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Hello my fellow OCD Alumni lol.
Was wondering if anyone liked to share how they deal with Severe rumination and anxiety , as I’m always looking to Add to my tool box . Thanks 🙏
Was wondering if anyone liked to share how they deal with Severe rumination and anxiety , as I’m always looking to Add to my tool box . Thanks 🙏
I’m right here with you. Curious to see what people do. I find myself ruminating for most of the day. I’m long time suffering with OCD but recently putting a name to the intrusive thoughts Ive experienced throughout my life. I often ruminate about the start of my HarmOCD. It all started from watching a stupid psychological thriller. So dumb! When I catch my self ruminating I often say this is rumination, it’s not helpful and not productive. Sometimes that helps. Stay strong!
I get the same thing ! Ruminating over the start of my harm OCD. I have felt a little more anxiety in the last few days . Those are the moments I try to lean into the discomfort as much as possible . Whatever is triggering the anxiety , I try to think about that more. I was worried I would be late to work which made me feel pretty anxious , I thought about the worse case scenario of the situation on purpose. Whatever feelings come with anxiety I just invite and not resist
@Anonymous I’m in therapy and having a lot of trouble leaning into my anxiety. When I have any type of intrusive thought my rumination takes over. I attempt to sit with the anxiety but I end up asking internal questions and often checking my feelings. Before I know it the anxiety or thoughts are suppressed which starts the vicious loop again. Can you relate?
@JV24 The loop definitely happens but sometimes if I have leaned in as much as possible , responded with a maybe or maybe not response , then I might just not do anything . Just observe the thought . Maybe the thought will stay or maybe it will go away . Who knows? But I am acknowledging the thought , I just allow it to stay as long as it wants to stay like an annoying fly in the summer
@Anonymous I think my thoughts are centered on a fear of losing control. My mind turns against everything. If I can’t control my mind then I will be stuck like this for ever. If I can’t figure this out I will be stuck like this forever. My mind turns everything into an intrusive thought. I was reading something about people praying. Now every time i think of praying I instantly have an intrusive thought towards god. This causes me great anxiety which cause ruminating. It’s an endless loop. Any advice?
@JV24 I have the same fears of loosing control . “Maybe I will lose control , may I will not “ I may even write a worse case scenario script of what it would look like if I lost control. The only advice I would give is to bring this to your therapist and have them help you with some exposures around the fears. But you are not alone at all , that for sure
@Anonymous Thank you for advice and the confidence boost. This is a terrible thing to deal with. It’s people like you and platforms like this that give faith in combating this nonsense. Stay strong and keep spreading the love.
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I have really started to take control of my compulsions and im starting to string together better days! Still not great days or even good, but they are better!!! I have controlled my outward compulsions (googling, research, reassurance, checking) the past couple of days and felt the positive impact of that. But unfortunately, I am realizing that the rumination is still constant. My sexuality and relationship are the only two things constantly on my brain, and if they aren’t I freak out and wonder why im not thinking about them! Anyone have any advice on how to deal with the rumination. Sometimes I don’t even notice im doing it, but it’s taking up 90% of my day. Once I start to tackle this I think I may make some real big progress! Hope everyone is fighting today! ❤️
(Long read) hello everyone. i was out of the country for about 3-4 months and traveling. my ocd was not that bad at all and I was able to handle it even if it came up. on my way back home, it immediately started. i have learned how to handle it better, but i am more sad and just “awaiting” for something bad to happen. for example, i have sexual themed ocd. pocd and family related stuff, and also my ocd targeted my pets for about a year and it manifested into compulsions that disturbed me and made me not want to be around my cats. now that i am around my cats, i feel like “what if i harm them or do something bad?” or “what if you do those weird compulsions that happened before?” , when i look back on the compulsions that happened, it doesn’t feel like me and it was clearly driven by ocd, but it makes me worry i am just a sick person. i know myself and i know im not, but i had such a weird childhood and then ocd from 15 years old and up. so when these weird compulsions had happened , whether it was for the pet ocd theme or pocd or the family ocd, it feels like some sort of proof. anyways, i feel a bit for content with myself but i know how real ocd can feel and i just remember feeling so hopeless and suici da l, i just don’t want to go through that again. i take a more spiritual route of life and healing, and i wonder if anyone has some deep spiritual warmups or practices i could do to maybe open up my mind more? maybe to realize this is all in the mind? but also to not fight it… Not fight it meaning not let it take over my life. i racked up so much debt in therapy and i truly think i can get through this alone i just need a bit of help. but i dunno. any advice would help! thanks everyone ☀️
Hello everyone! This is my first post since downloading the NOCD app and wanted to share a little about my life with OCD. I was first diagnosed when I was 17 but truly started noticing there was something going on with me as early as 10. To summarize: I have the repetitive ritualistic type of OCD. Basically, I have a fear of becoming other people. I believe that if I perform an action, like turning off the sink or closing a door, or even breathing in and out while thinking about somebody, especially someone that I dislike, that eventually I will become just like that person or experience something they've been through that is negative; like health issues, personality issues, or social status decline. Simple example: I know this one dude named Richard, I worked with him in retail, and he told me about how his brother died at a young age. Now, it’s nighttime, and with that new information known about Richard, I believe, that If I take my contact out while thinking of Richard, or an image of him appears in my head while I’m taking out my contact, I believe that MY brother is going to eventually die too. What’s the solution?: I worked with another kid in retail. His name is Mikey, he was decently put together, and his brother didn’t die. So that means: Now with my contact still on my finger, I put it to my eyeball, and keep tapping at my eyeball with my contact while trying to get an image of Mikey perfectly timed, so that I can cancel out the image of Richard and save my brothers life. This is a challenge because the image of Richard, or I should say, the fear that my brother could die from this thought, is strong, and often times I have to think of other people (from other life experiences) along with Mikey just to feel confident that I got the image cancelled enough to move forward. Every day, I complete many actions and with every action comes a thought or image of some person I’ve encountered in my life that I’m either afraid of becoming or obtaining the same negative life experiences, which therefore means I also have all the othet people in my mind, at the ready, that cancel them out too. Every day I cancel people out and repeat actions disguised to the public. Sometimes it’s noticeable, but knowing how to cover your ugly side while making sure you don’t mess up your future with the wrong thought is just what I call life. I’m a man with a thousand people in his head and its been an EXHAUSTING journey. But through therapy and acceptance of myself, I have found a way to love with it. Like anything else, there are horrible days and okay days, but this is apart of me forever and im lucky to share it all with you! Can anyone relate?? Feel free to comment or reach out! - Matt
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