- Date posted
- 30w
POCD 20+ only I hate that I struggle with this
I hate that to this day I still struggle with porn. I've been seeing disturbing things when I look for safe content and it happens a lot because porn is just so fucked up now. Back when I was a young teenager I saw really uncomfortable, disturbing things and some of that stuff is still here even when I try my best not to see them. I try to make searches specifically geared towards real and fictional adults but I get playlists that involve fictional minors or really extreme taboos. I don't want to struggle with this anymore and it's taking a toll on my mental and physical health. I might have to just stop using my phone for a while altogether. I really hate that I deal with this and I feel alone in it. I can't talk to anyone about this in person except for my therapist. I just feel really helpless about this.