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- Dranagrace24
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- 7w ago
Spiritual Question
Just wondering if anyone else’s spiritual OCD seems to also effect your relationship with God and push you farther away from God when you really would rather be closer?
Just wondering if anyone else’s spiritual OCD seems to also effect your relationship with God and push you farther away from God when you really would rather be closer?
Yes! I struggled for a long time with this. Acts of faith actually became a compulsion for me and I didn't even realize it. It wasn't until I began to experience freedom from the OCD cycle that I began to really draw close to my Lord. It's very common. I'd actually like to start a group to support others going through this very thing.
Here's a list of 10 affirmations from God's word that have helped me tremendously over the years. God's word is true and unchanging. Please be careful to not use this as a compulsion, maybe in personal devotion time take 1 at a time. :-) WHO I AM IN CHRIST THE WORD OF GOD SAYS: 1. I am God's child for I am born again of the incorruptible seed of the Word of God that lives and abides forever. (1 Peter 1:23) 2. I am forgiven of all my sins and washed in the blood. (Ephesians 1:7; Hebrews 9:14; Colossians 1:14; 1 John 2:12; 1 John 1:9) 3. I am a new creation. (2 Corinthians 5:17) 4. I am a temple where the Holy Spirit lives. (1 Corinthians 6:19) 5. I am delivered from the power of darkness; Christ brings me into God's kingdom. (Colossians 1:13) 6. I am redeemed from the curse of the law. (1 Peter 1:18-19) 7. I am holy and without blame before God. (Ephesians 1:4) 8. I am established to the end. (1 Corinthians 1:8) 9. I have been brought closer to God through the blood of Christ. (Ephesians 2:13) 10. I am victorious. (Revelation 21:7)
I'll share this as my story, which was very specific. I actually walked away from the faith because of OCD. I am now slowly coming back in a healthy way. I'll not thrilled that happened, but for me specifically, with my specific obsessions around faith, it was probably the best thing that could have happened to me personally. So yes, I have some understanding of what you are saying. I never went into it wanting to leave my faith. I was very dedicated to it.
I’ve been going through this lately
OCD also causes us to judge and condemn ourselves, which takes us farther away from God.
Hey guys lol So the longer I’ve been in OCD therapy, the more my meds have helped quiet my mind: I realize how many things I have been doing that was compulsive that I didn’t realize was compulsive. And for some reason I felt like those compulsions helped me to feel closer to God. Like felt closer to my values. And now that I’m recognizing what I’m was doing and now that my medicine has helped create space between my thoughts and what to do next, I feel like fear was what helped me be close my values? Can anyone else relate? Or does anyone have tips on how to still feel close to your values with the absence of so much fear and paranoia caused from OCD?
Hey guys- I don’t know if any of you with religion/spirituality ocd struggle with the “unacceptable thoughts” about like evil and stuff but I’m struggling.. it feels like I believe that I want the evil stuff because I had demon-like voices in my head as ahead where I went to talk to God when I was experiencing great distress and then these evil thoughts came in and I let them in and like “ok-ed” evil stuff. Especially because I felt so forced into my faith journey as a kid so it’s like that “feeling rejected -> rebellion thing) but I also know that but I also have such fond memories of feeling so close to God to leaning on Him for so many things. It’s so hard because 90% of my memories as a kid, I struggled with severe ocd and no one knew what it was or how debilitating it could be I’m trying the ERP with these thoughts but😭 have any of you gone through the same things? It’s so strong In my mind because I know there’s actual spiritual warfare so I feel like - pray for me guys
OCD often makes me feel distant from God. I often feel unforgiven, unloved, and even hated. In my head I often view God as someone who hates me and who is always constantly disappointed in me. My relationship with him feels like an Obligation now more than a relationship. I’m always on the cusp of becoming an atheist, but I always draw myself back because I don’t want to give up my faith so fast, even if it’s been 4-5 years of living like this. I’m often at war with myself daily. There is never a day that I feel as though if I do one small thing whether it be buy something or eat something that I’m going to end up in eternal damnation. And even though I know it’s only OCD and it’s cognitive distortions, I still feel uneasy.
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