I feel like crying and I'm dying. I hope you can get some relief too.
@Speckles Do you have a therapist?
@Speckles Thank you me too
@aliengurl Yes...I have one thru here. She helps, but I'm just not where I should be by now, which scares me
@aliengurl Do you see a therapist?
@Speckles Everyone has their own pace.
Yea man I'm in the same boat I'm so tired of worrying its so exhausting
Yes... it is. Sorry you are going thru it too. I just don't want to be admitted to another psych ward. It scares me since I've been in the hospital a few times
You have to learn NOT to fight them, or make judgements on them. Are you back to seeing your therapist? I highly suggest you do so.
I'm seeing my therapist weekly. I feel she doesn't know what to do with me anymore. IDK... thought I'd feel better after all this time
And you also need to work on daily mindfulness and life style changes, like a hobby as mentioned above. You cannot sit and stew all day—it isn’t healthy for ANYONE, much less those with mental illnesses.
What is mindfulness?? I need to look into that more. I know going to bed is so unhealthy, but I'm exhausted. I have to keep pushing myself thru this
Never feels like I can fully put my mind to rest. The problem with OCD for me is once I'm over one worry there's another buried deep into my mind that I'm not fully over. The two events I'm not completely over is when I tried to help a 17 year old with POCD when I was 19 and the topics unfortunately were detailed and even then I explained to them I wasn't comfortable with talking to them. I guess I just had a hard time saying no to someone needing help but it eventually made me so uncomfortable that I stopped talking with them altogether at some point. Then the other thing is being so worried that I committed a crime because my elbow touched someone's behind when I didn't want that to happen at all. I didn't want to listen to my OCD by saying move my arm or something horrible is going to happen so I didn't and then something bad actually did happen. I thought it would just be a light touch while zipping a bag up but then it was worse than I ever wanted it to be and it was so awkward and I hated it. I feel like I just won't be able to get back to the way I was before OCD started all of this. Aside from that I've just had extreme health anxiety but am too afraid to reach out to a PCP even though I need to. Something deep down is telling me I should do this but I'm just so anxious and embarrassed about sharing things to them. I can't even enjoy the things I used to do because this is constantly just messing up my life. I'm hoping I get a start of positivity next time I see my therapist. This just sucks. Feels like others around me are doing so much better than I am and I'm just kind of stuck on these same problems and feeling absolute shame and guilt from the past over and over again. I'm just so sick of dealing with this every single day so I just use escape whenever I can. Even that doesn't really work. I just wish I could go back in time.
I dont know what to do anymore. I think Ive had the 'pure O' version of OCD for more than ten years. I feel like so much of my life has been wasted from this disease. For the longest time I just tried to ignore the intrusive thoughts, and push them off as anxiety, and basically dissociated for years of my life. Feels like Ive just been on autopilot and a shell of myself for nearly 15 years. Its actually hard to even imagine of all the experiences, emotions, connections with others, and personal growth that Ive missed out on- if I do, I think it would be too much to handle. I think Ive even forgot and dont even know at this point what it is to live a normal life and experience positive emotions. Now that I sought treatment for it specifically, it feels like it's gotten worse. Like by acknowledging that part of myself, suddenly added focus just makes it more real and in the forefront now. I wonder if I am actually going insane. Will not go into details for reassurance but the thoughts just rip my soul out. Its so difficult as well because I will get random 'clarity moments' throughout the day where I feel like Ive solved something, then get completely derailed by another OCD thought stream and forget everything. It feels like Im just on a merry-go-round of hell, not going anywhere thinking I am at times.
I am having a real hard time with meta-ocd and thoughts about feeling depressed and be like this forever. Or the thought I never feel normal again or never feel connected to normal life things and normal people. The intrusive thoughts are here like the whole day and they are all about my mental health. And I obsess about how I feel and what I feel with everything I do. It’s so hard to explain. If someone- a therapist or someone who dealt with this has tips or word of encouragement right now, that would me great. I feel like everything I want to learn myself about ocd and coming to this forum also is a bit compulsive. It is so confusing 🫤
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