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Spiritual Question
Just wondering if anyone else’s spiritual OCD seems to also effect your relationship with God and push you farther away from God when you really would rather be closer?
Just wondering if anyone else’s spiritual OCD seems to also effect your relationship with God and push you farther away from God when you really would rather be closer?
Yes! I struggled for a long time with this. Acts of faith actually became a compulsion for me and I didn't even realize it. It wasn't until I began to experience freedom from the OCD cycle that I began to really draw close to my Lord. It's very common. I'd actually like to start a group to support others going through this very thing.
Here's a list of 10 affirmations from God's word that have helped me tremendously over the years. God's word is true and unchanging. Please be careful to not use this as a compulsion, maybe in personal devotion time take 1 at a time. :-) WHO I AM IN CHRIST THE WORD OF GOD SAYS: 1. I am God's child for I am born again of the incorruptible seed of the Word of God that lives and abides forever. (1 Peter 1:23) 2. I am forgiven of all my sins and washed in the blood. (Ephesians 1:7; Hebrews 9:14; Colossians 1:14; 1 John 2:12; 1 John 1:9) 3. I am a new creation. (2 Corinthians 5:17) 4. I am a temple where the Holy Spirit lives. (1 Corinthians 6:19) 5. I am delivered from the power of darkness; Christ brings me into God's kingdom. (Colossians 1:13) 6. I am redeemed from the curse of the law. (1 Peter 1:18-19) 7. I am holy and without blame before God. (Ephesians 1:4) 8. I am established to the end. (1 Corinthians 1:8) 9. I have been brought closer to God through the blood of Christ. (Ephesians 2:13) 10. I am victorious. (Revelation 21:7)
I'll share this as my story, which was very specific. I actually walked away from the faith because of OCD. I am now slowly coming back in a healthy way. I'll not thrilled that happened, but for me specifically, with my specific obsessions around faith, it was probably the best thing that could have happened to me personally. So yes, I have some understanding of what you are saying. I never went into it wanting to leave my faith. I was very dedicated to it.
I’ve been going through this lately
OCD also causes us to judge and condemn ourselves, which takes us farther away from God.
Im feeling really depressed and like i dont care about anything, and suddenly ive lost all desire for a relationship or being with anyone. I just dont care about anything right now but its kind of freaking me out.
Hey I feel like I just have this evil like whirring feeling of anxiety and like “something bad is gonna happen” and feeling you’re going to do things against God or like you already have I guess?
I'm reaching out in hopes of finding others who might relate to my experiences or offer insights. I'm dealing with a complex interplay of OCD, depression, and existential anxiety, and I'm struggling to make sense of it all. Here's what I'm experiencing: I have OCD with various manifestations, along with episodes of depression. I find myself in a cyclical pattern where, after a few weeks, I start to remind myself about my depressive tendencies. This reminder seems to trigger a cycle that actually makes me feel more depressed or at least more aware of depressive symptoms. When this happens, I often experience feelings of nihilism and existential dread. I try to think about my family - my two young boys and my wife - to find motivation or a sense of purpose, but this strategy often backfires, making me feel even more anxious and depressed. I constantly check my feelings, wondering if they're depressive or anxious. At the same time, I fear that my feelings of anxiety and panic might spiral out of control. I think about my emotions and thoughts on a meta-level, which means I'm not just experiencing feelings, but I'm also constantly analyzing the fact that I'm experiencing them. There's an existential component to my struggles, a fear of depression and anxiety itself, and a sense that this might be a self-fulfilling prophecy. Perhaps most frustratingly, I often have feelings, thoughts, or sensory experiences that I can't explain or put into words. I feel like I've never heard of these before, which leaves me feeling deeply misunderstood. Does anyone else experience something similar? How do you cope with this complex web of symptoms and experiences? I'm particularly interested in hearing from those who've found ways to break the cycle of meta-cognition and self-fulfilling anxiety. Any insights, shared experiences, or strategies would be deeply appreciated. Thank you for your time and understanding.
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