- Date posted
- 30w
Can anyone relate?
Is anyone else's parent being willfully ignorant? My psychiatrist literally told my mum I have ocd and anxiety and depression yet my mum gets so mad at me when I'm anxious and depressed?? She yells at me that im lazy and need to think of my future when I'm just trying and failing to keep myself alive I honestly believe she wants me gone. She makes horrible comments about how if I keep going this way I'll get locked up and do I like the way I am and that I'm getting worse instead of better and it's like how is any of that supposed to help. Today I stayed home from school and she said I'm not even supposed to be here so I should just shut up. Two weeks ago she grabbed me and literally pushed/threw me onto the floor which in theory a few years ago would have only gotten me a little upset but now with my ocd?? When she knows I'm TERRIFIED of germs? When I've avoiding even touching her and now I came into contact with her nasty carpet and bed. She said I was talking too loudly and obviously after that I was super freaked out and started yelling because now I had to shower and my whole body is crawling and why the hell would she do something so horrible knowing that I've been avoiding any sort of contact with her and any dirty thing for months? I don't care if she was mad because who the fuck does that? It was a whole argument and I threw my meds away and my neighbor heard me freaking out and came in the middle of the night and my mum said I was just "stressed" like yeah you THREW ME ON THE FLOOR. A day later she was trying to gaslight me about the situation I'm just so sick of this.